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Avoiding the Day

 I really don't want to start my day.  Too many problems to work through but I know I'll get through some. I'm still in a funk about having to deal with Frick and Frack.  I know it won't be much but I know I might have to share some of my concerns and be more forthcoming. This is an example of how lazy those two are.  They would go to lunch everyday, whether it was in the building or go out.  While they were out, we had leftovers from some fancy luncheon the attorneys had.  When Frick and Frack came back from their longer than usual lunch, they heaped up some plates, took it into one of the depo rooms, ate and gossiped some more. Wouldn't your head explode if you had to deal with those two? I felt like the Cinderella with those two.  Always cleaning up after them and dealing with the stuff they didn't want to deal with because they had a half day or they had time off.  They could say, Oh, but we were supportive of you when you went through your ca...
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No More Frick and Frack

I got asked today about maybe covering in the area Frick and Frack worked.  I was a little more forthcoming in my apprehensions.  There will be further talk with other and I will be more blunt on why I have reservations. It's not their area.  I don't want to be stuck in their area while they take off work all the time.  It kind of makes me sick to think about it because they're two of the most entitled cows when it comes to getting out of work.   Initially I thought it would be maybe good to get away from my group and maybe get to be around people I used to deal with like Sosie.  I don't see that happening because they pick what they want to pick and they'll leave the garbage for everyone else.  Ok, just me. I brought up my own workload and how many assignments I had for scheduling. I wasn't trying to make anyone uncomfortable but I am tired of trying to please or make nice for others.  There has to be an awareness that I'm just going to say ...
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The Scammer

There's some things that I have spent money on that I'm ashamed to admit.  I know the truth will set me free and I'm taking accountability for it.  Some of the things I spent money on were out of loneliness and sadness.  It's not an excuse but it's the root cause for some of those stupid moments. During covid, I had spent way more money than I should have on one psychic in particular.  Yeah, I have spent money on that but it got worse and I became kind of dependent on this person.  She was what I thought, a nice Southern lady who did tell me a few things that did happen but not as much.  She wanted me to call her Aunt Sandy.   She had told me that I was going to meet a man named Hal.  He had black hair that was turning grey.  He worked at a bank and he knew who I was.  He wanted to contact me but he was worried about me because he knew of my health problems.  He had kids that were older and that his ex wife was done with him....
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Feeling like a Heatwave

I kind of gave up on walking my hill today.  It seemed like some sidewalks were ok to walk and some weren't.  I still hit my goal. I know next weekend I'll get it done.  At least one of the days, weather permitting.  Felt good to get some fresh air.   I listened to Don Lemon's show this morning and continued with the Jesse Jackson book. I forgot what a jerk he could be.  I remembered the "hymie town" scandal.  I kind of feel like he highjacked the role of being the civil rights leader after MLK Jr.  I guess I'm kind of wondering did he do anything good?  I'm really not sure but I'm finding this book interesting.   It seems like my little blood vessel thing is looking better.  Yesterday, it felt weird.  It was like I had a red chocolate chip on the side of my nose.  Gross.  Science is cool but so gross.  He said that it would crust over and it might be.  Considering I had such a love hate relationsh...
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All Around Town Today

I was on the move a lot today. I actually got my 10,000 steps when I was done.  It was too messy to walk but I thought I have plenty of stuff to do this morning.  When I talked to my mom, she really didn't want to go anywhere so I thought ok.  I'll keep going with what I need to get done. I have been worried about my mom the last few weeks with her own mental health.  She had such hopes that we would have a Democrat in office.  The news has just broken her.  It's been a lot this week.  I know before I started my day, I see an alert about Don Lemon being arrested.  FOR WHAT? I was mad all day. I was ready to call CNN and yell at them but I remembered Don hasn't worked there for awhile.  So I left a message from my congresswoman to please keep him and Georgia Fort and the two other journalists who were arrested.  I just felt like I got to do something.  Say something.  I loved the way Don's husband looked as he held his hand and ...
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An Interlude in Kindness

I wasn't feeling so hot yesterday morning emotionally after seeing that sweet little boy so sick.  I just felt out of sorts with everything going on. I knew I should make a phone call about that stupid red spot on my nose that was bleeding. It hadn't lately and I thought maybe it would heal, but I wondered if maybe it was an infected cyst.  Last time I had one the doctor I saw said if it wasn't infected, he would have hit me with a book.  Maybe that's my apprehension in calling, I guess. When I talked to someone, they said that they would let a nurse know and they would call me because the first opening wasn't until late April.  I said that soon and laughed.  I really wasn't ready for any appointment so I said it's really ok.  It's an annoyance more than anything.  She was insistent that she would have a nurse call me. Here I am thinking it might be a day or two and it was within maybe the hour?  Or about around that time?  She asked if I cou...
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Long January

I took my post down last night not because it was awful or anything.  It was just another tale of people being bad, but it seemed irrelevant with everything else that's going on in my mind. I'm so heartsick about that little boy with the bunny ear hat in detention now.  My heart was so sick seeing that little boy in his dad's arms and he's ill.  He's not doing well and he's not getting the medical treatment he needs.  He's not eating.  I'm so sick of stuff like this happening. Corinne said she's feeling like my mom did a few days ago.  Worried and upset and ready to break.  I tried my best to give her hope but I'm not feeling it so much either. We can't give up.  We are all traumatized.  I think of the people that turn their eyes to all this and think, What is wrong with you?   What is wrong with them?  That's what I struggle with today.  
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