The Invisible Woman Chronicles

Sometimes the micro aggressions I dealt with were in the house so to speak. I don't mean to speak cryptically but I will probably take this post down at some point.  I had to get it out. A comment was made to me regarding a friend who had heart issues and it was in reference to my age.  It was a comment that made me say what are you implying?  I didn't ask.  I have heard it before.   I have been gifted "fat" pants over the last few years with a comment does that offend you?  I don't think much about it other than I probably won't wear them. I kind of suspect it was implied that I'm a good candidate for heart trouble because I'm fat.  Sigh.   I know my health and I'm sick of people thinking I don't take it seriously because of a number on the scale.  That's the type of comment that will prompt me to over eat. I didn't last night.  I thought I'm not going to ask for more clarification.  I think I know where it would go to an...

My eye is looking a lot better.  Still red more in the corner part, but I'm seeing signs of white in my eye.  I liked the idea of getting away from my daily insanity but I like not having to cough up some change to pay for an eye irritation.   I have these little eye drops in tubes and I got them for my mom but will she use them?  Noooo.  I was happy to get more if she needed them, but ok, let's be stubborn. I used them and apparently they helped.   I didn't push myself to finish anymore when it came time to call it a day.  It's just too much and I wish there was some news about the lurker or how long this limbo will last.   At least my eye looks less red.  Still feels tired.

I'm not sure when, but I will probably make a phone call to see if I can get in at the eye doctor.  After the event we went to, my eye felt sore.  Even if there's not something stuck, I should probably get something to help with the redness.  We live in an old duplex that's old and dusty.  Just like me.  Sigh. I can see fine.  My eye feels sore and I can open it fine.  I think maybe I should get something for the irritation.  I don't know.  Even if I can get a late afternoon appointment, that would be fine.  I hope that it looks better tomorrow.  Last night, I looked like a creature from a horror show.  This morning, I look like I got in my former neighbor's weed supply.  Maybe it'll look better tomorrow morning.  This whole thing sucks.  Winter can go buzz off.   We went to the event in Bay View.  I like Francesca Hong. I actually think that she would make a better assembly leader now that the cre...

 I don't get out much and today, I'm going to see Fran Hong, who is running for governor of Wisconsin.  Here I am with a big old red eye.  This winter can go to hell. I could feel a lens roll up yesterday so I thought oh no, time to get it out.  With winter being so dry, anytime I sense a lens shift in my eye, I get it out or then it's a bitch to get out later.  Well I don't know if I got it out but it appears that my eye is looking beat up.  It looks better than last night.  I could have sworn I felt something come out and drop on my sweater when I laid down on my bed to conduct surgery.  Item nowhere to be found.  Damn it. I may have to see if they can squeeze me in to make sure I don't have anything funny in my eye.  Here's to losing $50 or more to this stupid winter.  Damn it.  Unless my eye clears up significantly tomorrow, I probably should make a call. There have been two instances in my life where I thought I had a stuc...

The anxiety monster came to visit me late yesterday afternoon.  I've had two problem files and one is going sideways.  I saw an email and thought ok.  I'm not lingering with my time.  It was the end of the day and I just can't at this point. Then I spent the evening trying not to think about it. I can ask about it on Monday.  There's another situation that's driving me crazy.  I'm kind of caught in between a rock and a hard place. I hate it when my anxiety takes over my brain.  I try to work on other things or think watching TV will help.  Nope.  When I went to bed last night, I could still feel my heart racing.  It sucked.  Yes, I take something and it just wasn't doing the trick. To all the people with their great advice?  Buzz off.  Honestly.  I wish people would just "do" instead of "say" all the time.  Talk is cheap.  Being there for someone actually means something. It was like this when I was in schoo...

I guess I'm going to see a red flag anytime I hear someone say "Women should empower each other."  I agree with that statement.  When I hear it come from a woman's mouth, they usually have a knife behind their back. Welcome to my Ted Talk on toxic people this week.  That seems to be the theme doesn't it?  Today's subject is our former managing attorney. I actually liked her name when I found out what it was.  It was the name of a favorite character from a TV show.  For privacy purposes, let's just call her Bea.  She was definitely a B. She seemed friendly enough. It would take me awhile to figure out she was a crazy Bea.  It wasn't until the first managing attorney we had when I started had left.  We had some squirrelly weirdo from the west coast who liked to engage in gotchas with people.  He was usually home back west every few weeks and we all couldn't have been happier.   Bea had told me that she wanted to be happy and acce...