A Really Cold Sunday

I couldn't sleep for awhile when I got up around 3:00 am.  Not sure why.  Felt restless.  I finally went to slumberland around 4 and got myself up at 6:30.  I don't think I will be going for a leisure walk today.  I do have to get a few things from the store this morning but I'll be in for the day.

I will definitely be staying in tomorrow. I cancelled my appointment with the beauty school for tomorrow.  It would not shock me if that appointment would be cancelled because of the wind chill factor.  I put myself on the wait list for a possible Friday appointment when I do have off again for the day.  If not, I have a day off in early February that I set an appointment.  I need a hair cut badly but not enough to freeze.  It's probably best to stay inside.  

I have this weird feeling I'll be getting news alerts about something happening tomorrow and I don't think it'll be a positive thing.  You want to know and you don't want to know.  Still sticking to the watching real estate shows for the day or anything else but you know what.  

I watched A Real Pain last night on Hulu with Kiernan Culkin.  It was good. Sad and good.  It was a reminder of history.  Two cousins travel to Poland to see their grandmother's home.  She was a Holocaust survivor so they did a tour that took them some unpleasant parts of history.  

I don't understand why there's this need to erase something like this out of history classes.  Or slavery.  I learned about it in school.  I don't remember when but it didn't make feel bad about myself.  It made me feel horrible for others and how they were treated.  It shocked me.  It shocked me that John Lewis couldn't take library books out because he was a person of color.  If he was in my school and this happened, he could use my library card.  I just don't want to see people hurt or mistreated.  That's what I took from that.  History isn't about our feelings.  It's about facts and what happened and how this should never happen again.  I am aware that there's news about possible raids in Chicago this week to round up people.  I am glad that there are groups who are working with people who are not here illegally and helping them protect their rights.

This is a period in time when we have to hope for the helpers to get us through, like the ACLU.  The people who will fight the good fight and protect people from being harmed.  We have our governors and mayors who don't want to see people harmed and who will protect them.  It's the good humans who will get us through this.


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