The Invisible Woman Chronicles

 I definitely earned my day off after yesterday.  Sigh.  The diva.  I thought she was a nice kind of dotty lady my age.  Pain in my ass. In a way my annoyance with her was a distraction from the news.  We just happened to flip on Nicole Wallace around 3 on Tuesday and listened to the survivors of ICE's brutality.  My god.  I cried my eyes out hearing the autistic woman talk about being picked up off the ground when all she wanted to do was go to her doctor's appointment.  That was horrible and terrifying.  It scares me it'll happen here. I had told my mom that I wanted to go see our Lieutenant Governor, Sara Rodriguez in Bay View tonight.  I said I'm ok going alone.  I wish it was lighter and weather permitting, hopefully it's good to go this evening.  She offered to go and we'll see how the day fares.  I noticed that they will have all the candidates at some point. I need to hear we'll be protected by whoever is our ...

Yeah, being called reliable isn't the worst thing in the world but damn it carries a heavy load some days.  It's like don't worry, I'll take care of it.  Not today Satan. The Thinker has been out the last few days and it's well deserved.  I have been trying to manage between both areas.  I did it for almost 2 years so three days shouldn't be a big deal.  Everyone is swamped so it's not just me.  Then a problem got pointed out and I realized I was the one that worked on it. It was dealing with a justice court and I wasn't shocked what I filed got rejected.  I thought I'll take a look at it when I come back from my walk and either re-file it or let the attorney and paralegal know.   The diva ran into a similar situation and let me know in our chat what happened to her.  I got the feeling that she was trying to tell me what to do.  She had sent me over why it got rejected and really, it was something out of my hands. I needed more dire...

 I really don't want to start my day.  Too many problems to work through but I know I'll get through some. I'm still in a funk about having to deal with Frick and Frack.  I know it won't be much but I know I might have to share some of my concerns and be more forthcoming. This is an example of how lazy those two are.  They would go to lunch everyday, whether it was in the building or go out.  While they were out, we had leftovers from some fancy luncheon the attorneys had.  When Frick and Frack came back from their longer than usual lunch, they heaped up some plates, took it into one of the depo rooms, ate and gossiped some more. Wouldn't your head explode if you had to deal with those two? I felt like the Cinderella with those two.  Always cleaning up after them and dealing with the stuff they didn't want to deal with because they had a half day or they had time off.  They could say, Oh, but we were supportive of you when you went through your ca...

I got asked today about maybe covering in the area Frick and Frack worked.  I was a little more forthcoming in my apprehensions.  There will be further talk with other and I will be more blunt on why I have reservations. It's not their area.  I don't want to be stuck in their area while they take off work all the time.  It kind of makes me sick to think about it because they're two of the most entitled cows when it comes to getting out of work.   Initially I thought it would be maybe good to get away from my group and maybe get to be around people I used to deal with like Sosie.  I don't see that happening because they pick what they want to pick and they'll leave the garbage for everyone else.  Ok, just me. I brought up my own workload and how many assignments I had for scheduling. I wasn't trying to make anyone uncomfortable but I am tired of trying to please or make nice for others.  There has to be an awareness that I'm just going to say ...

There's some things that I have spent money on that I'm ashamed to admit.  I know the truth will set me free and I'm taking accountability for it.  Some of the things I spent money on were out of loneliness and sadness.  It's not an excuse but it's the root cause for some of those stupid moments. During covid, I had spent way more money than I should have on one psychic in particular.  Yeah, I have spent money on that but it got worse and I became kind of dependent on this person.  She was what I thought, a nice Southern lady who did tell me a few things that did happen but not as much.  She wanted me to call her Aunt Sandy.   She had told me that I was going to meet a man named Hal.  He had black hair that was turning grey.  He worked at a bank and he knew who I was.  He wanted to contact me but he was worried about me because he knew of my health problems.  He had kids that were older and that his ex wife was done with him....

I kind of gave up on walking my hill today.  It seemed like some sidewalks were ok to walk and some weren't.  I still hit my goal. I know next weekend I'll get it done.  At least one of the days, weather permitting.  Felt good to get some fresh air.   I listened to Don Lemon's show this morning and continued with the Jesse Jackson book. I forgot what a jerk he could be.  I remembered the "hymie town" scandal.  I kind of feel like he highjacked the role of being the civil rights leader after MLK Jr.  I guess I'm kind of wondering did he do anything good?  I'm really not sure but I'm finding this book interesting.   It seems like my little blood vessel thing is looking better.  Yesterday, it felt weird.  It was like I had a red chocolate chip on the side of my nose.  Gross.  Science is cool but so gross.  He said that it would crust over and it might be.  Considering I had such a love hate relationsh...