The Invisible Woman Chronicles

It would be no shocker if it was the lurker with her 135 lives.  Ugh.  It would also be nice not to see the light on by their profile picture.  I would be ok with that. I found my bill from North Shore Pathologists.  This afternoon I'll take a look and see if the claim got submitted and if I need to make two phone calls instead of one.  If I remember today?  This has to be the one thing. I'm almost finished with Song Song Blue.  What a great movie.  I'm not saying that because it's set in Milwaukee but it does have an extra appeal for me. I had wondered where Mike Sardina lived in the movie because of the airplanes. I thought maybe it was in my old neighborhood like closer to Mitchell Field but turned out to be South Milwaukee.  I'm a nerd.  Had to google it. I know Corinne would like to go see her cousins in Canada and is kind of nervous about asking her husband.  I get his apprehension with everything in the news.  I hope the...

I don't miss being in the office around Valentine's Day because there would be the typical bouquet of flowers that would come in for my co-workers.  They weren't modest about it.  They were quite arrogant about it. There was a sadness I'd feel when I see someone getting a bouquet like that even when I had someone in my life.  I didn't want the flowers.  I wanted to be seen.  I wanted to feel special.  It was an opportunity for others to look down on me like Oh, maybe someday someone will see you're special.  Sigh.  Buzz off.   I was feeling bad that I had salty feelings towards the diva.  She was so kind of friendly when I signed in and I thought she just wants to make a name.  Well she shouldn't do it by stepping on my back.   I did take a look at her infamous Tik Tok account today and what do you know?  It was all about her man doing stuff for her on Valentine's Day and posting flowers for all of her followers....

I think my mood went south when my mom asked if we could stop at Dollar Tree on the way home from Cermaks yesterday.  I wasn't mad that she asked. I thought ok, no problem.   It was the parking lot that did it.  I get it.  December and January sucked weather wise.  First weekend in awhile, I think?  that it was super nice to be outdoors and I just felt like I had to play dodge ball with the cars. I dropped her off in front of the store and tried to find a parking spot that wasn't in a different county. That wasn't all.  My mom was looking at rentals out of curiosity last night when we watched TV.  That is a reality that I may have to deal with at the end of this year.  I am hoping that the guys don't go higher than $100 because the rent situation is insane and I'm worried. I feel like I'm going to be wandering on the street like the woman I saw yesterday yelling at people Can you help me?  I felt bad I ignored her but I thought, lad...

In high school, I had a friend who had a crush on a football player.  I'd sit and hear her gush with the rest of our friends about how she had a crush on this guy.  She was writing him love letters that were anonymous and they were really gross.  When I read them I thought this sounds pornographic.  I don't think a teen guy would be offended by some of this stuff, but this was not attention getting.  I offered to help her write letters.   No offense to my friend Cheryl, I knew that this football player was above her.  We were in the dipshit crowd.  Everyone was above us but I wanted her to catch his attention with words, even if he wouldn't look at her because he was too busy looking at the cheerleaders.   I used my writer skills and wrote the letters.  The first one was a hit.  Initially he kind of blew them off and I think he was throwing them in the trash.  Not mine!  One of our friends was showing his friends...

I felt lighter yesterday and maybe I shouldn't.  No lurker online yesterday.  I felt hopeful yesterday about the situation.  It's been so unbearable busy but I felt lighter.  I felt kind of silly.  I liked the idea of her being out of my life forever.  I like the fact that something was done about a bully. I was excited when the lurker started and about their experience.  Being in our new world, I met new people online who were helpful and kind, unlike Frick and Frack.  It seemed like maybe this was a better environment for me emotionally and it was.  There was one person who was problematic.  Little did I realize she'd get a friend in the lurker.  Tara the troll is a whole other blog post. I thought the lurker would have been a great person to work with. I had the years of experience. She had the knowledge for this particular area.  I didn't realize I'd be bullied and belittled in this subtle manner that made it seem like I wa...

I got up around 4 and felt anxious to fall back asleep. I normally get up around 5 ish.  It depends on my energy.  I figure it's better 5 than 6 because if I keep going back to sleep it'll turn into 7.  I did wake up a little bit before 6. I kind of feel like there's something going on with the lurker and I am anxious about it.  Curious.  She seems to have like 250 lives.  There was a cryptic message to all of us about sending work information to our personal emails.  Why would I want to have nightmares?  I was puzzled but when we signed off, the lights came on. There was an incident that the diva told me about involving the lurker and sending work information to her personal information.  Did she do it again?  It wouldn't shock me if she did.  It also wouldn't shock me if she was online this morning.  When I heard the word termination, my mind ran to a joyful possibility.  Like I said, the lurker has 250 lives.  Some...