The Invisible Woman Chronicles

Another delete me post. Years ago, when I sold shoes in college, we would give our sales if someone's family member came in.  It was a little bit more of a courteous group back then where we would help each other out. I had someone come in when I was off and they let that sales clerk know that they were related to me.  They offered to put the sale under my number and they told them no.  I never knew about it until my co worker told me about it and they were adamant that I didn't get the sale.  It wasn't a big sale but you know every little bit helps with commission. It's moments like that where you wonder, if this person ever really wanted you to succeed in life.  

 Not really thrilled it's supposed to rain all day on Saturday. I shouldn't care since I have the following week off but I'd like to start the time off with better weather.  Maybe it 70 percent and I won't feel so bad.  Damn it.   I kind of figure the diva will try to take over when I'm off.  No, I don't care.  Annoyed but I figure she'll irritate someone because she is just rude.  If she does something for you, she does expect you to give her a gold star or throw a party.  Such an attention seeker.  I'll be glad to get a break from that nonsense.   I'll be working on my voter letters and postcards.  I'm hoping I can get a lot done that week.  I think it'll be a blue wave and I think there will be a lot of surprises.  I think the evil orange man will throw chaos and that's the part that worries me. I like Dr. El Sayed and how he stays on message and doesn't get distracted by the noise. I love his messaging. ...

I feel a little sore around my neck and I know where that comes from.  I was hit from behind in October 2017.  First time I've been in an accident. I was headed to work and I was sitting at a red light.  All of a sudden, I felt this loud slam behind me and my head almost hit the dashboard.  I was in shock and looked behind.  I pulled over when the light turned red. The guy that got out of the car was apologetic.  I yelled, What's wrong with you?  He was trying to be nice and say I'm so sorry.  This happened to my wife.  I didn't mean to do it.  He said lady, please don't call the cops. I should have.  Honestly, I didn't know what to do in the situation. I was stunned.  I asked for information and he offered to follow me to a medical clinic.  I said I'm going down the street to get checked out. I really was too shocked to be rude or nice.  I was just indifferent.  It wasn't ok.  He gave me his name and phone ...

Last night, I went to bed early.  I didn't go to sleep.  I wanted to just check out of life for the evening.  I was tired.  I embraced the depression. It just built up over the day.  I think it started when I got gas. I thought maybe I could find a station on Gas Buddy but the cheapest was 3.89.  I just couldn't bring myself to fill it up completely. I thought where do I go?  Nowhere. We were at the store waiting for someone to wait on us at the deli when I let my mom know that I was behind her and she snapped at me.  I apologized.  I knew she didn't sleep much. I said I just wanted her to know I was on her side because of her vision issues.  I got flustered when I used the do it yourself check out. I felt like I couldn't get the bags open and the cashier helped me.  My mom asked why I was red in the face and I said I don't know.  I wear my emotions on my sleeve I guess. I was missing Precious last night. I thought how sad am I...

There's nothing wrong with sharing your accomplishments.  It's how you share it that can make a person sound like an ass. Case in point - the diva's friend.  We'll call her The Big Bragger.  When she helped us when the lurker was out, the diva shared that they were working on a project together and she's so fascinating.  That makes me raise an eyebrow right there.  I kind of figured the Bragger would help the diva more than me and I wasn't wrong.  Helped everyone else except for me.  The diva shared how the bragger was a daredevil who jumped out of airplanes.  In our meetings, the bragger shared that she knew a famous person's family who was on SNL.  That's not a good brag considering the person in the question was a big drug addict who died of an overdose.  I digress. The bragger was off a couple of days this week and then she announces she's quitting.  She has her dream job with the state and it's her family legacy.  We all s...

I don't know what to title this.  It seems like I should have a day of silence myself.  I know where I was on 9/11.  Now that we can use air play to watch MS Now, I heard the name of the company I worked for back then.  We still have downtown office but we had an office in the twin towers.  It was surreal and a nightmare watching a building where our New York colleagues worked collapse on TV.   There's divas and friends of divas I feel like talking about today but it doesn't seem right.   I see who's leading our country and I just feel sad about the lying, especially being pulled from the rubble lie.  And people believe it. I hope our country turns a page soon because this is just hard.