The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I am chickening out on changing my dentist.  Sigh.  I hate change.  My dentist had knee replacement surgery and I guess he still is taking some appointments, but I don't think he's available Friday mornings. It made me nervous to see his partner because of what happened to my mom 20 years ago.  The other dentist demanded that she pay either in cash or a credit card.  They didn't take checks.  The office person was surprised at that.  I'm not sure what happened but he over charged her, that I know.  I worried if he looked at my x-rays maybe he would find something that would need fixing. I know, if something's wrong, don't you want it fixed?  Of course.  I know how price gauging and doing something that wasn't necessary works.   I spent a total of 2 minutes with this dentist.  I walked in thinking well, this is it.  I had a good run.  Twenty one years.  I'll move on.  When I was walking out the dental te...

Seems like I can never escape a diva. This morning, I realized that the lurker has returned to the area I cover.  Why?  She was assigned to a different area and I get that there are some things that need to be handled when I'm out so fine.  I get it for some things.  What a surprise, she managed to block a day I was hoping to get for one of my scheduling assignments.   I thought when I gave up on the first area that she pushed me out, I would be left alone. I feel like I'm being harassed without the harassment. I live for the day when there is no lurker in my life.  If I say I want to go to this area, will the lurker than all of a sudden want to work there too?   I'm so sick of her shit.  Excuse me for the cursing.  

I was feeling a little salty yesterday thinking about how I had to cater to people because I inconvenienced them.  It didn't start because I had a test yesterday.  It started when the lurker signed off for not feeling well and the Oh, feel betters got to me.  No, no, sorry she wasn't feeling well.  I also know she's played all of us so I kind of refrain at times when it comes to her.  I think it's always the ones that cause so much noise get all the grace and flowers thrown at them. No, no, I don't want flowers thrown at me.  Patience and kindness seem to be missing in my life at crucial times.  It is what it is.  Don't want to be salty about it but sometimes I'm tired of witnessing it with others who really haven't been gracious people.   The spoiled really do get all the attention, don't they? When we were back in the office, Lorna's father in law had passed and she had the week off.  There were services that Friday, the day of on...

Well, my mood went to bleh when it came to the lurker.  I kind of suspect it was the lurker that tended to some medical issues.  I'm sorry for that and I do hope she's ok despite all the stress and anxiety she's caused me and others.  When it comes to this person?  I just feel like I got to step back and I feel bad.  My trust got broken so that's where I'm at. When the lurker wasn't feeling well, others expressed their sympathy and that hit me the wrong way.  Nah, it's not what about me?  It was flashback time.  Grace for thee, but go to hell for me.  Do I think that this group would be more sympathetic if something happened?  Maybe. There was one person who was ugly about the time I had off.  It was Frack who told me about this Sally who grumbled about my time off and when is this going to end?   Well Sally only stayed with us for 8 months.  She wasn't very much of a good worker in my opinion.  She was more abou...

It's always a good day when you get your test results within a couple of hours.  Yeah. It was that time of year and it didn't end with me in tears. I was told that my results would be read sometime during the day.  I explained what happened last year that the longer I waited, the more I thought, oh, things were ok and they weren't.  She seemed to think it would be ok.  Sometimes they just know.  It's always bad when you get someone that's quiet and you think, am I missing something?  Yeah, I have read into a vibe that was way off.  At least one time I was right.  It might have had something to do with seeing the same tech in a grocery store and watching her look panicked when she laid eyes on me. Looks like I'll be moving onto a new dentist after this visit.  I have no idea who I'll be seeing after my cleaning and if I hear one word about more work being done, I'll nod along and tell them I'll make a phone call.  I won't say to someone e...

 It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  I was kind of worried when I woke up yesterday morning and saw the blowing snow.  I was surprised my landlord went out around 11 to shovel but that's when it seemed to clear up.  I hope I never have to shovel again.   Kind of glad to be offline a day and a half.  I don't like the reasons but might be good to step away and the daily frustration.  I was told this new world order a few years back would be that people would help each other.  Some do.  Not for me.  Nice try though. I am worried I might have to have more tests after tomorrow just to be on the safe side.  I don't think I'll have to pay for it with the new insurance changes but I hate that I'm still paying on last year's mess.  I wish I'd get some type of notices that my state or federal refund was coming.  I have about 200 plus dollars left to pay on it.  I paid anything that came in like prescriptions or my ...