The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I know I've said it before. Many times. I don't do well with impatient people.  It makes me nervous.  It doesn't help my confidence.  It makes me crazy.  I have gotten angry with people who get impatient with me. I was trying to figure out how to get this Tens thing put together.  I thought I had to buy an adapter. I was wrong.  I found a video on my phone that showed me how it got charged.  Damn it. I had it in the box.  Ugh.  I thought ok.  I can do this. I have it charging.  I will take the stupid cord I got off of Amazon thinking I needed that.  Patience.  I'll get it done. My mom had commented on my high school boyfriend being so impatient the other day.  He was in trade school or college and I was a senior.  It was our first date and I guess according to my mom, he was impatient about waiting for me. I am not a person that keeps people waiting as far as getting myself together.  I think of the few rela...

 I wish there was a club for people like me that could have a buddy system with a friend.  By that, I mean help with things that overwhelm the other person.  I'm not talking about me.  I know when Corinne lived in the area she had to deal with a lot on her own and I kind of wished that I was more aware and more helpful for her.   My mom got me this thing for pain that my cousin recommended.  It's called Tens. I have no idea how to get it set up.  I think I got the right charger. I was able to turn it on.  We'll see if the charger I used works.  I got a water flosser as well to help me with flossing.  I have no idea how to set this up but I will figure it out.  Eventually. My mom is taking her homestead paperwork down to Jeremy to ask him to sign the form again.  She had me try to explain it to the guys and things kept getting messed up.  I have no idea how to explain Homestead.  She is going to do it herself....

I messed my nails within 20 minutes of getting them done.  I'm leaving them.  When you look at them from a distance, they appear fine.  Up close?  I smudged the polish on my right thumb.  Looks like some of its missing on my left thumb and my left pinky finger.  The girl warned me about it being so touchy.  I tried.  I couldn't linger around the school like an idiot and I did carry my coat in the 38 degree weather. I was cold but not that cold.  I thought I could take it.  I had to stop at the post office and get stamps.  I think that's where I did the most damage getting a card out of my purse.  Then when I got home I thought this sucks.  I started look up products on Amazon on fixing something like this and I almost got something, but I cancelled. It doesn't suck that bad.  It is what it is.  If I went to my old place in Shorewood, they have you sit and put your nails under some heating dryer and have them dry ...

This is how I feel this week.  What do you want from me?  I'm giving my all and it's not enough.  I think my last email helped me sign off for the week.  I'm so grateful the weather will be sort of better than it was two weeks ago.  I need to get out of the house tomorrow. I don't intend to go for spa manicures on a monthly basis.  I just want to do it once.  I want my nails to look nice.  I don't need to go next month, next week.  I would just like to feel better.  This is my only goal this year.  I would like to feel better about me.   I keep seeing the advertisements that all these weight loss shots will now be offered in a pill version.  I'm too afraid of side effects but I got to admit, I feel envious of the after pictures I see.  Every day it's a battle with me and food and I'm so tired. I'm not looking for the easy way out.  I'm looking for a break.  Every night I turn on the Healthy U TV and fin...

 I definitely earned my day off after yesterday.  Sigh.  The diva.  I thought she was a nice kind of dotty lady my age.  Pain in my ass. In a way my annoyance with her was a distraction from the news.  We just happened to flip on Nicole Wallace around 3 on Tuesday and listened to the survivors of ICE's brutality.  My god.  I cried my eyes out hearing the autistic woman talk about being picked up off the ground when all she wanted to do was go to her doctor's appointment.  That was horrible and terrifying.  It scares me it'll happen here. I had told my mom that I wanted to go see our Lieutenant Governor, Sara Rodriguez in Bay View tonight.  I said I'm ok going alone.  I wish it was lighter and weather permitting, hopefully it's good to go this evening.  She offered to go and we'll see how the day fares.  I noticed that they will have all the candidates at some point. I need to hear we'll be protected by whoever is our ...

Yeah, being called reliable isn't the worst thing in the world but damn it carries a heavy load some days.  It's like don't worry, I'll take care of it.  Not today Satan. The Thinker has been out the last few days and it's well deserved.  I have been trying to manage between both areas.  I did it for almost 2 years so three days shouldn't be a big deal.  Everyone is swamped so it's not just me.  Then a problem got pointed out and I realized I was the one that worked on it. It was dealing with a justice court and I wasn't shocked what I filed got rejected.  I thought I'll take a look at it when I come back from my walk and either re-file it or let the attorney and paralegal know.   The diva ran into a similar situation and let me know in our chat what happened to her.  I got the feeling that she was trying to tell me what to do.  She had sent me over why it got rejected and really, it was something out of my hands. I needed more dire...