The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I messed my nails within 20 minutes of getting them done.  I'm leaving them.  When you look at them from a distance, they appear fine.  Up close?  I smudged the polish on my right thumb.  Looks like some of its missing on my left thumb and my left pinky finger.  The girl warned me about it being so touchy.  I tried.  I couldn't linger around the school like an idiot and I did carry my coat in the 38 degree weather. I was cold but not that cold.  I thought I could take it.  I had to stop at the post office and get stamps.  I think that's where I did the most damage getting a card out of my purse.  Then when I got home I thought this sucks.  I started look up products on Amazon on fixing something like this and I almost got something, but I cancelled. It doesn't suck that bad.  It is what it is.  If I went to my old place in Shorewood, they have you sit and put your nails under some heating dryer and have them dry ...

This is how I feel this week.  What do you want from me?  I'm giving my all and it's not enough.  I think my last email helped me sign off for the week.  I'm so grateful the weather will be sort of better than it was two weeks ago.  I need to get out of the house tomorrow. I don't intend to go for spa manicures on a monthly basis.  I just want to do it once.  I want my nails to look nice.  I don't need to go next month, next week.  I would just like to feel better.  This is my only goal this year.  I would like to feel better about me.   I keep seeing the advertisements that all these weight loss shots will now be offered in a pill version.  I'm too afraid of side effects but I got to admit, I feel envious of the after pictures I see.  Every day it's a battle with me and food and I'm so tired. I'm not looking for the easy way out.  I'm looking for a break.  Every night I turn on the Healthy U TV and fin...

 I definitely earned my day off after yesterday.  Sigh.  The diva.  I thought she was a nice kind of dotty lady my age.  Pain in my ass. In a way my annoyance with her was a distraction from the news.  We just happened to flip on Nicole Wallace around 3 on Tuesday and listened to the survivors of ICE's brutality.  My god.  I cried my eyes out hearing the autistic woman talk about being picked up off the ground when all she wanted to do was go to her doctor's appointment.  That was horrible and terrifying.  It scares me it'll happen here. I had told my mom that I wanted to go see our Lieutenant Governor, Sara Rodriguez in Bay View tonight.  I said I'm ok going alone.  I wish it was lighter and weather permitting, hopefully it's good to go this evening.  She offered to go and we'll see how the day fares.  I noticed that they will have all the candidates at some point. I need to hear we'll be protected by whoever is our ...

Yeah, being called reliable isn't the worst thing in the world but damn it carries a heavy load some days.  It's like don't worry, I'll take care of it.  Not today Satan. The Thinker has been out the last few days and it's well deserved.  I have been trying to manage between both areas.  I did it for almost 2 years so three days shouldn't be a big deal.  Everyone is swamped so it's not just me.  Then a problem got pointed out and I realized I was the one that worked on it. It was dealing with a justice court and I wasn't shocked what I filed got rejected.  I thought I'll take a look at it when I come back from my walk and either re-file it or let the attorney and paralegal know.   The diva ran into a similar situation and let me know in our chat what happened to her.  I got the feeling that she was trying to tell me what to do.  She had sent me over why it got rejected and really, it was something out of my hands. I needed more dire...

 I really don't want to start my day.  Too many problems to work through but I know I'll get through some. I'm still in a funk about having to deal with Frick and Frack.  I know it won't be much but I know I might have to share some of my concerns and be more forthcoming. This is an example of how lazy those two are.  They would go to lunch everyday, whether it was in the building or go out.  While they were out, we had leftovers from some fancy luncheon the attorneys had.  When Frick and Frack came back from their longer than usual lunch, they heaped up some plates, took it into one of the depo rooms, ate and gossiped some more. Wouldn't your head explode if you had to deal with those two? I felt like the Cinderella with those two.  Always cleaning up after them and dealing with the stuff they didn't want to deal with because they had a half day or they had time off.  They could say, Oh, but we were supportive of you when you went through your ca...

I got asked today about maybe covering in the area Frick and Frack worked.  I was a little more forthcoming in my apprehensions.  There will be further talk with other and I will be more blunt on why I have reservations. It's not their area.  I don't want to be stuck in their area while they take off work all the time.  It kind of makes me sick to think about it because they're two of the most entitled cows when it comes to getting out of work.   Initially I thought it would be maybe good to get away from my group and maybe get to be around people I used to deal with like Sosie.  I don't see that happening because they pick what they want to pick and they'll leave the garbage for everyone else.  Ok, just me. I brought up my own workload and how many assignments I had for scheduling. I wasn't trying to make anyone uncomfortable but I am tired of trying to please or make nice for others.  There has to be an awareness that I'm just going to say ...