The Invisible Woman Chronicles

Well, the political nerd got her postcards from Postcards for Swing States. It's for the Supreme Court race in Wisconsin.   Yes, I'm skeptical and weary and it's not lost on me that I threw all of my postcards out and vowed I'm done like the 5 year old emotional toddler I was at the time. So I got over it.  No more throwing anything out.  So now there's no Black History Month, Women's History Month, Holocaust Remembrance, Pride, the list goes on and on. What are celebrating now?  Asshole month?  White Supremacy month?  Oh yeah.  Same thing.  My mistake. I think Tulsi Gabbard is going to be a no.  I'm not sure about RFK Jr.  Kind of 50/50 but for some stupid reason I think Kash Patel will make it.  So help us all. What a mess. I looked up black owned bookstores in the Milwaukee area and found one.  I will make a point of visiting it and asking for a history book.  I'm so sick of that attitude of well history makes us f...

I seem to be doing better.  I thought for sure I was going to wake up with an ugly cough. I had kind of resigned myself to making a phone call this morning and see if my doctor or any doctor could see me for this sinus infection that seems to be going away.  I can breathe better and if I got a cough, it's more loose.  I think the Mucinex helped me last night and sleep.  I slept for an hour after I signed off of work last night and slept in a little bit this morning. When my mom came back from her walk yesterday, she was horrified by the yard.  It's pretty bad when a woman with impaired vision can see how bad the yard is filled with dog poop.  She wants me to text the landlord to let him know.  Well I think he knows that it'll be bad.  He may not know he may need a hazmat suit to clean it up.  I wouldn't be surprised if the monster did some of it himself. I had gone for a walk to Dollar Tree at lunch yesterday and I felt good so yeah, I do won...

 It was horrible. I felt for Nancy Kerrigan listening to her and trying to keep it together. What does DEI have to do with a plane crash? Nothing. So much for humanity with our new leadership.  I expected this stupid and heartless response. 

I realize the weather may have something to do with my sneezing and slight cough.  I'm still a little congested and I got sleep but it wasn't great. I got up a few times and I couldn't go back to sleep the last time for a bit.  We'll see how the day goes.  I feel ok, not great.  And he's home.  I suspect it's another work from home day.  I so badly want him to leave this weekend.  It was a foul smell that was going on in the hallway.  It would really be nice if the hallway didn't smell like anything. After the teens left and the monster and his first girlfriend moved in, it smelled like candles. I didn't realize it was to cover up the scent of weed. It helped using the air purifier last night.  I know how that goes.  I start off feeling ok and then by the two, I'm sneezing like 5 times in a row.   I can't really afford to go see a doctor right now if I am getting sick.  I can but damn it.  I'm maybe a month away from ...

I could be wrong.  I would like to be wrong.  I think that his pot smoking comes through the vents and makes me sick.  I got asked by a doctor who saw me two years ago and asked if my neighbor grows plants when he asked about smokers and I mentioned the monster's weed.  I asked my doctor when I got to see him last year for the next sinus infection I had.  He's working from home and it still smells like weed.  That's someone who needs to be in the office. I am getting a dry throat and coughing.   He did come back this morning. I suspect he made his weed run.  It's actually down the street but he's too lazy to walk. I was hoping that they would look for another apartment today, but nope.  Poor stressed out monster had to work from home and is probably down below me smoking weed.   I hate that guy. Speaking of vile people, I listened to the Kennedy hearings.  Kudos to Ron Wyden and Bernie Sanders for bringing the heat.  ...

I looked out the window before I started and saw both cars. I thought greattttt both of them are home. Her car is gone.  It's awfully quiet downstairs which I love.  I know her car is "his car" since he drives it.   It's quite possible that they went looking for a new place.   I feel like I should have some empathy or sympathy or something for them having to move.  They both used our washer and dryer and causing some wear and tear on the machines.  They accused us of using too much water and have made it impossible to use light in the basement or the yard light. It's ok that we get called filthy names because we don't like looking at dog poop littered in the yard?  It is absolutely disgusting now and I know it will get a lot worse. I used to go for a walk across the street for my little breaks during the day. I stopped when he started leaving the door unlocked making me worried that one of his friends would be in the basement.  So yeah, ...

I will probably pull up MSNBC on my mom's laptop to hear Kennedy's hearings this morning. I am curious.  Especially after the letter that Caroline Kennedy wrote.  Putting animals in a blender isn't a sign of a stable person.  Welp.  Look at the administration.   Corinne is now intrigued by Jim Acosta and signed up for his Substack. She thinks CNN sucks. I kind of do now.  I was happy to watch his weekend shows and happier he got a morning show.  She mentioned Andrea Mitchell retiring.  It'll be interesting to see where Jim goes next.  Good for him on standing up for the truth.   I am hoping that both the monster and his girlfriend leave today. I suspect he'll be home again. I know he's got a work from home set up.  I also know he smokes weed so what a great employee, hey?  I feel like if I make too much noise going up and down the stairs to take recycling out, I worry he's going to come out and scream in the hallway....

I hadn't had the news on until maybe around 3.  I kept getting alerts about this federal funding and well, Jim Acosta.  I had looked at it in the grocery store and wondered if I should turn CNN Max on.  We turned on my mom's laptop around 3 and watched Nicole Wallace.  I worked but slowly could feel the steam coming out of my ears.  More chaos.   There are so many things that frustrate me that I have heard over the years.  Barry telling me that there's a war on Christmas.  No, there's not.  Nobody is forcing anyone to say Happy Hanukkah.  Someone might have said you know people celebrate this time of year in a different manner. And how am I a snowflake?  I don't get that word either and how it's used against someone like me.  The woke word is just stupid.  Being empathetic and wanting to help others is called being a good human. I listened to the George Floyd trial.  In no way, did I think George Floyd was a hero...

I am referring to anyone who thought this administration was a good idea.  Now everyone is panicked because of this federal spending freeze which the judge put a pause on.  I looked for what it covered to see if it would affect anything my mom has or even my cousin.  It is a freak show.  We got MSNBC on my mom's laptop when we were trying to figure out what was happening. I am so absolutely tired of social media.  It's ruined people.  It really has.  The amount of stupid is just weary.  People and their "research"  Facebook really should have been just for families to exchange photos.  Because I have family out of state, I thought this was great.  If it wasn't for family, I'd be off that damn app so fast. It's just a place for Karens to brag about their lives and racism to run rampant. I actually looked up a classmate that some of us classmates had deemed a very vile and racist person.  He wasn't a nice kid in school and he tau...

 I need to get my act sort of together today.  It's been a wild few weeks into the new year.  After my I don't know what the hell the date is incident, I ordered myself a cat desk calendar.  I guess I need a lot more visual reminders to check me.  Yes, I know, I have to remind myself to change the date too on those calendars.  I need help.  Good gawd. It's my hope to make a little bit of progress today.  We'll see how that goes.  I don't have any days off this week.  I know poor me.  Next week I do.  I have over 200 hours of paid time off that once it gets to a max, I start losing.  I'm not losing that.  Even if I am sitting at home watching Selling Sunset. I heard that Jim Acosta is leaving CNN.  I hope MSNBC picks him up or he finds an outlet I can watch.  I don't mind him.  I'm glad he won't be dealing with the liars that he has to correct.  If he does, he can tell him to shut up wherever he goe...

Not sure it was a great day, but definitely interesting. I have been so behind this month and with me being off on Friday, I thought this deposition that I had for confirmation was for tomorrow.  I sent an email asking for confirmation. Tomorrow turned out to be today and the paralegal I worked with asked me if this message was delayed because the deposition was in process. I was going to respond and apologize but I've kind of had a month of feeling like an idiot so I thought I'd let him think that this message was delayed. OMG.  I need to have a day with more clarity and less insanity.  That was bad. Interesting about our new person and her interaction with the lurker.  They are on the money with the lurker and I opened out how I had been treated and gas lit.  This person has the lurker's number and I think they handled this person beautifully in our chat.  It was kind of a popcorn moment reading it.  They were horrified what happened and wasn't shock...

I got commented a lot from people who knew about my cancer diagnosis, "I don't know how you dealt with it.  I just couldn't take it."  Those statements were usually stated with a dramatic flair.  Those statements usually came from a person who was used to demanding things from others.  If they were in my shoes, people would have been baking them casseroles and doing go fund me fund raisers so they can take a trip to Cancun.  We all know the story of the divas I dealt with.  Can you bake a casserole?  I'm not sure how that works.  It's ok.  I was never a fan of casserole. I treated it like a second job.  I left work about 2 1/2 hours early.  Initially my schedule was a little off.  I added some extra time to take because I would sit in the parking garage for maybe 20 minutes and play games on my phone, read emails or take a moment to take a break from my reality.   Then I took that walk and took the elevator down to wh...

 Wind doesn't bother me.  It looks like a good week for walking during my lunch break.  I can get up more during the day and take some recycling out when I want to avoid an email or someone sends me a snottygram.  I kind of had my fill on Thursday but it seems to be a trending thing since I have felt a little MIA the last few weeks.  That's the downside when you get asked to help a new person.  Flattered that anyone thinks I know anything and glad to help someone out when they feel unsure.  I feel that way everyday so if I can help someone not feel like me, I'm all in.  It can get time consuming.  Curious to hear if there were any lurker incidents.  I hope not but I won't be surprised if something happened. I had The Daily Show on after Stephen Colbert. I didn't realize Stephen had a show on from last night.  I was bored since it was about football mostly.  When The Daily Show came on, I felt my pulse race from seeing well, you...

I am ok with having a quiet weekend and I'm used to being alone. When someone sends me pictures of the fun that they had and going on about their weekend, I don't know what to say.   I'm like Oh, how nice.  Looks like fun.   Honestly, I don't mind it.   Sometimes I feel like such a Bitter Barn Betty when I get asked what did you do?  Sat in my car and cried about my boozer dad?  No.  I take a moment and wait until morning for a response.   I always feel like that kid that would sit on the porch and watch kids walk down to Lake Michigan growing up.  I never got invited by my "friends" in school and I only lived 4 blocks.  I figured well the lake smells like dead fish so I hope they all smell too. It just makes me feel really lonely when I get those messages.  The intention is good but I don't think the sender would understand the emotions it brings up sometimes. It's just really hard . . . 

 I dread my emails tomorrow.  At least my day might be more free.  I'm ok if the new person has questions and I am intrigued to hear if they've had contact with the lurker.  It's interesting to know that it isn't me.  I'm a favorite but not the only person who gets harassed without getting harassed. I listened to Rachel Maddow on Pod Save America and part of the latest episode of The Bulwark.  I didn't want to freak myself out but I want to know.  Rachel was interesting.  I like Rachel and I think she's fantastic but do I get scared by what she says?  Yeahhhhhh.  I love Tim Miller's sarcasm on The Bulwark.  I may listen to him tomorrow morning. I'm not sure what nationality my neighbors are but we think they are Mexican and we wondered about them today.  They are quiet people and they own the duplex next door.  They have the nicest yard and the best decorations at the holidays.  I love seeing their house decorated....

It's been an ok day.  I got my steps in and hopefully some more.  The monster and his girlfriend left for awhile today.  Hopefully they were at their new place.  When I came home, the door was unlocked.  I thought that's funny.  He's going to get the doors locked on him soon if he doesn't get out so keep leaving that side door unlocked. I'm making Precious avoid me because of my stupid worry.  I gave her moist food and sprinkled some treats.  She was fine. I gave her some new dry food and I'm not sure if she touched it.  I thought leave her be and she'll be fine.  She's a fickle cat and she snuggled up besides me when I picked her up and sat her down next to me on the couch.  She likes to sit on the couch and look regal while I pet her and she purrs.  She's not supposed to get old. Didn't she know that? I was going to avoid the Pick n' Save that I went to yesterday with the grumpy woman who thought I was shoplifting kitty litte...

Here's hoping we see the monster moving furniture out.  That is wishful thinking but it is a reality on the horizon.  It is possible that he'll move at the end of February, but we so hope that it's next week.  It seems like there's things moving around down below.  Yeah.  Down below sounds right for him. I'm having a little anxiety about Precious. She doesn't seem to want to eat any dry food this morning.  She did last night and she normally walks away from the dry food I give her but she'll go for those damn Temptations. Not this morning.  She ate her moist food.  I'm not out to rush her to the vet.  I don't have any money for the vet for starters.  I know she ate her lobster Temptations last night.  Weirdo cat.  Maybe she's stuffed full of lobster and I'm an idiot who worries too much. Hoping to get more walking in today and hopefully some of the snow melted on the hill.  I'm not afraid of the snow.  Sliding down th...

Well I made it to the hill but stopped about halfway with the snow on the sidewalk.  I did hit a couple of ice patches and thought this is the farthest I made in a few weeks so I'll take it that I got this far.  This has been a crap week for walking and getting any type of activity with the cold.  I am hoping next week will be better. Despite the indignity of being the kitty litter bandit, it was a better day.  I got the Citizens One situation with my mom straightened out.  I got a call from my mom on my drive home and she told me that it looked like the monster was trying to load some furniture on his truck.  His girlfriend's car was gone and since he's made her car his car, they were both gone for most of the day.  We are hoping for a move by next weekend.   I really despise grocery shopping.  I hate the do it yourself check outs but the clerks don't have any appeal. I had trouble scanning an item at Walmart and a clerk with a cough ca...

 I seriously think this clerk at the grocery store thought I was shoplifting this morning.  I know stores are taking more action with shoplifters but this clerk knew better. I normally stock up on the weekends with kitty litter.  She goes through a lot and I like to keep at least two stashed in the hallway.  So I thought I'd stop at Pick n' Save in my neighborhood before I headed out to UPS and on my merry way for the morning. I did the do it yourself check out and I pushed my cart over to the door where I entered rather than exit out a different way. I was parked on the side of the store and I thought it was a quicker route.  There was another set of registers near one of the stores and my least favorite cashier was standing over there.  As soon as I hit the hallway, I heard someone yell "Ma'am!"  I turned around and she asked to see my receipt.  What?  Was she kidding?  I held up in my hand and she went back in.  What was that abo...

 It appears that the garage has less of the monster's stuff in it. I wasn't sure but when I took my mom to the store, she noticed that it seemed like there was less in there.  That's a good sign.  Both vehicles were home yesterday before I left around 8:30 and I thought, great.  Both home.  BOOO! When I came back, her car was gone and it seemed quiet for most of the day so we wondered if they were looking for a place.  It would be fantastic if they left this month.  I am hoping he doesn't dig his heels in but I think his girlfriend will be the reason they get out in a timely manner.  It looks bad for her too.  It's ok if it's next month but I think it would be a big win if we got some of our peace back with them leaving by next week. I was hoping I'd get my tax information in the mail soon but I swear our mail person probably hates our place because the monster never shovels.  They don't have to deliver, I guess.  Great timing....

When I came home today from my appointment, I drove past the local TV station that fired a meteorologist for posting about Elon's Nazi salute on her Instagram page.  I noticed a guy with a sign and I didn't see what it said until it passed. I can't remember the exact wording but basically it said that the station was Nazi sympathizers.  I would have blown my horn in support and waved with my hand if I had known.  If I see the lone protestor, I'll do it tomorrow. Good for him.  The light keepers.  We have to keep the light going. Pete Hegsmith got voted in.  No shock.   Light.  We need the light.  

I got my hair cut and I got my mom's homestead paperwork mailed.  If anything got done, I can say that got done. The hair cut was kind of funny.  It's been four months since I went to the school and my mom had done her thing with the scissors in early December.  I just needed the length cut and the bangs looked a little off but not horrible.  No vacuum cleaners or bowls were used.  She couldn't stop laughing when she didn't so therefore I won't be visiting her again at the Salon of the Half Blind. The student who cut my hair looked puzzled about something with my length. She asked me if I go to the school normally for hair cuts and I said yes, I do. I hadn't thought about the visit to Mom's Salon of the Half Blind until she called her instructor over and they looked at the length on one side.  I guess there was one section that was maybe shorter than the other.  Big deal.  The student told the instructor that another student did it.  I played...

My mom was tearful for most of the day and worried about life because of who's President now.  She asked me to hide the laptop my sister gave her.  She can't take watching the news.  We had it off but she said she's tempted to look online.  I wish I could make things better for both of us.  This is hard and it hasn't been a full week.  I hated seeing her cry like that.  I know I've shed some tears this week. This morning I looked at Threads and discovered what's happened with Michael Fanone.  This would have really upset my mom.  I guess people have thrown feces at his mom while she was out raking leaves.  He can't get any protection because he's no longer a victim.  This made me cry this morning.   How can people say this is ok?   I hope the good humans have a good day and keep the faith.  What is it with these supporters and feces?  Bunch of sick weirdos. Unreal.  We are in strange scary times....

 My mom asked me if I missed Joe Biden.  I think that's obvious. 

 The monster did not shovel. It was our neighbor next door shoveling his walk. I look forward to our home renovation. Seeing the monster leave will improve this home.

My days are a little bit more free now after I had a conversation of feeling overwhelmed.  It wasn't working and helping someone.  It's the fact that there are others who just do as they please and things keep piling up on me.  The lurker makes their return and they can take some responsibility. It was the initial plan for the lurker to handle this situation.  I will always make myself available for the person that needs help.  I know their focus isn't with helping me, only occasionally and I know they will.  I am falling farther behind and I didn't realize I had as many assignments as I did.  I doubt if I can close any out but I can at least make progress. The monster is actually shoveling.  My mom is doubtful now about him leaving.  I think it's a little too late. I don't think it's the shoveling. I think it's the money and not paying the rent on time.  It's a dusting outside.  That's the thing with him.  He would shovel if w...

My day was fine.  I have gotten some of my free time back.  I listened to some of the news today.  I am not shocked.   My mom is already talking about not going to the doctor as often. I thought well, if I thought maybe I should get an MRI, I should forget that.   My mom didn't realize what a big prick he would be.  Well he wanted a Bishop to apologize to him.  He is a monster.  Maybe he's the monster's dad downstairs. People thought it was ok.  It's ok to pardon someone that nearly killed a police officer and ruined their career.  Sure.  That's real Christian. On a brighter subject, my yearly talk went well.  The person who has been spending my days with me is working more independently from me now which is good.  Hopefully the monster downstairs will be gone soon.  I think he's bad, sigh.  At least he's not running the country.  I made it off the wait list for a hair cut on Friday to an actual ap...

Well I have to have a conversation about myself today.  I dread that.  I know how that goes.  We need to work on our confidence and belief in ourselves.  I know. I let other people affect me.  I let it affect me too much.  I try and I try.  It's all I can do.  There's always going to be a lurker and their sidekick.  I'm aware of that. I miss having a more free day to think on my own. In the office, it was nice to go out at lunch and be on my own.  I didn't mind when I did have lunch with someone else or a couple of people. I didn't want to do it everyday.  It's kind of the same situation.  I'm ok with talking to someone everyday but not as much in this situation.  There are people probably pretty annoyed with me since the new year and I'm trying.  I am really trying.  It's all I can do. Bless that Bishop yesterday who expressed her concern about people's fears.  Now the big man child wants an apology?  ...

I think my blase feeling was maybe more than the changing of Presidents.  I feel like my days are more chaotic and I'm just not making any progress.  I can thank for the lurker for part of that. I found a comment from the one that makes my eye twitch that was unsettling. I can't take it personal but I have my reasons why things are the way they are at the moment.  It's out of control and I dislike it. My mom surprised me when she turned MSNBC on the computer.  It didn't bother me or upset me.  I felt sad listening to Officer Harry Dunn get upset about the pardons.  It's not ok.  It's like I need to know why I feel the way I do about people who voted for him.  I struggle with trying to make sense and it doesn't.   So how will I react if the situation presents itself?  Quiet.  It's all I can do.  Nothing I can say will make someone listen to me.  Once someone sees that this wasn't a good idea, then I'll talk.  Ther...

My Inaugural depression seems to be lasting into today.  I was shocked that my mom wanted to watch Rachel Maddow on her laptop.  Lawrence, sure.  Rachel?  I love Rachel but she scares the daylights out of me but I listened for awhile and to Lawrence before I turned in for the night. The prescription drug prices for seniors being lowered and now rescinded upset me.  I know there's more on the way.  I think I'll value the  silence this morning because I am really ok working with any TV on.  I was going to flip it onto something random like old reruns of a TV show or movies but I'm good today.  My mom actually wants me to pull up MSNBC because she wants to know more about the ICE raids in Chicago and if they'll happen.  She is braver than I am. I know I'll have to interact with others today and that may be a struggle for me today considering my mood.  I know this will pass and I'll accept our new abnormal as the days go on.  ...

 Pardons. Wow.  I am trying to be ok. I'm not.

I have just been flipping through Threads and Instagram not to doom scroll but just get highlights.   So the buddy in chief gave a Nazi salute.  If people think that was ok, I don't want to know them.  That's disgusting. And Orange Foolius admitted that Elon altered the computers.  I feel like one of those conspiracy clowns for even entertaining the thought in my head like could something have happened?  I had just read Kara Swisher's book about Big Tech and it made me wonder.  Then I thought, no.  I'm not better than the people who thought the 2020 election was stolen.  What does it all mean?  I would like to know more.  This just doesn't surprise me.  We have a Nazi whispering in the President's ear.  That's frightening. I just read about a son who turned his dad in for January 6th getting out of prison.  That's horrible.   Fear and anxiety.  This is our new normal. I read that people are preparing fo...

  I didn't really watch inauguations because I was at the office. I did record Obama's 2nd inauguration and mostly fast forwarded through it when I watched it the following weekend. I watched where he and the rest of his family were about to head in. Unlike some people he had it outdoors and he came back to look at the crowd. Look at the people who showed up and you could see his gratitude and honor to serve the people. I know the same is true for Joe Biden. It was an honor for him to serve the people and seeing his lasr selfie with  Jill prompted the tears to come.  I'll be ok but I am really worried for a lot of people right now. I hope we can get tbrough this 

No regrets on cancelling my hair cut.  I didn't really want to go out in this cold and take chances.  If I had to go to work today, I would have left at lunchtime. I would have gone to a store to get away from people.  It just made for a long day when I stayed indoors.  I would go to a store like Target or Wal-Mart and just walk around if I didn't have anything to get.  I just needed to get away and the cold artic air felt better than what I dealt with.  Even with the monster downstairs, I don't feel the need to leave to even go to the store this morning.  I'm staying in and staying warm.  I wish it was warmer when I have a day off but it's fine.  Just glad to have a day off and sleep in. I am grateful to my cousin last night for reminding my mom that she has fibromyalgia and what she might have experienced with the address issue was "fibro fog."  There's a book that my mom had sent to my cousin who seemed to have chronic pain and it was...

Technology can stress a person out.  And when you're my mom's age, it can be the end of humanity. She was hoping we could get some type of power saver to help on saving on electricity.  After the fact, we realized that this was probably a scam.  I had trouble helping her order it because I entered her credit card information incorrectly the first couple of times.  And then it said that it declined.  We knew that wasn't the case.  The credit card company left a message for us about it. I called the credit card company for my mom and gave her the phone when a person came on the line. I just went to the bathroom and that was probably my first mistake.  When I came out, my mom was looking frantically for her credit card.  It must have dropped.  I found it and then the woman was gone.  She was frustrated.  I said well I'll stay in the room and take the phone if you need help.  Stupid nature.  I couldn't get a dial tone.  T...

I couldn't sleep for awhile when I got up around 3:00 am.  Not sure why.  Felt restless.  I finally went to slumberland around 4 and got myself up at 6:30.  I don't think I will be going for a leisure walk today.  I do have to get a few things from the store this morning but I'll be in for the day. I will definitely be staying in tomorrow. I cancelled my appointment with the beauty school for tomorrow.  It would not shock me if that appointment would be cancelled because of the wind chill factor.  I put myself on the wait list for a possible Friday appointment when I do have off again for the day.  If not, I have a day off in early February that I set an appointment.  I need a hair cut badly but not enough to freeze.  It's probably best to stay inside.   I have this weird feeling I'll be getting news alerts about something happening tomorrow and I don't think it'll be a positive thing.  You want to know and you don't want ...

My mom said to me that I should get a decent raise and commented on how patient I have been with the person that's been learning about their new world.  She said you don't talk down to anyone.  You're calm and you take things step by step.  She was listening to me while I talked to the person in a different part of the country.  I said I know how scary it is and this is something I haven't done in a long time.  Cassie was the last person and that was well over 15 years ago?   I know what it's like to be the new kid. I know what it's like when people have this expectation to learn something new in like 5 minutes. I don't do well with impatient people.  There's a reason why I have anxiety and probably many other disorders. My step-dad was impatient.  He taught me how to drive but it was constant nagging on me and when we pulled over to park, he asked me if I wanted ice cream.  I had been badgered so badly I burst into tears and said I want...

I have an appointment this morning to make my eyebrow two.  I'm looking forward to that.  I like their heated beds, even if my appointment lasts like less than 7 minutes.  I'll take those few minutes and enjoy that warmth. I read that Jim Acosta from CNN is getting moved to midnight.  Why?  I'm guessing because a soon to be President dislikes him and doesn't like his accurate and critical journalism.  I have missed listening to Jim in the mornings while I worked but I got frustrated before the election with him having to tell people, "That's not true.  That's not true."  Not his fault but I thought why entertain people who lie?  I blame the network on that.  I am glad that Rachel Maddow will be back 5 nights a week even if she scares the daylights out of me.  I'll maybe check out her show the next morning and listen while I work.  Her and Lawrence might be the only two I'll listen to maybe watch online if I can.  Otherwise...

This morning I had finished watching Stephen Colbert and normally I switch it over to another show or turn off TV and get ready to start typing away at the laptop in the dining room.  Well another movie started before I could to turn off TV and the song caught my attention.  It's an old song from maybe 1963?  Wives and Lovers by Dionne Warwick. There was something about the song that caught my attention. It wasn't the lyrics by any means, it was the beat.  There was this light joyful beat and I wound up downloading it on my iPhone.  Precious is lucky she wasn't around because I would have tried to dip her because it was that type of song that put a little pep in my step.  Made me feel like the day was going to be ok. Music.  A 3 minute song can bring a moment of joy that keeps going.  Makes you smile.

I sign off at noon but not for fun reasons.  I take my mom to the doctor.  It's just a 3 month check in.  I always worry a little bit but the majority of the time things are ok.  I try to read a book on my phone but my mind gets distracted and I wind up staring at the door to see when my mom comes out if she's ok.  I'm a freak. I know it. I am exhausted on a social level.  No offense to the person that I'm being social with, they're actually nice.  They get crabby with me at times but considering the circumstances, I understand.  I don't take it personal.  I understand frustration.  I just try to keep it to throwing pillows for my tantrum.   Looks like it will be quite cold on Monday. I have a haircut and I really hope I don't get cancelled again.  I appreciate my mom making the effort, but not the same.  It wasn't a vacuum cleaner.  She did use scissors to clean up the length.  I need a good scalp massage....

My right shoulder blade is killing me right now.  It's like I got a knot and it just hurts as I type this out.  I don't know what I did.  Slept the wrong way?  I am hoping it'll be better by morning. So Michelle Obama is being called out for not going to the inauguration.  Good for her.  Why fake it?  It's ok.  It's ok if you just can't fake it for the sake of ceremony.  I'm not going to say she's not stomping her feet and ready to cause an insurrection.  Sometimes we need to separate ourselves from people that are just well . . . despicable.  They were doxed thanks to FOTUS, this individual caused a lot of problems for her family.  Good for Barack and making it nice.  Good for Michelle for protecting her feelings.  Was she shown the same grace?  No.  She got a jab from Melania Trump.  Melania didn't meet with her when Trump won.  Melania did not meet with Jill Biden when her orange faced husband w...

I'm not feeling better.  Sedate maybe without the sedation?  I had a moment of decompression with Precious.  Cats and dogs help the angry soul. It's just disheartening to see a new administration come in and we know how it will go.  It's like a message got sent.  It's ok to be a bad person.  It's ok to spread hate and lie.  You'll get rewarded.  Doing the right thing is for losers, I guess.  It's been over 2 months and it's taken some time to get used to what's happened.  Just don't feel ok that's it's happened. I like the ceasefire deal.  Look for the good moments.  I know life isn't all sunshine and lollipops but FOTUS?  Yeah.  That's going to be tough to find it.  A challenge for all of us. I didn't even make up my bed today.  My first days of the new year have been way too chaotic.  I know it'll change and I look forward to it.   I am dealing.  That's all I can do I guess.  ...

 I feel like things get pushed on me at times because people think I can handle it or well, I'm too dumb to push back. Disclaimer - I may curse more than usual. I would say around 1 today that I could have punched someone.  I wouldn't have but that's how I felt. The lurker's friend talked back to me in a chat when I asked questions.  I think she was going to work on something and realized it wasn't her territory so she ignored it.  It's really the goal to help everyone no matter what area you cover.  If you're caught up, help the next person.  When I questioned it, I kept getting excuses.  Always had the last word but I kept going because I AM TIRED OF THE BULLSHIT. The lurker's friend is a snippy little twit that only does what they want to do and won't really lift a finger to help anyone else.  Will focus on the small things and not the bigger picture.  Steps on people repeatedly.  I have expressed my concerns when I got asked and felt...