The Invisible Woman Chronicles

Last night, I went to bed early.  I didn't go to sleep.  I wanted to just check out of life for the evening.  I was tired.  I embraced the depression. It just built up over the day.  I think it started when I got gas. I thought maybe I could find a station on Gas Buddy but the cheapest was 3.89.  I just couldn't bring myself to fill it up completely. I thought where do I go?  Nowhere. We were at the store waiting for someone to wait on us at the deli when I let my mom know that I was behind her and she snapped at me.  I apologized.  I knew she didn't sleep much. I said I just wanted her to know I was on her side because of her vision issues.  I got flustered when I used the do it yourself check out. I felt like I couldn't get the bags open and the cashier helped me.  My mom asked why I was red in the face and I said I don't know.  I wear my emotions on my sleeve I guess. I was missing Precious last night. I thought how sad am I...

There's nothing wrong with sharing your accomplishments.  It's how you share it that can make a person sound like an ass. Case in point - the diva's friend.  We'll call her The Big Bragger.  When she helped us when the lurker was out, the diva shared that they were working on a project together and she's so fascinating.  That makes me raise an eyebrow right there.  I kind of figured the Bragger would help the diva more than me and I wasn't wrong.  Helped everyone else except for me.  The diva shared how the bragger was a daredevil who jumped out of airplanes.  In our meetings, the bragger shared that she knew a famous person's family who was on SNL.  That's not a good brag considering the person in the question was a big drug addict who died of an overdose.  I digress. The bragger was off a couple of days this week and then she announces she's quitting.  She has her dream job with the state and it's her family legacy.  We all s...

I don't know what to title this.  It seems like I should have a day of silence myself.  I know where I was on 9/11.  Now that we can use air play to watch MS Now, I heard the name of the company I worked for back then.  We still have downtown office but we had an office in the twin towers.  It was surreal and a nightmare watching a building where our New York colleagues worked collapse on TV.   There's divas and friends of divas I feel like talking about today but it doesn't seem right.   I see who's leading our country and I just feel sad about the lying, especially being pulled from the rubble lie.  And people believe it. I hope our country turns a page soon because this is just hard.  

I was kind of upset about the neighbor ignoring me next door. He doesn't live next door.  He lives with his girlfriend a block over but he keeps the house just so he can get away.  Well isn't he a catch?  I was upset because I saw him like kitty corner from the street I was crossing.  He saw me and turned around.  He pretended he didn't see me.  I thought what's wrong with him?  What did I do? I've said hello to him in passing and he has just ignored me. A couple of days ago, I came out to the alley to start my walk and I saw him pushing a bike.  I thought I don't want to deal with this so I turned around and walked around to the front of the house.  Who do I see?  Grumpy neighbor pushing the bike.  I did what he did to me weeks ago and I turned my back, looking for my airpods. I thought what a jerk.  Now I know he's giving me the cold shoulder. I suspect our neighbor across the alley said something to him about us.  I'm n...

Now that summer is coming to an end, it's time to think about making appointments, or when to make them.  One is easy and what makes it easy is that this doctor is probably booked about 3 or 4 months out and I'm ok with that.  Nice doctor.  I just seem to say stupid stuff to him. Looks like I might have to find a dentist in the near future. I was hoping my old dentist would be off of medical leave by now but he's not.  I called to change my appointment for my October and I asked about him.  They said he's probably retiring so I just asked if my appointment could get changed for early October with his partner who I have been seeing for the last year. I know both of them are about in their late 70s and I know his partner is taking his patients as well so it's a lot.  How long is he going to want to keep up with that?  I figured I'll stay for now and be prepared for the find a new dentist conversation that will be coming my way.   It's depressin...

I didn't smile today at the post office.  Kind of felt annoyed by the young woman behind me bitching and talking to herself about how slow things were. I didn't care that I had to wait for awhile. I was annoyed that she wouldn't shut up. I had told my mom today that if I had a chance to retire, I'd do it in a heartbeat.  I like working.  I don't mind what I do.  I'm tired of the games that people have played over the years.  I have just had enough lately. The diva and her new best friend, the bragger are working on a project together and it was presented to all of us and it was discussed that they would be reaching out to others for their input.  I knew what that meant.  My invite would get lost in the mail. I am maybe speaking too soon on the bragger.  As soon as the bragger entered our lives, I was a little suspect because of her connection to the diva and their project.  The diva was impressed with the bragger.  She is a dare devil an...