The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I guess you don't have to be in a romantic or is being married still considered romantic? My point is there's many examples of toxic relationships that you find yourself in and don't always realize it. I guess I didn't realize it with the stomper.  When I met the stomper, they were in the same spot as me.  They seemed nice and a bit scattered but I understood.  Having two little ones at home, it was understandable.   The stomper stepped into a role that was a little bit above me which I was fine with but started seeing some signs that troubled me.  I kind of saw some micro managing and when I'd ask for help, I'd get a can you figure it out yourself?  I did but I kind of resented it after I was told not to worry, I'd be there for you. When the stomper applied for something higher up, she was angry about being turned down.  I kind of thought maybe it was too soon since they hadn't been there long enough and I tried to be gentle with my words.  ...

 I wound up taking my left contact lens out yesterday when I got home from the car dealer.  It was just burning my eye for some reason.  I get that from time to time. I could still see with only one contact lens in.  I even drove home from Madison with Frack after we went to a class together.  She would have freaked out.  I don't know what it is.  It doesn't sit on my eye well or if it's telling me time to change lenses.  I do every month and a half to two months.  It's supposed to be once a month and I have marked it on my calendar. I think my eye was just having a bad day yesterday. I didn't leave the dealership sobbing with car repair bills yesterday morning.  What is so special about air cabin filters?  I mean I get it but that always seems to be my issue where it needs fixing and I'm ok with it if that's the worse thing.  I'm just wondering.  They mentioned my tire treads as something that might need updating.  I...

I did cry a tiny bit yesterday and I think it was more stress related than anything.  Just felt mentally broke.  It was a small moment where I thought my brain was going to explode. I can't wait until the stomper is out of my life.  The pushing has been too much.  I'm sick of it.  The stomper made me cry in front of others and after that, sent me a box of candy from Amazon the following Monday. You can't treat people poorly, buy a box of candy and say I appreciate you.  WTF?  Honestly.  What's wrong with people?  It doesn't make things better.  It makes me fatter and the feeling of it's going to be ok just lasts for a moment.  No.  The stomper is an insensitive and thoughtless person.  I guess I went back and forth on how I felt and now that things will be changing I can't wait for this change to happen.  It would be nice if I didn't go through this with the next person.  Just an airheaded teenager I've been deal...

 It's been a week.  Not a good one.  One that has made me angry and annoyed. I really have no tolerance for women who "just can't handle" the difficult stuff and push stuff on others.  I have had a lifetime of it and I'm tired of being the human dumpster for others BS. I had an episode with acid reflux that scared me.  Scared my mom.  I was just eating a sandwich and she put gravy on it and I think the gravy felt stuck in my throat and I had to stand up and walk around. She thought I was throwing up.  I was belching up water.  I was ok but I thought that's probably why my airway looked small.  All the acid from all the stress people have caused me from being lazy assholes. I started my 14 day thing of Nexium. I haven't done it in a long time.  It's day 3 and I'm feeling a lot better.  Yeah.  I'll be more mindful of what I eat.  Horrible wake up call.  I have had that happen, in fact a couple of weeks ago.  It's n...

 That seems to be my new hang after work.  I really need to get in on that Taco Tuesday special. I saw what people were getting and it looked good.  I just sat down at a table and messaged Corinne while I took a short break before I went back on my evening walk.  It made me happy to see that they did have a fair amount of people ordering at the stand that they have for food.  I want the business to succeed.  It's a nice store.  Lower the prices or offer some more incentives.  Everyone loves a rewards program.  I really look forward to going there at night and maybe do some people watch while I sit down and gather my thoughts from the day.   Ever have someone talk to like you're a child and you're older than them?  I have had several instances and lately it's annoying me when it happens.  Not everyone is like this.  I've dealt with some great people who were younger than me and higher up on the food chain and have talk...

 I woke up later than usual and I guess it's never a bad thing if you get more sleep.  Not like I got to get in a car and drive on the freeway.  Thank goodness. I have to find my mom's AARP bill and call to get her cash value emailed. I can handle that.  And change her eye doctor appointment.  I told her she has to talk to Charlie about the faucet.  I'm too afraid to and it's not his or Jeremy's fault.  Just worried about what will happen next.  If he can get a faucet, great!  If not, then I'm worried. I finished my postcards for the New York primary.  I got stamps from the Environmental group that I've volunteered from.  They used to send me a 100 cards and now they upped it to 200.  Too hard to get that many stamps on that short of time.  I'm on a budget, people. I have cards for Postcards to Swing States but I don't have to mail them until mid October and I got time to build my stash.  Hopefully enough money. I'm t...