The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I have a little bit of extra money this week with my bonus.  Yay!  Thank you two day early pay plus my paycheck so that helps for now.  My mom asked why don't you just pay off my medical?  Well I would love that.  I'm kind of waiting on my tax refund to help with that.  Besides, this time it wasn't as good as last year so I kind of want to hang onto as much as I can until I get another refund.   My extra money will go towards medical basically.  I think I am going to look into getting a mouthguard online.  No way can I afford to spend $600 from the dentist.  Considering that they don't last long, I would be seriously in the red all the time if I kept replacing them every two to three years.  I also have to get new contacts towards month's end.  At least my eye looks better to put contact lenses in today.  Win! Plus, I can get lunch this week my company card.  It's not going to the Pfister money but me going outdo...

I tried to take the day the best I could with all that was going on.  I tried not to sweat the small or big stuff and move about my day.  No lurker.  A touch of diva antics. She seems to be trying to take the place of the lurker and was affecting the Thinker's work.  I told her not to let it bother her.  She puts herself where she doesn't belong and pisses others off with her rudeness.   I was curious about the whole Tik Tok thing and I took a look at what she was up to lately.  Good to know she's still doing it during work hours.  I mean, got to have some entertainment, am I right?  That is one stupid app.  Parents. I repeat parents, if your kids are on there, get them off.  That is such a toxic app.  I downloaded it back in 2020 when someone sent me a video of a kid saying "I F-ing hate people" so casually and felt like my spirit animal at the time.  Considering how 2020 turned out for all of us, it seemed fitting....

My eye is looking a lot better.  Still red more in the corner part, but I'm seeing signs of white in my eye.  I liked the idea of getting away from my daily insanity but I like not having to cough up some change to pay for an eye irritation.   I have these little eye drops in tubes and I got them for my mom but will she use them?  Noooo.  I was happy to get more if she needed them, but ok, let's be stubborn. I used them and apparently they helped.   I didn't push myself to finish anymore when it came time to call it a day.  It's just too much and I wish there was some news about the lurker or how long this limbo will last.   At least my eye looks less red.  Still feels tired.

I'm not sure when, but I will probably make a phone call to see if I can get in at the eye doctor.  After the event we went to, my eye felt sore.  Even if there's not something stuck, I should probably get something to help with the redness.  We live in an old duplex that's old and dusty.  Just like me.  Sigh. I can see fine.  My eye feels sore and I can open it fine.  I think maybe I should get something for the irritation.  I don't know.  Even if I can get a late afternoon appointment, that would be fine.  I hope that it looks better tomorrow.  Last night, I looked like a creature from a horror show.  This morning, I look like I got in my former neighbor's weed supply.  Maybe it'll look better tomorrow morning.  This whole thing sucks.  Winter can go buzz off.   We went to the event in Bay View.  I like Francesca Hong. I actually think that she would make a better assembly leader now that the cre...

 I don't get out much and today, I'm going to see Fran Hong, who is running for governor of Wisconsin.  Here I am with a big old red eye.  This winter can go to hell. I could feel a lens roll up yesterday so I thought oh no, time to get it out.  With winter being so dry, anytime I sense a lens shift in my eye, I get it out or then it's a bitch to get out later.  Well I don't know if I got it out but it appears that my eye is looking beat up.  It looks better than last night.  I could have sworn I felt something come out and drop on my sweater when I laid down on my bed to conduct surgery.  Item nowhere to be found.  Damn it. I may have to see if they can squeeze me in to make sure I don't have anything funny in my eye.  Here's to losing $50 or more to this stupid winter.  Damn it.  Unless my eye clears up significantly tomorrow, I probably should make a call. There have been two instances in my life where I thought I had a stuc...

The anxiety monster came to visit me late yesterday afternoon.  I've had two problem files and one is going sideways.  I saw an email and thought ok.  I'm not lingering with my time.  It was the end of the day and I just can't at this point. Then I spent the evening trying not to think about it. I can ask about it on Monday.  There's another situation that's driving me crazy.  I'm kind of caught in between a rock and a hard place. I hate it when my anxiety takes over my brain.  I try to work on other things or think watching TV will help.  Nope.  When I went to bed last night, I could still feel my heart racing.  It sucked.  Yes, I take something and it just wasn't doing the trick. To all the people with their great advice?  Buzz off.  Honestly.  I wish people would just "do" instead of "say" all the time.  Talk is cheap.  Being there for someone actually means something. It was like this when I was in schoo...