Having a Moment on this Saturday Night

 Social media can do a lot to a person.  You can accidentally come across something and all of a sudden, you feel crushed when you see something.  You're not looking, you're just scrolling and sometimes a scroll can set you in a mood.

I don't want to divulge because I would spill my guts all over the place.   Social media sucks.  Have I said that lately?

I would dig on Harold and his new love from time to time and basically torment myself that idiot found someone and here I am going for more medical treatments.  No, no, no. I stopped that.  Once in awhile I peek and tell myself, yep.  Still an idiot.  Good to know.  

I'm sure I've been looked up and people have wondered, how come there's so many cat pictures?  Because she's awesome.  Duh.  

So I saw who the new FBI director pick is.  That doesn't make me feel good.

My mom wishes we could move by Corinne and her husband.  Yeah.  Me too.  I wish there was someone nearby where we felt safe.  

I don't feel ok tonight.

It's a weird and wild world.  

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