The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I was kind of upset about the neighbor ignoring me next door. He doesn't live next door.  He lives with his girlfriend a block over but he keeps the house just so he can get away.  Well isn't he a catch?  I was upset because I saw him like kitty corner from the street I was crossing.  He saw me and turned around.  He pretended he didn't see me.  I thought what's wrong with him?  What did I do? I've said hello to him in passing and he has just ignored me. A couple of days ago, I came out to the alley to start my walk and I saw him pushing a bike.  I thought I don't want to deal with this so I turned around and walked around to the front of the house.  Who do I see?  Grumpy neighbor pushing the bike.  I did what he did to me weeks ago and I turned my back, looking for my airpods. I thought what a jerk.  Now I know he's giving me the cold shoulder. I suspect our neighbor across the alley said something to him about us.  I'm n...

Now that summer is coming to an end, it's time to think about making appointments, or when to make them.  One is easy and what makes it easy is that this doctor is probably booked about 3 or 4 months out and I'm ok with that.  Nice doctor.  I just seem to say stupid stuff to him. Looks like I might have to find a dentist in the near future. I was hoping my old dentist would be off of medical leave by now but he's not.  I called to change my appointment for my October and I asked about him.  They said he's probably retiring so I just asked if my appointment could get changed for early October with his partner who I have been seeing for the last year. I know both of them are about in their late 70s and I know his partner is taking his patients as well so it's a lot.  How long is he going to want to keep up with that?  I figured I'll stay for now and be prepared for the find a new dentist conversation that will be coming my way.   It's depressin...

I didn't smile today at the post office.  Kind of felt annoyed by the young woman behind me bitching and talking to herself about how slow things were. I didn't care that I had to wait for awhile. I was annoyed that she wouldn't shut up. I had told my mom today that if I had a chance to retire, I'd do it in a heartbeat.  I like working.  I don't mind what I do.  I'm tired of the games that people have played over the years.  I have just had enough lately. The diva and her new best friend, the bragger are working on a project together and it was presented to all of us and it was discussed that they would be reaching out to others for their input.  I knew what that meant.  My invite would get lost in the mail. I am maybe speaking too soon on the bragger.  As soon as the bragger entered our lives, I was a little suspect because of her connection to the diva and their project.  The diva was impressed with the bragger.  She is a dare devil an...

I look over at the trunk next to my desk during the day and I have those moments where it just hurts.  I don't cry. I just feel heartbroken about her.  It's getting better.  There have been some things happening that have helped with me trying to heal lately.   Meanwhile, in my day to day world, the diva is on my nerves this week.  When I had to leave that Friday, there wasn't a lot of us in our group online and when asked about who can be in charge for rushes, the diva piped in right away.  Kind of relieved at the time and I figured she was pissed off about me not being in the next day so she could boss me around. I mentioned to someone that there are individuals who will say they will help and they won't.  I hope they're observing who it is.  Yesterday, someone else needed help and she was first to offer.  The other day I was asked along with Regina about something we both had a lot of and the diva was quick to offer her help for Regin...

The day after I took Precious for the last vet visit, I was back to my routine.  Some things had changed.  I wasn't stopping to get litter.  I got a few grocery items and then went off to my walk on the east side, still feeling very broken and sad. I had messed up the condolence card for Josh and I had to get a different card.  I had plenty of discounts (no, I'm not discounting their grief, I'm just stupid with money) so I figured I'd stop at CVS and look for a replacement.  As I was looking, a young dad and his girls were in the aisle and a guy came along with his black labrador. I love labradors. The Great Fava had a chocolate brown labrador.  Loved Sadie.  Hated the Great Fava.  I got a soft spot for that particular dog and the dog was actually looking at me as they passed.  I just said to the dog, "You're beautiful" and the dog sat down.  I couldn't believe it.  I petted the dog and told he or she that they were wonderful and th...

I'm not ok.  It happened this morning.  I had to act fast this morning and we took her in.  I'm not ok.  The vet thought she had a stroke.  He thought it was a neurological thing.  Her back legs weren't working and she was collapsing. This happened within the last 24 hours.  She didn't seem ok.  She was crying more.  More meowing.  Seemed unsettled.  I thought is it my imagination?   I saw her head to the litter box as I was getting done with my bath.  Her back leg buckled as she got in.  Then she slunk underneath the bath tub and in the corner.  I knew.  I knew this was bad. When she came out, she was wobbling and my mom picked her up.  She held her for awhile and had her sit in the recliner.  That was their thing. I went to bed and I thought, maybe something will change.  I didn't think it would but if I go down the road of magical thinking, it'll keep me from crying.   I laid...