The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I guess I'm going to see a red flag anytime I hear someone say "Women should empower each other."  I agree with that statement.  When I hear it come from a woman's mouth, they usually have a knife behind their back. Welcome to my Ted Talk on toxic people this week.  That seems to be the theme doesn't it?  Today's subject is our former managing attorney. I actually liked her name when I found out what it was.  It was the name of a favorite character from a TV show.  For privacy purposes, let's just call her Bea.  She was definitely a B. She seemed friendly enough. It would take me awhile to figure out she was a crazy Bea.  It wasn't until the first managing attorney we had when I started had left.  We had some squirrelly weirdo from the west coast who liked to engage in gotchas with people.  He was usually home back west every few weeks and we all couldn't have been happier.   Bea had told me that she wanted to be happy and acce...

I used to have to take a couple of Tums everyday when I went into the office.  I haven't had to take one since March 2020.  Occasionally I take some Nexium when my mom makes fried chicken or I have something that might make feel acidy.  It's no longer an everyday occurrence. My former hair stylist had told me about some books regarding holistic healing after she found out about my cancer diagnosis.  Granted, she was hoping I could score her some clients at the cancer center.  I did read one of the books and found it was interesting that there is a sickness that can related to the unhealthy relationships we have in our lives. I was told that something probably burst through with the cancer starting in summer 2014.  That was an awful summer.  I was having problems with Betsy and worried about my job.  It was a very awful time.  My mom blamed her for a long time for this happening.  I get that stress can accelerate it and I didn't blame her...

I don't know if I'm an expert at spotting the signs.  Ignoring the signs?  Yeah.  I think I did a good job at that.  I can tell when someone is lying to me or has something going on that they're hiding.   I take back what I said about college ex.  He really was bad when I think about it. I think because it was college and we were immature that it wouldn't be horrible to see him.  I think I'd still call him a bad word.  Or throw something.   I did see the signs but I was hoping it wasn't what I thought it was.  The first sign was a trip to Great America with our friend Norah and her boyfriend Joe.  Norah worked with us at Target and Norah did try to fix me up with a friend before I started dating college boyfriend. What did I call him before?  We'll call him George. I don't like George Clooney so George seems to fit this idiot. Joe couldn't make it the day we were going to go but George thought it would be ok with Nora...

I'm so bothered by what happened by my appointment the other day.  It was like I was in 8th grade and being mocked for my looks.  This was more smaller microaggressions. Normally the student takes my jacket and hangs it up somewhere.  She was adamant that I could hang it up on her hook that made my jacket sit on the floor pretty much.  It was ok but I noticed others had their coats hung up.  This was a salon life appointment. I didn't realize it but normally I get some type of relaxation treatment like a shoulder massage or more time with massage my hair when I get it washed.  I didn't get any of that. Even though the comments to her instructor weren't what I thought they were, it was clear that she found my hair problematic.  I just kind of checked out mentally and emotionally when she finished up.  I felt like I was a freak she had to deal with.  Her instructor complimented me on my color coming in.  When the student asked if I wanted ...

I feel like I'm forgetting something and I feel like something is going to blow up on me soon.  It's been so much to remember and I think I'm sucking at it.  Oh, I feel I'm sucking at it.  I know I'm sucking at it.  Ugh.  So much for the positive pep talk, eh? Well the volume of work is getting to me and really not knowing what's happening with the lurker is a little frustrating.  Will they make their grand return much to our annoyance or has something changed?  I say it's fine when I don't see them lurking but one way or another, I'd really like to know something. I don't need to know the reasons why.  I just need to know if this person is coming or going.  I don't think we get help everyday either so I'm not sure if I got to do clean up in several aisles this morning. My mom is unsure about going to the food pantry this morning because of lent.  She was going to walk and I would pick her up.  She likes getting her free bag and fre...

It was a recurring theme of the day.  When I signed in, I felt stupid.  I read an email from someone that just made me feel stupid.  It wasn't their fault. I didn't realize I had done something where I was making work for myself. I didn't realize the answer was in plain sight. I have no idea how to respond.  I don't know if I want to respond.  I just feel stupid. It kind of seems like the last time I did ask or put down feedback regarding something this person works on, I got kind of a disparaging email.  We were all told to do it.  I just deleted the email and I thought if this feedback gets asked again, I'm ignoring it.  It made me feel like I was asking for the moon. I was making some minor suggestions where the lurker put down about 3 or 4 pages of issues.  There's someone that I can maybe talk to about it who will understand.  I just feel stupid and I don't know how to respond. Today, I was gathering up some of my postcards to mail ...