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End of the Week

I was up at 4 this morning and couldn't go back to sleep until the alarm went off at 5. I did doze for a half hour so technically I lost a half hour of sleep.  I'm ok with that. I really wasn't upset about anything.  Maybe I was anxious for the day.  I don't know. I thought if I have a little bit of problem with sleep, I'll sleep better tonight. I am anxious about the primary here in a few weeks. I worry if people don't get their way with their choice, they will sit out the election.  I'm sick of the childishness that goes on with the elections.  That hurts all of us.  I'm fine with Francesca Hong but if she doesn't win the primary, I am worried people will have a tantrum and stay home.  We can't afford Tom Tiffany.   I had stepped away yesterday and saw an exchange between Regina and the diva about something I knew about.  Regina was asking questions and the diva was taking lead.  She was going to show Regina because I showed her....

How Expectations Change

Would I like to find the great love of my life?  Yeah.  Of course I would.  Do I think it will happen?  I don't know. I woke up this morning and daydreamed about being with someone and having a hooky day.  Kind of cooler out this morning.  Great day to stay in bed for awhile. Yeah. I still have fire in my heart for that.  I'm not dead inside for crying out loud. My reality?  I would like to get a text from a friend about their morning.  I know I spout I want someone to talk to about my problems!  WAAAHHH!  No.  I really would prefer to listen than to talk about things that frustrate me.  I don't think people got when I went through cancer treatment that I'd rather hear about some of the things in their life than my own at times.  I don't want to hear stupid shallow stuff like My kid doesn't chicken parm tonight!  Looking at you Lois when I mention that.   I would like to hear from someone and find out h...

Another 3 Day Week

I'm not sure why I have anxiety so bad this morning.  I have off on Friday as well.  I had off yesterday so not sure what fun will be awaiting me.   I can't believe the monster was finally held accountable for his crimes.  There's a lot more that he did but this is a good start.  I really suspect that the witness list that got filed was a wake up call that more people were going to come forward about what he did.  What a horrible person.  I hope his girlfriend leaves him.  I do feel sorry for his family because it sounded like they're all respectable and decent people.   My mom wants to make a go of it living here by getting the Walmart delivery this winter.  I never even thought of it.  After her stint in the hospital, it probably isn't a good idea for her to be out in any cold weather.  I don't want to risk it.  I hate dragging water from the car up those horrible stairs.  I can deal with it if she can dea...

Better Day

My mom is soaking up the joy of the monster going to jail.  She is having a good time making fun of his future ankle bracelet.   She doesn't have to go back to the eye doctor for a year.  The eye doctor recommended the cataract surgery for her again.  She is hesitant but I said I can take leave if she wants to go through with it.  I get it.  I would like it if I had reconstruction surgery to feel sort of normal but I'm so terrified of the pain and she can't take care of me.  She could but she sleeps a lot.  I'm joking.  I can't put it on her.  I had enough of people making me feel like a burden if I need to ask anyone for anything. I got my birthday package mailed out for Charlotte today so I felt accomplished.  We are considering a membership with Walmart for our groceries in the winter time.  I think it would be a good deal. It would make life easier. I guess the real joy came with the monster's verdict.  I think it...

There is Some Justice

Today, the monster got what he deserved.  Jail.  Not as much as we would like but he finally is being held accountable.    Court orders the following as to Count 1: IMPOSED AND STAYED: 3.5 YEARS OF IMPRISONMENT (Credit: 0 Days) 1.5 YEARS OF INITIAL CONFINEMENT 2 YEARS OF EXTENDED SUPERVISION Defendant is not eligible for Challenge Incarceration Program. Defendant is not eligible for Substance Abuse Program. TERM ON PROBATION: 3 YEARS; CONDITIONS OF PROBATION/EXTENDED SUPERVISION: *Pay all restitution, costs, and surcharges as ordered by the Court *DNA sample to be provided if not yet previously done *Follow through with any assessments, evaluations, treatment and/or counseling recommended by Agent CONDITION TIME: 6 MONTHS, in the Waukesha County Jail - HUBER (all standard release conditions) Defendant to report to the Huber Facility by 5:00 pm. on7/24/2026: Is it fair that I'm putting this out to the universe? I didn't include everyt...

I want to have a non social media relationship or friendship. Or something off the grid

I'll say it again.  Social media sucks. I would like a friendship that doesn't involve social media.  No social media allowed in this friendship.  We go to movies.  We text.  We may hang out.  We may take pictures of the fun we have but we don't put it on the internet.  No. No. F No.  NO!   We're above that.  We poke fun at social media morons. What is prompting me to say this?  It's nothing out of the ordinary. I conducted a little social media experiment this morning and shared my experience about the tire.  I shared that I was happy with the guy at Walmart Automotive Center being helpful and how overwhelming it is when you're a solo ager. I got likes and a love.  I was curious to hear if there were responses.  Nope!  If it were me, I would say hey, if you need help like that, you can DM me.  Maybe I can find a place that has good prices. Even Corinne liked it.  I think she loved it. Not mad....

Reason #257 for why I have anxiety issues

I have to get my mom up and going in like a few minutes. I tried waking her up around 7.  She has an eye doctor appointment and it'll take me a good half hour or more to get there.  She said that she didn't sleep very well so I thought maybe it'll take her about 20 minutes to get up and around.  Nope.  Went back to sleep. She used to work third shift doing factory work so her sleep rhythms are off on top of it.  She said once she worked third shift her sleep never became right.  I heard the same from Harold when he worked third shift.  He's a lazy ass, but I get it.  Sleep is off when you spend some time working while others are sleeping. She wasn't feeling so hot last night.  She thought she was getting a sore throat.  I thought oh no.  I don't know if I can take her getting something like covid a respiratory infection. I'm not mad at her.  I'm so frustrated that a lot of things are left on me to figure out. I'm leaving my pre...