The Invisible Woman Chronicles

 I don't get out much and today, I'm going to see Fran Hong, who is running for governor of Wisconsin.  Here I am with a big old red eye.  This winter can go to hell. I could feel a lens roll up yesterday so I thought oh no, time to get it out.  With winter being so dry, anytime I sense a lens shift in my eye, I get it out or then it's a bitch to get out later.  Well I don't know if I got it out but it appears that my eye is looking beat up.  It looks better than last night.  I could have sworn I felt something come out and drop on my sweater when I laid down on my bed to conduct surgery.  Item nowhere to be found.  Damn it. I may have to see if they can squeeze me in to make sure I don't have anything funny in my eye.  Here's to losing $50 or more to this stupid winter.  Damn it.  Unless my eye clears up significantly tomorrow, I probably should make a call. There have been two instances in my life where I thought I had a stuc...

The anxiety monster came to visit me late yesterday afternoon.  I've had two problem files and one is going sideways.  I saw an email and thought ok.  I'm not lingering with my time.  It was the end of the day and I just can't at this point. Then I spent the evening trying not to think about it. I can ask about it on Monday.  There's another situation that's driving me crazy.  I'm kind of caught in between a rock and a hard place. I hate it when my anxiety takes over my brain.  I try to work on other things or think watching TV will help.  Nope.  When I went to bed last night, I could still feel my heart racing.  It sucked.  Yes, I take something and it just wasn't doing the trick. To all the people with their great advice?  Buzz off.  Honestly.  I wish people would just "do" instead of "say" all the time.  Talk is cheap.  Being there for someone actually means something. It was like this when I was in schoo...

I guess I'm going to see a red flag anytime I hear someone say "Women should empower each other."  I agree with that statement.  When I hear it come from a woman's mouth, they usually have a knife behind their back. Welcome to my Ted Talk on toxic people this week.  That seems to be the theme doesn't it?  Today's subject is our former managing attorney. I actually liked her name when I found out what it was.  It was the name of a favorite character from a TV show.  For privacy purposes, let's just call her Bea.  She was definitely a B. She seemed friendly enough. It would take me awhile to figure out she was a crazy Bea.  It wasn't until the first managing attorney we had when I started had left.  We had some squirrelly weirdo from the west coast who liked to engage in gotchas with people.  He was usually home back west every few weeks and we all couldn't have been happier.   Bea had told me that she wanted to be happy and acce...

I used to have to take a couple of Tums everyday when I went into the office.  I haven't had to take one since March 2020.  Occasionally I take some Nexium when my mom makes fried chicken or I have something that might make feel acidy.  It's no longer an everyday occurrence. My former hair stylist had told me about some books regarding holistic healing after she found out about my cancer diagnosis.  Granted, she was hoping I could score her some clients at the cancer center.  I did read one of the books and found it was interesting that there is a sickness that can related to the unhealthy relationships we have in our lives. I was told that something probably burst through with the cancer starting in summer 2014.  That was an awful summer.  I was having problems with Betsy and worried about my job.  It was a very awful time.  My mom blamed her for a long time for this happening.  I get that stress can accelerate it and I didn't blame her...

I don't know if I'm an expert at spotting the signs.  Ignoring the signs?  Yeah.  I think I did a good job at that.  I can tell when someone is lying to me or has something going on that they're hiding.   I take back what I said about college ex.  He really was bad when I think about it. I think because it was college and we were immature that it wouldn't be horrible to see him.  I think I'd still call him a bad word.  Or throw something.   I did see the signs but I was hoping it wasn't what I thought it was.  The first sign was a trip to Great America with our friend Norah and her boyfriend Joe.  Norah worked with us at Target and Norah did try to fix me up with a friend before I started dating college boyfriend. What did I call him before?  We'll call him George. I don't like George Clooney so George seems to fit this idiot. Joe couldn't make it the day we were going to go but George thought it would be ok with Nora...

I'm so bothered by what happened by my appointment the other day.  It was like I was in 8th grade and being mocked for my looks.  This was more smaller microaggressions. Normally the student takes my jacket and hangs it up somewhere.  She was adamant that I could hang it up on her hook that made my jacket sit on the floor pretty much.  It was ok but I noticed others had their coats hung up.  This was a salon life appointment. I didn't realize it but normally I get some type of relaxation treatment like a shoulder massage or more time with massage my hair when I get it washed.  I didn't get any of that. Even though the comments to her instructor weren't what I thought they were, it was clear that she found my hair problematic.  I just kind of checked out mentally and emotionally when she finished up.  I felt like I was a freak she had to deal with.  Her instructor complimented me on my color coming in.  When the student asked if I wanted ...