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Goodbye Lurker and other things

Well it's only me who reads this, but I'm back with my observations about life as an invisible person after a week off.  I feel like it's been a year, but what a week. I ended my month by finding out that there has been team shifting.  I kind of took it as a good thing.  I was sort of taken aback when they mentioned that a couple of managers will be basically let go.  More on that later.  There will be a new set of eyes looking at what we do and how we interact with each other.  There will also be three additional people who have more years of experience than I do and I am grateful for that.   I knew how things would go.  The lurker and Regina would try to dominate the others and make themselves out to be perfect.  Well that got shot to hell when I saw an email that improved my life greatly.  The lurker was gone and from the tone of it, it wasn't something she decided. I know there's still people who make me crazy like Regina and th...
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Feels like the week should be ending

 Here we are at Thursday.  Oh well.  I'll make the best out of it. Yesterday, I felt wracked with anxiety over something I was working on and kept checking to see if it got accepted. It was still pending. I will lose my ever loving mind if I get another rejection.  This is a new area for me and I'm not really sure if I'm doing well at it.  The person that put this work out?  I don't know if she'll be pissed off if it gets rejected.  I've had a couple of incidents that got questioned and maybe she wasn't mad but in this new world, I just assume everyone is annoyed with me.  That's how anxiety works in this brain. I was annoyed too about the diva complaining about her training.  I spent so much time and have still offered my time.  She wants everything written down for her step by step and wants her hand held.  Just spoiled. Frack had reached out to me and asked if I would be able to help their group out while Frick was out.  Her...
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Impressions, DMV and Divas

 Well the DMV turned out to be easy.  My mom got to keep her old license.  Well it won't expire until next week but I thought after we left, maybe it's a good thing to have ID like that.  The clerk at the DMV asked about Real IDs and she said she wouldn't be traveling.  We talked about maybe we need one if there's voting issues come November.  It was good information.  Things went better. I didn't get my dental impressions for my upper teeth done correctly.  Damn.  They will send me two more packets of puddy to use and after that, they will issue me a refund. I was so disappointed I didn't get it right on the second try. I looked at other companies to see what they would charge and if their ratings were good.  There are other choices. I just really want this to work the next time I get a packet in the mail.  I was hoping I would have been able to drop it off in the mail yesterday but that wasn't the case. I thought my head was going...
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Bad Sleep Night

 I was up at 3 and maybe fell asleep for like 30 minutes before I got up at 5:20.  What a bad night. Not sure what was making me anxious.  Maybe the month of April and a bit of sciatica.  I got to find something that helps with that.  Stupid damp weather. I got to take my mom to the DMV.  Even though it's not for me, it still makes me anxious because I got to figure out what we're doing.  I got to admit.  I'm having a harder time realizing she's giving up her license.  She hasn't driven in over 15 years and she's good with it.  She didn't learn until her early 30s because you could take the bus every where.  She never really liked it and she got anxious about it at times with traffic.  I totally get it.   I got a message back from the dental people that my lower impression looked good. I need to re-take the upper impression.  Damn it.  I got 1 right so that was good and hopefully after I submitted the new pi...
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Monday Calm

I'm hoping my mom is doing better and gets up soon.  I know her doctor's office will call and might have some suggestions.  I think my suggestion on food choices might have been working out better.  I'm not sure.  No diss to her doctor. I liked him when he did the call with her.  I had a hard time understanding him but I think he's a decent doctor.  I think for her situation, we needed to change direction a little bit.   I felt depressed last night.  I was trying to look for activities for me to go do something and make friends.  It made me feel pathetic at my age.  I went through so many times where I thought I had genuine friends and well, it didn't work out.  No, the Cassie thing doesn't haunt me.  It makes me feel stupid.  I hate revisiting stuff like that.  I didn't think of her last night.  There was someone else that I thought was a true friend and I stuck up for this friend when we worked together....
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Aging, Quieter Sunday

Kind of worried this morning when I saw my mom's test results.  They were ok but then I wondered what was happening that she was having issues?  She kind of got depressed when I told her.  We thought if she had something it would explain things.  She seems to be better and I looked up some type of ideas for food that might help.  Knock on wood.  It's been a better day for her.  I'll take that.  She worried about getting like someone we knew that she was getting that way.  Well that person let themselves wither and was kind of ignored.  Lucky for her, she's got me to annoy the daylights out of her.  She did shake her fist at me today to get out of my room so she could vacuum.  Good signs.  I need them badly. Yeah. I watched the news last night and today.  Sigh.  Our world is a lot.  I think if some things were different, my mom wouldn't have been standing in line at a food pantry.  We would have slept be...
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Making an Impression

 I got my dental kit today to make my impressions for my mouth guard.  I think I pulled out the wrong tray for one of them.  I'll find out and I can do it over with the spare putty.  I was freaked out about the time but once I did it, I thought maybe this will work. It's a little scary for me to make any purchase lately that's kind of significant. I set it up through Klarna.  I watched the instructional videos and a You Tube video to help me understand it better.  I did it on my own whether they think I have to take an impression over or not. I did it.  I can do it again if I have to do it. I hate that I'm a teeth grinder.  I was mocked after a slumber party after I kept the other girls up.  Never got an invite and never wanted to get invited.  No thanks.  I always worried I was going to wind up being pranked because I seemed to be a good target for kids.   I considered maybe going back to the dentist. I have that emergenc...
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