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Primary Anxiety Day

I guess I can't feel too bad about who wins because I didn't vote for anyone in the primary.  My person dropped out.  I'm nervous about the candidates who will win. I was thinking maybe David Crowley was the better person until I watched a video of some of the things he's done.  I was worried about Francesca Hong and some of the backlash she's received from her old tweets.  Look at the toddler in office on his platform.  Are we really going to nitpick something from 7 years ago?  I feel sick from the whole primary mess.  Just win in November.  I don't want to move to Michigan. I'm finally going for my first pedicure in 4 years.  I think I liked the fact that I could make the appointment online.  I hated calling the old place since the owner had his son answering the phone.  He messed up a couple of times when I made appointments.  Nice owner.  It's just things got complicated.  If this is a nice salon I can come back ...
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The Return of the Anxiety Queen

Nobody knew I wasn't writing last week.  It's my announcement to me that I've returned. Last week was just a weird mix of emotions.  I think writing is good for me but there's also moments where I should step away and not think so much.  Or dwell.  Or whatever.  I had some postings where I'm like OMG I sound like such a Debbie Downer. That's life.  It's just up and down and all around.  I just needed my mind to have a break.  I ended my work week freaking out and I'm still kind of worried about something.  I think the person who makes my eye twitch missed something but I may not have been the reason.  It was showing up on their calendar but when I talked to the person, it had the event in my name and I think did I do something?  WTF?  I wanted to cry.  I had a mini meltdown. Making mistakes is going to happen.  It's how my mistakes have been handled by others.  It's the fear of someone else's reaction and I haven...
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Sunday Funday at Walmart

 It was more like chaotic and get me the bleep out of here Walmart today.   We got our first delivery.  It missed one of the items and we got a refund.  They didn't have a few other things but so be it.  I realized that I had a different Walmart selected that is known for empty shelves.  My mistake.  First time user.  Won't do that again.  I liked the idea of delivery though. I hated that I wound up at Walmart on Miller Parkway to find the things that we were missing. I didn't have to do it.  My mom was upset and me being the people pleaser thought, well, I can run to the store.  She caught me in the hall and told me I didn't need to do it.  I said it's ok.  Getting out of the house is never a bad thing for me, unless it's Wal-Mart on Miller Parkway. It's not the worst store in the world, but it seems like there's a whole different type of crazy that comes out after noon at that store.  I came across a woman curs...
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Not Having it Today

No dancing in the rain today.  This is solid messy rain.  I figured I can at least get a few errands done this morning and try again tomorrow.  I did the usual.  Picked up litter for the queen.  Got a few basics that we needed. I thought I'd stop and get a sheet of postcard stamps at the West Milwaukee post office.  Sometimes they have them.  Sometimes they don't.  I thought if they don't, I'll get a book of stamps since I have letters to write.  It didn't matter.  I made the mistake of stepping towards one window and the woman put her hand up and motioned to the sign.  It said wait to be called.  I apologized and stepped back.  I wasn't paying attention.  My mistake. I stepped back for a moment and walked out.  I could see both clerks looking at me.  I didn't do an angry walk.  I just left.  Why?  I just didn't feel like it today.  I don't think I'm an inconsiderate person. I admit my mi...
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Girl's Girl

It didn't surprise me to find out the diva was a former cheerleader.  The stereotype fits.  It wasn't true in all cases when I went to school.  There were a few that were actually nice to a dork like me and even talked to me.  Others?  Not so much.  It wasn't really the cheerleaders who were so bad.  It was the pom pom girls.  They irritated the hell out of me and they really didn't do much.  They just did this kind of skippity dance that anyone could do. I was actually going to try out in the 9th grade and I twisted my back funny.  It was all my dancing at Studio 54 I guess.   Yeah.  I'm feeling better after I got my feelings out an hour ago.  Stupid neighbor.  Stupid people. The cheerleaders did flips and more athletic stuff where the pom pom girls acted like they were super models.  I could see the diva being a pom pom ding dong. The diva used to tell me she's a girls girl and we should all watch out for ...
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Talk to Me

I don't know why this is bothering me today.  This is something that's just hitting a nerve for some reason. Today when I went for my walk, I saw my next door neighbor.  He actually lives a block over with his girlfriend but he still comes over to get away from her and her mother.  Sounds like a swell guy right?  He can be a crab and has been weird with us over the years.  Lately he's gotten weirder.  I actually saw him one night kitty corner from the street I was going to walk down.  I saw him turn his back at the corner.  I thought is it because he sees me?  Sure enough when I crossed the street and headed east, I turned at one point and saw him cross the street.  Ok.  All I would have said was hello.  Is that such an awful thing? Today, when I stepped out, I said hey, Dave and walked past.  He saw me and never said anything.  The guys have a security camera on the garage so they might get a chuckle hearing me say, ...
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And it Gets Stranger

Now Mandela Barnes is out of the race for governor.  Damn.  I didn't realize my mom had called me on my walk.  I have my phone in my pocket.  I'm thinking about what I need, getting it and getting out.  I was more surprised that there's a scandal of sexual misconduct and financial issues.  I asked my mom, Is that why he talked to us?  Was he hitting on you?  My mom has that affect on younger men, I guess. Still shaking my head over the weird dream.  I know I was relieved when I woke up and found out it was a dream.  Yeah. I was a please pick me girl for a long time.  Now I don't care.  Now I'm a Oh.  You noticed that I exist?  Cool. Tonight on my walk I got the attention I didn't want.  I got asked if I ever went into this bar.  Some guy was trying to find a bar to hang out.  I had my ear buds in and shook my head.  I saw him walk past me when I headed back. I saw him go into Ope! and hoped he stay...
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