The Invisible Woman Chronicles

This is where I wish I could talk to someone at the moment.  Well Corinne has her hands full with two dogs, Mr. Corinne and her sister.  It was just that thing that I found on Facebook. Can't talk to my mom because it would make her mad.  I know it didn't make me happy.  Now that I think about it, I probably couldn't talk because I wouldn't want her to hear.  I hate social media. Makes me feel like I'm a Gladys Kravitz and I don't like that.  I hate that I came across this and it bothers me, but some things I shouldn't say.  It was hurtful. I found out that the FBI director has to go through Senate confirmation hearings.  That's such a wild choice to me.  I know what I'll be watching tomorrow?  Bravo shows!  I had CNN Max for a few minutes this morning but we watched Murphy Brown on Prime Video.  It was the reboot version they had in 2019.  Kind of gross that the person in charge back then will be making a comeback.  ...

 Social media can do a lot to a person.  You can accidentally come across something and all of a sudden, you feel crushed when you see something.  You're not looking, you're just scrolling and sometimes a scroll can set you in a mood. I don't want to divulge because I would spill my guts all over the place.   Social media sucks.  Have I said that lately? I would dig on Harold and his new love from time to time and basically torment myself that idiot found someone and here I am going for more medical treatments.  No, no, no. I stopped that.  Once in awhile I peek and tell myself, yep.  Still an idiot.  Good to know.   I'm sure I've been looked up and people have wondered, how come there's so many cat pictures?  Because she's awesome.  Duh.   So I saw who the new FBI director pick is.  That doesn't make me feel good. My mom wishes we could move by Corinne and her husband.  Yeah.  Me too.  I...

I just looked up Chrissi and found her on Linkedin.  She works in mental health.  Ironic, isn't it?  I didn't walk the hill today.  The wind and 22 degrees were a eh, not today kind of feeling.  It was a little too cold, but I did drive around and stop at stores, doing my second job basically.  I picked American Psychosis for my Audible listen in order to understand what happened. I don't think I'm going to understand that.  I have a feeling my mind may wander on this one.  Sometimes Audible books help when someone reading the book catches your attention.  This is a little monotone. My mom had wanted me to pick up her orders at Kohls for her. One was a pick it up yourself and the other was pick up somewhere.  Where was the question?  Why couldn't I just grab the other order was the question I wondered but I stood in line at the service desk. There were two people helping this very long line. I played video games on my phone while I ...

 I used to go to the movies alone and I saw "While You Were Sleeping" when it opened. When I got home, I got a phone call and it was well after 9.  It was some strange guy named Tom and he said that he has been watching me while I worked in the shoe department and he was going to wait for me at McDonald's because he knew I was working the next day.  I was scared.  I hung up on him and told my dad what happened.  He told me to talk to security at the store the next day and I did.   One of the assistant managers put up a sign about anyone asking for me.  Security talked to me for awhile and I told them what happened.  They even scoped out McDonald's.  McDonald's was on the upper level and I really didn't go there as it was for my lunch.  I'd go to the food court on the lower level for my lunch.  I think I just got food to go and ate in the stock room.   My manager played a practical joke on me. It actually wasn't a joke...

I want to stay in bed and find shows to binge.  Looks cold outside.  I know.  It's late November.  I actually do better than this weather than hot.  That's for damn sure.  I actually don't mind walking in this weather.  It's just a matter of me feeling motivated and I'm not this morning.  Maybe it's the furry little terrorist who keeps getting in my face.   Last night, I pulled out this blanket that I got that's super soft to watch TV.  I drape it over so someone can jump up on the love seat and sit beside me.  She was a happy girl when she saw the blanket.  When I wanted to take a bath and get ready for bed last night, she was curled up so cute that I hated to get up.  She always gets up when I do like my little shadow.  My mom always says she knows when I'm coming and I've had her running to the door to greet me like a little puppy.  I'm like really?  Someone likes me that much?   When we st...

About 25 years ago, I let my mom give me a haircut with her stupid Flowbee.  I was in between finding a regular person to cut my hair and she kept bugging me about the damn Flowbee she got one night watching TV.  I think my dad might have been alive.  Finally I gave in and let her give me one. It was fine but it's like someone hitting you in the head with a vacuum.  Not fun.   I was fine with the cut.  It did the job. I wasn't expecting the compliments I got.  Kind of funny.  She had offered at one point and I said it's fine. I don't pay what I used to pay.  The person I went to is probably charging $70 for a hair cut by now and 20% tip.  I pay between $15 to $25 depending on the skill level.  Not a big deal.  I'm at the point where I'm like ok, let's do it.   Might be kind of funny if I get compliments.  Might need to shop for a hat.  We shall see.   I did go for a walk by Lake Michigan after...

 I was going to check and make sure I had the right time when I checked my text message reminding me of my appointment and I saw a cancellation text. What?  I realized I didn't notice I had a voicemail. The person who called sounded tearful. The student called in sick and there were no other appointments. Second time it happened but last time someone was able to step in. It's fine. I wish the school had weekend appointments. That's the downside. People do get sick and sometimes the students are like Frick. Call in because they're flaky and rude. Eh so be it. Poor girl didn't need to be upset.  I might actually take my mom up on her Flowbee offer ar this point . . . 

I didn't think we were getting snow this morning. I noticed we were getting little flakes when I took the recycling out yesterday.  It doesn't look bad or anything.  Corinne had sent me a picture of a house that was being sold across the street from them.  She wished she could afford it so we could live there and she promised that they would be good landlords.  I told her that all of the reviews I've seen on places that they would be a step up a million times over.  That was a nice thought.  I said my mom would try to kidnap her two dogs and give them their separate bedrooms.  There's like 5 bedrooms. Even Precious could have her own bedroom.  It's like can you buy a place in St. Francis or Cudahy maybe?  We're not fancy folks, we don't mind.  Oh, nice thought.  That was kind of her to say. I appreciate her.  She did a lot for our spirits when her and her husband came last month. We really enjoyed them. We watched Seth Meyers c...

My mom has spent the day calling me a radical left lunatic after reading what someone orange put out on their teenage internet account.  She's had a fun day calling me that or referring to us as left lunatics and then asking how can she be when she's right handed?  Yeah.  I wonder the same myself.   I went for a walk to the grocery store to get my Sparkling Ice fix.  I got my mocktail drinks, but it's the caffeine cans that I've cut back on significantly. I thought it's a holiday.  I'm allowed.  Actually I ran out and I'm ok with it until I get paid next week. I got plenty.  I drink my water, but I got to have a sweet drink to chase the blues away as well. I did watch Joy Reid's show from yesterday.  My day wasn't spent with the news but there was a video clip that caught my attention.  It's hard to explain.  It's the last few minutes but it's one of the reasons I have kept my thoughts to myself or hide them when it comes to po...

Happy Thanksgiving to the good humans. I hope it's a good day for everyone. I'm not sure what I want to do today. I'm kind of glad my official thanksgiving won't be until Sunday.  I got up before 7 which is late. I like winter mornings when you know it's cold and you're warm under the blankets. It wasn't that I didn't want to get out of bed. I was just comfortable and happy to be warm.   I messaged Corinne this morning about my own bad feelings that hit me yesterday with the election.  I know she was in a state of shock initially and it didn't hit until maybe 24 hours after the election results.  I know I panic and sometimes it's a false panic.  When you realize the panic is real?  That's brutal.  I'm ok today.  I'm sure I'm going to have more moments like this when I get news alerts after January 20th.  I don't think I can even take any farewell speeches from Joe as he winds down his presidency.  This has been unfair.   I...

I turned on The Big Bang Theory this morning and kept it on as my background noise.  I think I hit Season 7. I like Mayim Bialik's character with Sheldon.  I need a little comfort while I worked. I didn't need to hear about the orange man. The Ted Danson show just hit me like a ton of bricks.  All of my worries and fears came piling in, thinking about will happen in a couple of months.  I'm sick about Jack Smith actually being prosecuted for doing the right thing.  I'm just so heartbroken about so many things about the election.  The voters who thought it was ok to elect someone like that.  So morally bad and so horrible.  My cousin is upset because she's on Medicaid and she told my mom that she feels like people who voted for him jeopardized her losing benefits.  I've been trying to just go about life and do the best to shield us from the horrible that could happen and it's hard.  I am so tired of seeing that face on a TV screen. On a p...

I finished watching the new Ted Danson on Netflix.  It made me sad.  It made me cry.  It was a sweet show.  It hit close to home for me in some ways. I have a parent who's aging and I'm fortunate that she does well for her age.  She could probably kick the monster's ass downstairs and she has told him a few times.  I get a little depressed about her vision and feel horrible that she spends her days reading on my Kindle because reading is the one thing that makes her truly happy.  She kind of wondered if maybe she could get a bigger TV to help her see in the living room because she worried about Trump's tariffs.  Have I mentioned my dislike of the man?  Anyway, I got her some of her eye vitamin pills from Amazon and I will get another before Christmas. She tells me never to get anything and I never listen.  These are the things that she shouldn't have to buy and if I can keep her in eye vitamin pills to help her do the one thing she loves...

I had CNN Max on during my workday.  It didn't bother me.  They don't have the same line up of journalists that CNN does with maybe the exception of Wolf Blitzer who wasn't on today.  It "gasped" reported the news.  It reminded me of elevator music.  You know it's there and it doesn't really bother you.  I do like Christianne Amanpour.  She has a show.  I will not do this everyday.  I was curious to see who was in the lineup since I hadn't had this for six months.  They don't even have Anderson Cooper on.  I like Anderson but I got tired of David Urban and Scott Jennings.  They never shut up.  Anderson doesn't push back like Jim Acosta does.  There was a special that came on talking to Bernie Bros and Maga men and I thought we had our fill, CNN Max.  I've had enough of angry white men that feel oppressed.  I worked with someone like that.  He thought that didn't get promoted because he was white.  ...

I really slept in this morning.  I got up around 6:30.  I don't remember my alarm going off at 5:00 am. I remember someone meowing in my face at 2:00 am.  And then at 4:30 am.  I don't remember Alexa.  Only Precious.  I would feel super off this morning if I had to get in a car and drive to an office. I got Max or HBO Max for the next 6 months at 2.99. I think if I try to quit it after the six months, they'll offer me $4.99 for another 3 months. I'd like to keep it for awhile.  They do have CNN Max and I watched a little bit of it.  It's not the same anchors and I definitely don't intend to watch it like I used to but I did turn it for a few minutes this morning.  I may not feel like that after January 20.  If I do, I might be watching with one eye closed.   I've been trying to clean up my clutter before I get inspected.  I told my mom about hiding some things like some of my hair care products and she laughed at me. ...

 It was a day that threw me a bit.  I was a little happy that I found out that I had $70 coming to me.  Many months ago, in an effort to improve my sad credit rating, I signed up for this program with Credit Karma to take $10 out each pay period to help me build my credit. I don't know how and no, it never worked.  I requested the money to get transferred to my account when I got a notification about it. I also made a small eBay sale. I'm not rolling in it but nice to have a few extra pennies to tide me over. The increase is not bad at all.  I got a bad feeling that this could have been higher but my mom had broken down in tears when she talked to our landlord. She had to call him about a notification we got from the city.  We have lead pipes that are being replaced.  She told him about the stolen check and broke down.  She talked about being scared that she was going to be held responsible and that she would have to file bankruptcy.  She was...

It wasn't bad.  It's going up $25 the first of the year.   He wants us to sign a lease.  January to January?  Yeah, that's great.  My mom will not be thrilled with that when she wakes up. I had a weird feeling when we didn't see him that he didn't want to face us.  I think the check being stolen kept us from going up higher, I guess. He's a coward for sending the letter and yet, it's probably better. My mom cried to him that she went to a food pantry for the first time. It wasn't Joe Biden that got our rent raised.  It was greed. Greedy jerks. I so wish there was a place for us.  Moving costs money and we're just not there in that department. Thanks for ruining the day landlord.  It could have been worse but thanks so much for on a Happy Monday.  

Ok, right day.  Hopefully a good day.  I think some of my problem tasks have been resolved.  I think. I hope . Just hope it's a really productive and short week.   I get a hair cut the day after Thanksgiving.  I have been feeling very grey this weekend.  Not just because my hair is sprouting greys and making me feel like a super villain, but kind of feel like this hair cut might lift my blah feeling mood about myself.  There is something to be sad when you do something for yourself that's as simple as a hair cut.  I will try to touch up my roots over the weekend and see if it turns out to be an exercise in disaster.  It's ok.  At some point, I'll get my hair colored again in the new year.  It's not high on my list of things that I need to get done. I really wish that health and wellness credit we were getting in the new year was money.  I'm not sure what it will cover.  I hope Weight Watchers would be acceptable. I th...

It's a Bravo TV kind of Sunday. I finished Below Deck Mediterranean last night so time to move to Below Deck Sailing Yacht.  I can't keep up with the excitement.  Plus, I watched a Jim Gaffigan comedy special.  It's not easy being me. When I left this morning to go for my walk, I noticed that all the leaves in the yard got blown into the alley.  Yeah. The monster did yard work yesterday.  Leave it to him to do it his way.  Not a big deal but just a reminder what a lazy bum he is.  This is why I need to go for a drive on the weekends to get away from this person. I think it was a pit bull that I saw today.  His owner had pulled him off to the side and I thought it was comical that he had a little plaid hoodie on to keep him warm.  Dogs wearing clothes is hilarious.  Putting a doll dress on a cat will get your ass kicked. I know from experience.  Not Precious.  Tinker was madder than hell when I put a doll dress on her and took a...

For some reason, there was a lot of obsession about me not eating onions when I worked in the office.  It was like I make up for it in eating any pastry.  I guess I was the big weirdo for saying I couldn't eat them. I actually put it down as an allergy on my medical and I feel like an idiot for doing that.  I got a few chuckles and I get it.  Nobody is going to feed me onions when I get an endoscopy.  I don't blame the medical people for thinking I'm a dork.   The people are work were just jerks.  I worked with one woman who started in on me about it.  We had one of our stupid lunches where we all had to pretend to like each other and sit in the same room.  She thought it was hysterical that I couldn't eat them and started in on me while we were getting our food.  I was just baffled why all of a sudden she was fixated on it.  She couldn't stop laughing.  I know I'm funny but this not how I want people laughing.  Even ...

So very happy when I realized it was Sunday morning. I thought oh, damn.  I'm not ready for this until I realized I wasn't at Monday yet.  I think I got fooled because someone wanted their cream cheese on their plate at 5, but I went back to bed for another hour.  And 45 minutes.  Longer sleep is good sleep!  It's been two months since I started hearing the "low battery" message.  Still going.  If it is something that's going on downstairs, the monster needs to be punched.  Nobody tells him what to do.  I guess someone told him to mow the lawn yesterday.  I'm surprised since it's late November.  We were just happy that it was covering the dog poop and yes, I hope he got hit in the face with it.  Apparently he bought the lawn mower and never gave the receipt to the landlord.  Ever think he stole it?  I'm thinking it. Speaking of landlord, we probably need the insides of the toilet replaced.  He did a quick fix and...

I did not feel good this morning.  My head hurt.  It felt like someone hit me from behind and my nose was stuffed up.  Stupid sinuses.  I took something for it and felt sort of better but not completely.  Just thankful it wasn't an infection.  Even Precious was sneezing from her allergies.  Poor kitty.   We were going to do our grocery run today but we held off.  I got a call on my walk.  My mom wanted to order me some new sweat pants from JCPenneys.  I really long for the day when I can wear jeans.  Sweats are great but it's embarrassing I can't seem to shake the weight off around the stomach area.  I long to wear something that buttons.  Even at my thinnest, I always had a little something around the stomach just to mock me. I have never tucked in a shirt.  She has been wanting to do so much for me this Christmas and she knows I'm trying to get myself sort with my new creditor plan.  She felt bad that...

I got sent some cute videos of Charlotte at her Thanksgiving show with her little classmates.  So cute.  I love the dress that my niece picked out for her.  Naturally she's the kid that stands out when they do their turkey dancing, twirling around.  Yeah.  She might have a gene or two from me.   Weird that my days now have various TV shows or movies playing in the background.  All this time I had streaming and I've been playing the damn news. I do wish there was one channel that I could tune into from time to time, but I'm ok. I listened to Lawrence O'Donnell's show this morning.  Joy Reid and Rachel Maddow make you scared witless.  Lawrence breaks it down like it's not good but here are the hoops that need to be accomplished.  It was interesting listening to him explain how it won't be so easy for Elon Musk to do what he needs to get done.  I don't want to be an election denier, but he makes me wonder what trick did he pull?...

My grandmother told me at a young age that I would wind up to be an old maid.  She was wonderful, wasn't she?  Very judgmental and rude when it came to me.  She'd be thrilled that I lived up to her vision of me.   I had other people say just as insulting things to me.  It must feel liberating that you made that decision not to marry.  Wait? I was 32 when that was said to me.  Or you're going to be one of those late in life moms.  Joke's on you idiot.  I'm not a mom.  Hurtful and cruel comments. It hit a nerve when JD Vance spouted off comments about childless cat ladies or if you don't have kids, you shouldn't be able to vote.  Maybe we accept that some people don't marry and have kids but there's still bias when it comes to women who aren't married and have kids.  It's hurtful.  You people don't know my story.   I had asked a previous manager during Covid how the attorneys were doing as far as mood and she ...

I didn't expect to get a news alert about Matt Gaetz withdrawing for the Attorney General when I signed off for the afternoon.  Who knew there could be a glimmer of hope in this sea of anxiety? That's great news.   I listened to Lawrence O'Donnell's show and wondered how could Gaetz survive this?  I heard Senator Amy Klobuchar talk about subpoenaing witnesses if the ethics report isn't going to get released.  Maybe he could run Truth Social or whatever that farce is.  What a horrible horrible person he is. I had looked at my credit report out of curiosity and was shocked that I had another jump.  I didn't expect this.  It still looks sad but not as sad as it did a month ago.  They told me it would go down before it would go up.  Well not yet.  So far.  I have a long way to go, but it's looking a lot better these days. We got my mom's checking accounts straightened out and any money she had in the old one is into the new one....

I am thinking of the Marvin Gaye song this morning as I think about what's going on in the world.  I still can't get over Dr. Oz being in charge of Medicare and Medicaid.  We can laugh all we want but good gawd this is a real possibility for a lot of these appointments.  The worst people are happy and then there's the rest of us who are just not feeling that way. I have a half day and hopefully it's ok to go to the bank.  I don't think the weather looks too unbearable this morning. If I had to go to the office yes, it would. There was a morning where I left shortly before 7 and took city streets to work for the most part.  I hit a lot of rough snow patches where I felt like I was driving through a waterfall.  I didn't feel safe but I had to get there because we had our weekly meeting with the specialty group I worked with and I was leading the meeting that day which made no sense.  It didn't for anyone in my position and I had my notes.  Lorna was...

I was definitely distracted by a lot going on with my day.  It seemed like when I got one problem solved, a new issue would pop up.  Kind of an annoying day when it ended, but still productive so I'll take that as a win. I have meant to listen to Lawrence O'Donnell's show in the mornings but I've forgotten.  I do miss him.  I don't miss the chaos of what's happening now.  I feel so sad seeing it's Joe Biden's birthday.  Why did he have to get old?  Why do people think Trump's behavior isn't a sign of someone who's old?  I'm just happy I'm not listening to people take Joe apart.  I don't want to see him go.  I absolutely hate this.   I couldn't be happier that the news media's ratings are tanking.  We were all guilty of getting sucked in by it and we all need a break.  Some of the shows I do miss. I like Nicole Wallace and of course, Lawrence.  Joe and Mika might as well go over to Newsmax where Chris Cuomo is now...

I have had a little bit of a problem driving home when I go for my walks by Lake Michigan. I will get on the freeway but I exit right away by the downtown area and take that way home.  I don't know why.  I can drive over to where I walk ok.  Driving home?  It's been a problem lately. I get nervous on this one overpass where you go up and I slow down on the pass.  I can pick up speed once I get that roadblock but I have been getting scared when I hit that mark.  I just think if I get into another accident, I'm done.  Nobody will insure me.  I have a $1000 deductible and I can't afford it. Between the driver getting away with the accident and the girl that stole our rent check, I just felt angry.  Considering how our election went, that doesn't help. I have been trying to look for the positive like the judges that are getting approved and making Orange Foolius angry.  Pluto TV has been my go to in the mornings.  I find a channel and l...

 Is this like some weird grief we're all feeling right now? Or am I detoxing from the news?  Am I mistaken or is our department of education person part of the Worldwide Wresting world?  Wasn't Kid Rock available? Why is there some obsession about bathrooms in Congress?  Oh, wait.  There's a transgender woman and she's a woman! who has been newly elected.  This is what we're fighting about?  Marjorie Taylor Greene is insisting on calling her a man.  You really want to start that Big Marj around Jasmine Crockett?  Good luck with that because I'll be watching for the viral videos of Jasmine's next take down suggesting that Marjorie should go find a barn to take a shit in.   Seriously, the hate is overwhelming.  I hope Sarah McBride has congresspeople who shower her with kindness when she gets sworn in and has allies as she should.   I hope Marjorie Taylor Greene and Nancy Mace and any other hater get massive diarrhea th...

Since the election, I have actually felt myself having trouble breathing properly.  It's anxiety but when I see the news alerts about Mehmet Oz being in charge of Medicare and Medicaid, taking a breath seems like a challenge.   I'm trying to adjust to my new normal that's coming in 2 months and today doesn't seem to sit well with me today. I feel pissed off and tired.  I didn't expect magical wishes if Kamala won, but now I'm figuring out how to survive in what could be an even harder time not just for me but for all.   I'm angry that damn girl stole our rent check out of the mailbox.  She also stole a birthday card and a gift card for my sister. I don't have money to go buy Christmas presents for anyone in my family because of my credit counseling.  I can get something for my mom and Charlotte of course and I know they understand because I didn't get anything for my birthday.  It's ok.  Nobody expects a pony at my age.  I am angry ...

I'm still annoyed about getting scolded yesterday.  When you don't get a lot of direction and you kind of have to fake it until you make it, it's upsetting when someone finally directs you after they think you made a mistake.  I really didn't, but I was kind of left to my own devices in this situation even after I asked questions.  I think I have enough going on as it is and it doesn't help when someone hits me with an email like that treating me like a 5 year old.  How was I supposed to know and I never really gave a direct answer to the person so I wasn't spilling the tea.  Give me a break. I have to go to the bank on Thursday afternoon with my mom to get the money from her old account into the new account.  It's not a lot but we need what's left to be in the right spot.  I don't mind doing it and glad I didn't take back that afternoon after I moved my eye doctor appointment.  Just hoping I don't have to move it to January.  There's one...