The Invisible Woman Chronicles

 I was up at 3 and maybe fell asleep for like 30 minutes before I got up at 5:20.  What a bad night. Not sure what was making me anxious.  Maybe the month of April and a bit of sciatica.  I got to find something that helps with that.  Stupid damp weather. I got to take my mom to the DMV.  Even though it's not for me, it still makes me anxious because I got to figure out what we're doing.  I got to admit.  I'm having a harder time realizing she's giving up her license.  She hasn't driven in over 15 years and she's good with it.  She didn't learn until her early 30s because you could take the bus every where.  She never really liked it and she got anxious about it at times with traffic.  I totally get it.   I got a message back from the dental people that my lower impression looked good. I need to re-take the upper impression.  Damn it.  I got 1 right so that was good and hopefully after I submitted the new pi...

I'm hoping my mom is doing better and gets up soon.  I know her doctor's office will call and might have some suggestions.  I think my suggestion on food choices might have been working out better.  I'm not sure.  No diss to her doctor. I liked him when he did the call with her.  I had a hard time understanding him but I think he's a decent doctor.  I think for her situation, we needed to change direction a little bit.   I felt depressed last night.  I was trying to look for activities for me to go do something and make friends.  It made me feel pathetic at my age.  I went through so many times where I thought I had genuine friends and well, it didn't work out.  No, the Cassie thing doesn't haunt me.  It makes me feel stupid.  I hate revisiting stuff like that.  I didn't think of her last night.  There was someone else that I thought was a true friend and I stuck up for this friend when we worked together....

Kind of worried this morning when I saw my mom's test results.  They were ok but then I wondered what was happening that she was having issues?  She kind of got depressed when I told her.  We thought if she had something it would explain things.  She seems to be better and I looked up some type of ideas for food that might help.  Knock on wood.  It's been a better day for her.  I'll take that.  She worried about getting like someone we knew that she was getting that way.  Well that person let themselves wither and was kind of ignored.  Lucky for her, she's got me to annoy the daylights out of her.  She did shake her fist at me today to get out of my room so she could vacuum.  Good signs.  I need them badly. Yeah. I watched the news last night and today.  Sigh.  Our world is a lot.  I think if some things were different, my mom wouldn't have been standing in line at a food pantry.  We would have slept be...

 I got my dental kit today to make my impressions for my mouth guard.  I think I pulled out the wrong tray for one of them.  I'll find out and I can do it over with the spare putty.  I was freaked out about the time but once I did it, I thought maybe this will work. It's a little scary for me to make any purchase lately that's kind of significant. I set it up through Klarna.  I watched the instructional videos and a You Tube video to help me understand it better.  I did it on my own whether they think I have to take an impression over or not. I did it.  I can do it again if I have to do it. I hate that I'm a teeth grinder.  I was mocked after a slumber party after I kept the other girls up.  Never got an invite and never wanted to get invited.  No thanks.  I always worried I was going to wind up being pranked because I seemed to be a good target for kids.   I considered maybe going back to the dentist. I have that emergenc...

This morning I got to take mom to drop off her lab stuff.  Unfortunately she doesn't seem to get the memo that the lab closes at noon and she should wake up. I told her to wake up a half hour ago and she said ok.  She's sleeping. I get it. I was supposed to get up at 6 and I went back to sleep until 7.  I'll wait a few more minutes before I try again. I thought I could renew her license and change it to an ID.  We were supposed to go on Monday afternoon but she changed her mind about going. I just thought I could have done it online so I didn't push it. I was the one that said we could do it online. I guess if you're switching over to an ID then you can't.  I think they want your license.  My mom will gladly throw it back at them.  She didn't learn to drive until her early 30s and she's never been a fan.  Never did freeway driving.  When we moved here, she maybe drove once and then it seemed like I took over.  It wasn't like No, you can'...

I had a weird bump under my arm that formed when I cut my under arm shaving one day.  It didn't seem to heal and I thought maybe I had an infected hair follicle trapped.  It kind of burned and it was where I had lymph nodes taken out.   As a kid, I broke out a lot in my underarms and it was disgusting. Sometimes it was cysts and I wondered if it was that.  Years later, I had to deal with an ugly boil on my upper thigh that took a long time to heal and then an infected cyst on my upper chest near my neck.  What is that called?  Decolletage?  Took me a few rounds of antibiotics to heal that nightmare up.  So yeah, that's where my thinking went.  Weird skin thing. It got suggested that I have another doctor do a test to take a closer look.  Ok.  Made sense.  I definitely didn't want anyone pulling out any blades and cutting me if we didn't know. I had enough of that the year before, thank you very much. So after I did the tes...