The Invisible Woman Chronicles

It was actually a nice walk through downtown. I walked more down Wisconsin Avenue and kind of headed towards the east side.  The problem with downtown is that sometimes you do come across people trying to hustle you.  Yeah.  I'm all hustled out. I'm just too tired for that nonsense. When I walked back to where I was parked, I had the right to walk but I didn't.  There was a car that was in the walkway and I figured I'll just wait.  I didn't feel like walking in front of their car.  The guy saw me and smiled.  Then he said something to his wife and smiled.  They looked at me and I thought why are you looking at me?  Do I look like an idiot?  I felt like it.  I wasn't going to say any obscenities.  I thought if you're in a big hurry, just go.  My mom thought it was more of a feeling guilty that the driver knew they were in the wrong. I thought am I dressed funny?  I had originally had a zip up sweatshirt that I tied aro...

So thankful and grateful for a three day weekend. I felt whipped when I signed off.  Granted, I had like maybe 5 hours sleep at the most?  I still went for a long walk but oh my lord did I sleep Friday night.  I took a short nap when I got home from my walk which felt nice.  It was worth staying up for Stephen Colbert's last show. 6.74 million viewers.  Wow. I sat down when I got to Monterrey Market on Friday night.  They have an area where people can eat their food. I think they have some type of deli where you can get a nice meal and a stand for ice cream. I got neither. I just wanted to rest my tired old self and play video games on my phone but I went back on my slow walk home.  It was nice to just chill out for about 15 minutes.   It's been too much since the lurker has left.  No, I don't have any sad feelings about the lurker.  She did help with my area even though she interfered with my stuff.  Don't miss her.  Don'...

I can't believe I stayed up late last night to watch the final episode of The Late Show with Stephen Colbert.  I thought I want to be a good viewer and drive the ratings up. I really couldn't wait until morning.  I really am feeling tired this morning since it's been a long time since I stayed up that late.  Well I blame Letterman for having dark circles under my eyes.  What a great show. I was hoping it would be someone who wasn't political.  I love Paul McCartney for showing up. I loved seeing Jon Baptiste return as well.  Yeah. I cried some tears last night about how this happened.  I ask for so little during this nightmare regime and the one thing that gave me a little solace and brought me joy and humor has ended.  I'll still find my joy but I hate that this particular joy ended.   Stephen Colbert will be back and I'll be there to watch.  He'll have something that the orange goon never will have.  Being loved for his kindn...

I am crawling towards the end of the week and will be so happy when it ends.  It's been a lot slugging through my assignments and today I just don't want to talk to anyone but that's not the case for me.  Damn it. It appears Regina seems to be lost without her little friend the lurker.  I'm not sure how she'll fare with the new changes but I don't care.  She's never bothered to help a single person since she's started unless you were the lurker.   It was nice to be off on Tuesday afternoon to get a hair cut but I tell you, I hate parking meters. I really wish the school would be open on a Saturday.  I didn't have enough time to park where I have and just walk through downtown. I thought I'd be ok with the meter but I couldn't seem to get my debit card to slide and the meter to take it. I wound up going to a lot and parking where it was easier.  More expensive.  I'll plan better next time.  Luckily I made it on time with me messing around...

 I know I may be putting myself at risk by doing this blog.  I kind of tried to keep it more neutral at first and put a sunnier side on it.  The truth is my feelings are messy, my life is messy and well people I've know haven't been that great to me at times.  I think if someone were to call me out about it, I'd have to ask, do you really admit that you're that awful person who left me at the airport because you're a drunk?  Nah.  Go away.  I try to keep names out. I don't know how the views work or if anyone reads it. I'm ok if people read it. I'd like to hope that if someone came across it some night that they'd say Oh, I can relate to her.  I get it.  I totally get it.  I sometimes do wish there was someone out there.  A guy.  Maybe reading this and thinking I get what she's saying and I like her.  She has depth.  She has character.  I know you got to be careful for wishing for a secret admirer, but in my fert...

I always felt like I was so demanding if I asked for something.  I always felt like I was too much if maybe I asked why didn't you call?  Or are things ok?  I just stopped asking if a period of time passed. I would think.  Well they're done with me.   During my 2nd year at college, my boyfriend was going to a bar with some friends one evening. I really hadn't seen much of him and I really wasn't crazy about the bar that he was going to.  I joked about how trashy it was and I didn't really sense anything was wrong until I got picked up the next day and taken to work. He was waiting for me at the bus stop.  My parents were having financial issues.  Well.  I'll say it.  They filed bankruptcy that summer and we were down to one car because my dad had been sold a lemon that could have killed us.  A cop of all people sold us the car.  Anyway, college boyfriend was helping me out a little bit with getting to work at Sears. ...