The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I shouldn't complain in some respects because I am getting through things that I might have rushed through.  Two of the people who give me the majority of my work are occupied this week with something bigger.  I know once they're both back in full force, it's game on for keeping up.  It's fine.  I just got another message yesterday that involved an angry exclamation point that made me tired.  I try. I discovered the diva has an issue with someone else other than me.  I was kind of relieved when I found out what her questioning was about.  I know, she has issues with people?  Color me shocked.  I get the comment that was made about being receptive to feedback.  It all makes sense and no, the diva is not receptive to feedback.  She'll snap back at you. I do feel a little out of sorts.  Since late August, I've been back on the struggle bus with money with my big payment for my creditors.  Not anyone's fault other than my own....

 There's a lot I can say about yesterday.  I'm too tired to go into the details or provide an explanation. I'm tired of women wanting to take each other down and then playing the innocent victims when someone stands up to them. I'll never trust another person in my group about anything personal because it's blown up in my face and used against me. If people don't think I can see what they're up to when they're typing messages during a meeting and I can see someone else's reaction, they're out of their flipping mind.  Yeah.  Diva and Regina.   I did say something about people needing to speak to each other and call. There's too much hiding behind screens.   I'm tired of the keyboard bullies.  

 No, I would never do that.  Just a feeling.  A feeling that keeps me warm and fuzzy and pissed off.  Sigh. I thought my day was going along too well and then the diva struck with her question.  About a year ago, we stopped doing these corrections for each other because it was causing resentment towards each other.  Now the diva is playing dumb and wants to know if we can do them again.  We'll be having a conversation.  I kind of suspect maybe it's me she's targeting but we have had others helping.  She just can't help herself and if that does happen, well, I got one waiting for her that I already caught.   Other than that, things were better than I expected.  We had a couple of days last week where there were presentations going on, so I had hoped that maybe that made things less chaotic. Worried about my mom. I asked her if I was annoying her because she seemed irritated when I brought in Honey Bear.  Actually her face l...

I'm sure it'll suck when I open my emails.  I'm sure the diva will have some passive aggressive comment in the group chat.  I'll be ok.  I'll just be annoyed until 2 in the afternoon.  It'll pass. I didn't have a great night sleeping. We've had the windows open and Saturday, I woke up with that horrible headache.  Same thing last night.  I hated to do it to Honey Bear but I shut the windows and turned the central air until morning.  Did the headache go away? Yeah.  I shut the air down when I woke up and opened a couple of windows.  She could still look out of them. She just couldn't get stand in them.  There's really not enough room for her to sit with the new windows they chose. I think Jeremy is still gone.  I thought maybe Charlie would be home today and get him from the airport.  He mentioned something about Jeremy staying six weeks some time ago to my brother inlaw when he was here.  Maybe that's what he meant about t...

 I've heard this phrase many times and I would love it if someone actually meant it.  If you need to talk, I'm here for you as a friend. Have I taken people up on this comment from time to time?  Yes.  It's really a throw away statement.  It's either no response or gee, I don't know what to say. I would love it if someone said hey, let's talk sometime.  I'll text you when it's a good time and we'll meet up. I would give my number if someone said that.  I would like it if maybe later that night, I got a message that said, Am I free Saturday morning to get some coffee?  I wouldn't play games and wait an hour.  I would yes.  I will be there. It would be lovely if that person showed up that Saturday morning and we just talked.  We just listened. So when I hear the phrase, I'm here for you as a friend?  I'm thinking, Are you really?  I'm kind of not sure if I believe it. That's where I'm at right now.  

Almost every weekend, I feel like someone purposely sets my mental health on fire by sending me incessant pictures of what's going on in their life, how much fun they're having. I took a lot of people off of Facebook because I couldn't take the constant pictures of people's vacations.  I really got to say this  - it's ok to go on vacation.  It's ok to have money!  Live your best life!  When you constantly put it all over the internet you look like a braggy ass.  I don't mind seeing these pictures.  If this is your third vacation?  STOP!  I have no interest in some of this stuff that I'm getting sent.  I would rather have a conversation exchange than to see someone on a water ride. I don't get people.