Well, Can I Handle All of This? NO!

 I feel like things get pushed on me at times because people think I can handle it or well, I'm too dumb to push back.

Disclaimer - I may curse more than usual.

I would say around 1 today that I could have punched someone.  I wouldn't have but that's how I felt.

The lurker's friend talked back to me in a chat when I asked questions.  I think she was going to work on something and realized it wasn't her territory so she ignored it.  It's really the goal to help everyone no matter what area you cover.  If you're caught up, help the next person.  When I questioned it, I kept getting excuses.  Always had the last word but I kept going because I AM TIRED OF THE BULLSHIT.

The lurker's friend is a snippy little twit that only does what they want to do and won't really lift a finger to help anyone else.  Will focus on the small things and not the bigger picture.  Steps on people repeatedly.  I have expressed my concerns when I got asked and felt like I wasn't being listened to when I did.  I'm afraid I get asked now I might say the truth.  This person is no help.  This person doesn't want to lift a finger unless they're forced to do it.  They're only interested in doing what they want to do and chastising others if they make a mistake when they are a twit.  They are a nasty little mean girl.  Passive aggressive and a bad addition.  She makes the lurker look good.

Someone else I had been dealing with on a difficult situation gave me a rather snotty response in their email as well and had to copy others in on my stupidity, apparently.  She's probably 12 so why should I take offense?  It was the combination of the two that just did me in.

I'm not sure what's going on downstairs.  It seemed like nobody was home but there was somebody there.  HE CAN JUST GO!  Take him and his anorexic girlfriend.  Just Go! 

I heard from a detective who was on the check stealing case.  They have paperwork and bank statements on what she's doing.  He left me a voicemail and reassured me that it'll be ok.  I sure hope so.  

Today, I forgot my debit card at the grocery store.  I had my mom's credit card that I pay on with me and felt crappy using it. I make the payment and did make extra today.  Now I'm paranoid that I made it on her checking account so I'll have to take another look at it.  We switched me paying utilities to making her payment in order to get her SNAP benefits.

It's been a lot and when I hear people say, Oh, I don't know how you deal with it. I couldn't deal with it.  I CAN'T EITHER!  I CAN'T DEAL WITH LAZY ASS PEOPLE!  OMG! 

I heard it a lot with the cancer thing.  Oh, I could never deal with it.  Yeah, you'd have 20 people holding your hand and getting your nails done while they wiped your tears, princess.  Sigh.  I can't deal with women who are princesses and too entitled to lift a finger.  

I felt sad seeing Joe, Kamala and Anthony Blinken at a press conference.  This won't be the same next week.  Reality is here.  

Will I cry like a little bitch tonight listening to Joe?  Probably.  I know Joe wasn't perfect and said stupid stuff but let's think about what's coming our way.  Joe's human and doesn't wear bronzer.  He's a good human.  I'm not sure about the orange reptile.

I'm with Michelle Obama.  Stay home and watch Netflix.  She was all of us at the first inauguration like WTF? 

Yeah.  WTF?  I feel so bad today.  


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