The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I didn't think I'd wind up this angry this week but surprise surprise and it's not even at anyone in my daily life. My mom seems to be having some side effects from the pills she got from the hospital so we were able to make a virtual visit on the spot.  That was really cool and I was really glad to see her doctor.  We drove to get lab work so they could take a look and the lab dude said we had to make an appointment after 5.  We couldn't walk in.  My mom said we have to go because there's a big crowd and walked out.  There was nobody there.  I asked the guy so if I came during the day, we wouldn't need an appointment?  He said yes. I thought I'll just take an extended lunch.  No problem there.  Good doctor.  Stupid lab guy.  Whatever. I was trying to look online to make a lab appointment just in case but there was nothing there. I said we'll take our chances and go in before lunch time.  I get plenty of time and I can sign in ...

 I had to laugh at my 3 bottles of Flonase sitting on my dresser after reading the review last night about treating it for anxiety. I do have allergies. I do have anxiety.  I just didn't think I need to snort nasal spray to calm down.  Who knew? I looked it up, Flonase can cause anxiety.  Cool.  Makes sense. The other thing that didn't sit well with me was that I got asked if there's anything new in my family history.  Fair enough question. Then came the added unnecessary comment Because you got a long list for your family history. What the _____?  It was said in an asshole tone when I think about it.  Kind of surprised me and I said no.   Who doesn't have family history?  He made me feel like I came across as someone from a family of diseased pathetic losers.  Did he become a Trump supporter in the last year?  It was just all so strange to me until I read reviews that there was some negative reviews in the last year....

 I was doing ok until I got a call around 11.  It was from the Sleep Clinic. Wait?  What?  Sleep clinic?  What happened there?  How did they get my number??? Ohhhh, referral. I didn't realize I was getting signed up for a sleep study.  That never got explained to me.  At. All. Now I am mad.  I was nice to the woman on the phone who was ready to sign me up for an appointment and more medical bills. I said I'll have to get back to you about my schedule.  Lose my number please.  I'll screen it next time. I guess I overlooked some things and now this just did it.  I'm done.  If I need a prescription refilled this year, I'll be making an appointment.  Elsewhere.   I told my mom about the prostate cancer comment and she said did he apologize?  Not at all.  She laughed but thought shouldn't he be embarrassed especially in front of a student?  You would think, wouldn't you but nah, he thought it was f...

 I think I feel a little bit better this week.  Well definitely better than I did on Monday.  Still shocked to find out I had prostate cancer.  How come I didn't know? I am not mad that comment was mad.  I was kind of puzzled I didn't get an I'm sorry, just made more jokes and made the situation weirder.  I thought after his medical assistant told me that change is hard, I realized well, maybe it's my time. I miss my first doctor with Columbia.  She was about my age, had a daughter, divorced, had weight issues and had breast cancer.  She wound up leaving and going to work with an urgent care facility through Aurora.  I could talk to her about anything.  I couldn't with the second and apparently the third thinks I have a prostate.  Yeah.  I think I need someone that was like my first who might understand more.  I could even talk to her about work problems and she could relate how there's one that has to get on your nerves...

It wasn't a bad day.  No sightings of a lurker so that helps.  I spent my day kind of pondering my medical. First up, I finally ordered a mouth guard.  I did some homework and found a company that seemed to be best and the payments work out for me.  I could pay it all up front but considering how things are at the moment, I thought it was best to do my K Mart lay away plan payments.  I used Klarna. If I have better weeks, I'll pay more.  I need it and I need it like yesterday. I probably have had this mouth guard three times longer than I should have.  I can't afford to pay $600 or $700 at  the moment especially when I'm in credit card jail.  I looked at some companies online to see what was best over the last few months and this company fared better in their reviews.   I was told yesterday I might have sleep apena.  I don't know and I can't afford to go see someone right now and get a cpap machine.  I think I've only woke...

Today is my Monday and no, not looking forward to it.  Hopefully there's no lurker incidents to report.  Give me a few days with it, lurker, please?  Sigh.  I think the Thinker is off so it'll be a quiet day for me not to share my annoyances.  It's ok.  The cat will talk to me.   What a weird day it was yesterday.  My mom laughed when I told her that it was mentioned it's been 11 years since I had prostate cancer. I know people misspeak.  I felt kind of stupid but I didn't take offense.  Someone else might have reported it, but I misspeak too.  It felt weird having it asked like that in front of a student, but I thought eh, we're all human.  I thought maybe this is a sign for change.  I don't know.  For the time being it was a good fit.  With me not having an oncologist, I might need a female voice moving forward when it comes to health issues.  I have one male doctor who's freaking awesome.  It's ...