The Invisible Woman Chronicles

 I called Aurora Healthcare yesterday morning to at least get the information my mom might need to apply for financial assistance. I spoke to a nice woman and I explained our situation as well.  She said "You're a team."  I said yeah.  We are.  I felt hopeful. We got the information that was needed and I called later in the day.  She had gotten approved for assistance and I told the second woman I should probably have you talk to her so she knows what she's been approved for. The bill or bills are being completely written off. Yeah.  You heard it.  She owes zero.  I cried a little bit because well, that's what I do best.  Things like this don't happen.  We wind up having to sell something to pay for something.   It was just a really good day yesterday.  Still can't believe it.  

 I'm so sick of spoiled women.  I feel run over.   I was having a bad day yesterday and I actually started crying in Monterey Market.  I felt bad because my mom is overwhelmed by the hospital bill.  We don't know if it's a good idea if she should apply for Medicaid and that maybe we should go to the hospital for help.  She said it just seems like we're never meant to have any money.   I got asked yesterday for help with an assignment that really isn't supposed to be starting for a couple of weeks.  I didn't mind because there is something I would really like to avoid. What do you know?  Frack reaches out to me.  It's a nice message asking for help and it's ok if they don't get it.  Ok.  You're not getting it.  They shouldn't be reaching out to me.  They should be reaching out to managers. I was just so taken advantage of when I was in the office.  It was always about everyone else being happy but it's o...

I've been actually taking a break on my evening walks at Monterrey Market.  I have set my goal to walk there every night if I can, weather permitting and walk back.  It's about .9 mile and if I stop at Dollar Tree or the grocery store, it adds more to my walk.  It's nice to do and I feel good doing it.  On Friday night, I was so tired from staying up late that I sat down in their food area and played a video game for about 15 minutes.  I've been making it a habit the last couple of nights.   They have some ice cream stand and a place where you can get tacos and other food.  Other people are sitting there eating.  The ice cream is kind of expensive and well, I should pass on more sweets or I know I should but I noticed the 99 cent tacos on Mondays.  Or is it Tuesdays?  I don't know. I might try it some time.  I'm happy to see people there because honestly, the prices are expensive.  I have found some fruit at a reasonable p...

I wanted to clarify my last post.  Never went to prom or any dances in school and I'm actually ok with that.  When you hear about what my classmates would do, you think, I'm good.  Maybe one of these days I'll go buy myself some mascara and give all the customers a thrill at CVS on Downer while my eyes turn into racoons from the heat.  I do miss my mascara and yeah, it would be nice if I got asked to do something that involved dressing up and wasn't for work. I do keep some work clothes that fit me because there might be a reason I got to do something or something changes.  I'll be happy to burn them when retirement shows up.  I'll admit I didn't have to dress up like I did at other jobs.  When I found out I could wear sandals, I thought I won the lottery.  People would get written up for showing their feet at my previous job.  Gasp! I don't look forward to my day because it involves me talking to people and well, I don't have much to say at ...

Today, I threw out the make up stash that I had for eBay when I was trying to flip items.  Yeah. I forgot make up had a shelf life even when it's sealed.  I was tossing stuff here and there and finally I dumped it.  I could tell some of the lipsticks were melting when I opened them.  Sigh.  Yeah.  That didn't end well. I made some money but spent more.  It was just a horrible idea.  I thought what do I know about make up these days?  I don't go to an office.  I do have some glimmer balm from Bobbie Brown that I go to use for days I had meetings to look a little livelier and maybe if I had an appointment.  Other that that, I just make sure I moisturize and use spf.   I do miss wearing make up but like the make up melting in my closet, a lot of it doesn't have a shelf life.  The thing I love has the shortest - mascara.  I miss wearing mascara.  No, I won't do fake eye lashes.  They look insane on young pe...

 Oh, I dread signing in.  Totally. I sent out a message asking for help before I signed off.  We'll see who listens.  Nobody. I thought at least I threw it out there. I did it after the diva signed off for her 2 weeks.  I didn't want her to say I'll stay online and sacrifice my errands time for Connie.  She knows how to make me feel bad.  I appreciate her saying I got you when she does offer help but I also want to ask, Do you really?  She disappoints me so much. I hope she does have a decent time.  She has been better with me since the lurker left but I really hate that she chose the bully to feel more important.  She still has her love fest with Regina but that's a little easier to take than it used to be. I thought it would be nice to have someone I could talk to during the day once in awhile when things got tough.  The diva isn't that much older than me even though she told me she was younger.  I don't know why I have expec...