Driving Uphill

I have had a little bit of a problem driving home when I go for my walks by Lake Michigan. I will get on the freeway but I exit right away by the downtown area and take that way home.  I don't know why.  I can drive over to where I walk ok.  Driving home?  It's been a problem lately. I get nervous on this one overpass where you go up and I slow down on the pass.  I can pick up speed once I get that roadblock but I have been getting scared when I hit that mark.  I just think if I get into another accident, I'm done.  Nobody will insure me.  I have a $1000 deductible and I can't afford it. Between the driver getting away with the accident and the girl that stole our rent check, I just felt angry.  Considering how our election went, that doesn't help.

I have been trying to look for the positive like the judges that are getting approved and making Orange Foolius angry.  Pluto TV has been my go to in the mornings.  I find a channel and leave it on.  Yesterday I found a channel that featured Frasier and Cheers reruns. Last week I found Tom Hanks movies.  I have no problem leaving the TV off, but sometimes something pleasant like a Tom Hanks movie is ok.  Considering what I had to listen to in the office, I'll take Sleepless in Seattle or one of Betsy's tirades.

I am grateful I'm at home.  Back in 2004, after that election, someone higher up found out that I had volunteered.  They explained why they voted for George W. Bush. They were complimentary of the work that I did but they went on a spiel about how rotten the Democratic party had become.  Their father had even volunteered for the Democrats as well so I was confused by the conversation but listened.  I had commented on someone living in an ivory tower, not him, but that people don't always understand the other party.  This person moved higher up on the food chain and when he would come to our office and talk to our group, he would mention how he lives in an ivory tower and doesn't see everything.  I said that like in 2004, why was he saying it in 2019?  I never talked politics at work unless I absolutely knew for sure who someone was voting for because it's just a bad idea.  After this person found out who I voted for, I would still get yelled at when I walked by their office about what the Democrats did this time to George W. Bush.  I paid attention to the news at the time but I wasn't as rabid as I was the last 4 years, but I thought sweet jeezus can I go to my desk and eat the Kit Kat I got out of the vending machine?  Believe it or not a radical lefty like me just wants to eat their candy bar in peace for crying out loud and get my work done.  

I have not known how to dress for the weather.  I've been resorting to a t-shirt underneath my sweater and I was fine on my walk but by afternoon I was roasting. I'm not looking forward to temperatures dropping but I'll be glad when I don't have to do 5 wardrobe changes.  I'm not Cher damn it.

I'm glad I have an afternoon off tomorrow.  I don't think going to the bank will take too long and there's a Target nearby. I can do my Shopkick and mom can look at the holiday stuff.  If I say Christmas I apologize. I want to say holidays to be annoying for all the years of let's put Christ back into Christmas.  How about let people be and enjoy the time, regardless of their faith?  Arguments like that make me crazy.  Things are crazy with work but the crazy will still be there when I sign in on Friday.  I have one other day off before the holidays so I'll get to enjoy many loony tunes days.  I am hoping that I can catch up when some people being off around that time.  It's not so bad when you're in an office and you can play Uncle Buck in the background.

The world felt overwhelming yesterday and I crashed.  Today is a new day.  I hope for the best and around 9:30 I'll get a text message that'll tell me that there's a deposit in my checking account that will make me happy.  I love 2 day early pay.  

Have a good day good humans.  When you crash and you feel the world overwhelms you some days, just crash.  Cry.  Feel bad.  Feel sad.  Get it out. Maybe, the next day might seem a little more bearable.  Here's hoping that's what today brings.