The Invisible Woman Chronicles

 I made it through yesterday and was quite productive. I found out that the reason my one prescription cost more was because I prescribed tablets instead of capsules. Um, what the absolute F is that about?  I figured I'd contact my doctor's office and ask if I can get capsules instead when I'm out of this first batch. When I picked them up on Friday, the pharmacist went over it with me and the conversation kind of irritated me.  It's not my first time taking something like this and I felt like he was talking in a normal than soft voice to soothe my frazzled nerves and let me know that this one takes time. Yeah, I take an anti depressant so I'm a fragile flower.  I appreciate kindness but I don't appreciate the tone that I'm defective.  That's what it is.  You can't be a high functioning person if you take one of these prescriptions.  Shut up with that mindset.  It's so insulting and kind of hurtful. I started taking them off and on since my early...

 Oh well I don't have much time off until the end of the year. I took about a week off like mid week for the new year.  I'm off New Year's Eve and not back until the first Thursday in January.  Not sure if I'll have any appointments between now and then but I have the time. I was annoyed by the woman at the pharmacy this afternoon.  We were trying to sort out my mom's mess with Medicare.  They basically told us to call a number and see if I can get a card emailed to my mom.  Here's hoping that's not an exhausting exercise in insanity. I don't mind doing it but considering I had a week off, it's like great.  As if I don't have enough to do this week or catch up on.  Not mom's fault.  Just crappy timing.   I had to go back to the pharmacy because I forgot that I still had a prescription.  Woman behind the counter said I was lucky since they closed at 4 pm.  Um, it's 3:40 and I'm the only one in line.  What?  I've h...

 I had a frustrating night with Honey Bear.  I wound up going to sleep crying and missing Precious. I know they are two different cats.  It's been a hard adjustment with Honey Bear. She can very sweet but she runs a lot from you.  There are trust issues she has and we were set back as well by Kringle being here.  Kind of wished that they would have had someone keep an eye on Kringle.  Not his fault.  This is a cat that has probably had some trauma and she was just getting used to us before he stayed with us. My mom was upset because she ran under my bed when she went into pet her.  Honey Bear has taken to my room and has kind of kicked me out of my side of the bed.  I told her that she does it to me as well. Sometimes she can be super sweet and sometimes she'll get up and go under the bed.  I hate that.  I said you're too cute for us not to see her.  I knew it upset my mom. I could hear her blowing her nose in the bathroom....

 It's not easy being me.  Today is one of those days. I was feeling a little hopeful that I could make progress with weight loss.  I said yes to doing one of the medications and I knew there would be roadblocks.  Once things got sorted out, I was denied.  It was a fast denial.  There's another option that involves me seeing another medical provider.  Kind of sucks but I think how come I got to jump through so many hoops all the time? When I went to the pharmacy, I was a little surprised at the cost of the new prescription. I think I had this years ago and I don't think it cost that much.  I'm not blaming anyone.  Just my insurance.  What changed?  It wasn't horrible but I was hoping it was a 3 month supply.  The weight thing is weighing on me.  I think how can I not be a candidate?  Found out I was right and I am pre-diabetic.  I may need a test in the future involving my heart.  I am at risk for being at a ...

 I really regret that I left my old clinic after yesterday.  What a difference. I was frustrated I couldn't see my doctor when I could or got sent to the clinic down the street that I thought I should have changed. I should have just changed to a nurse practitioner at the time. I didn't realize I could have them as a primary.  They were the ones I usually saw at times unless they were booked. There are some changes that will be made and things I didn't realize I had.  I finally got something cut down in milligrams after I was told no previously that I had the right dosage.   Sigh.  Yeah, sometimes change can be hard.  Sometimes it can save your life. I'll be ok.  Just really glad I changed.  

 I'm not this pouty person if someone doesn't remember my birthday. I got to admit, I'm a little surprised at someone for not saying anything.   The thing is, I see attention for other relatives online or find out accidentally and I think, did I do something wrong? I know that's not the case.  It's just am I important enough for just a short message. No.  That hurts.  When you see the attention for those who aren't so nice and who have actually done quite hurtful things to this person, it doesn't help me. I think how is it more important to be in their good graces? Well.  I don't matter. Things like this?  Make me sad.  Maybe I'm wrong but got a feeling I'm invisible again this year.