Sinus Attack Saturday

I did not feel good this morning.  My head hurt.  It felt like someone hit me from behind and my nose was stuffed up.  Stupid sinuses.  I took something for it and felt sort of better but not completely.  Just thankful it wasn't an infection.  Even Precious was sneezing from her allergies.  Poor kitty.  

We were going to do our grocery run today but we held off.  I got a call on my walk.  My mom wanted to order me some new sweat pants from JCPenneys.  I really long for the day when I can wear jeans.  Sweats are great but it's embarrassing I can't seem to shake the weight off around the stomach area.  I long to wear something that buttons.  Even at my thinnest, I always had a little something around the stomach just to mock me. I have never tucked in a shirt.  She has been wanting to do so much for me this Christmas and she knows I'm trying to get myself sort with my new creditor plan.  She felt bad that I did a lot of the heavy work with the rent check getting stolen and cashed.  It was ok.  We're a team.  I've had plenty of melt downs or freak outs.  I know she's got problems with seeing and hearing.  I feel bad that someone did that to us, especially her.  That woman belongs in jail for the stress she caused.  So does the monster.

I kept insisting she doesn't have to do anything for me at Christmas, but I told her a few things that were more necessities than anything.  Believe it or not, I am at the age where I ask for socks and I'm happy as hell about it.  No kidding.  She got some from Kohls last year and I love them.  They're so soft.  She doesn't want me to get her anything because of this creditor thing but that's a hard no.  I know of one thing and I'll find something.

The things that I would like under the Christmas tree would not fit under a tree.  Excuse me, holiday tree.  I would like the gift of not worrying.  I would like the gift of a different President.  I would like to not worry.  Did I say that already?  

I listened to a podcast with Rick Wilson and Tim Miller.  It was funny yet alarming when they talked about the death threats Rick Wilson has received.  I feel like we are already in a civil war, so to speak.  Rick worried about the people who tried to impeach Trump.  Yeah.  Me too.  I'm worried about everyone.  That new Attorney General pick doesn't warm my heart.  Another reminder to limit my news intake so I'm not staring at the ceiling at 3:30 in the morning.  I went back to listening to Rebel Wilson's book and hearing that she went number 2 in someone's bush.  When you got to go, you got to go, I guess.  

We spent our afternoon waiting for the magical JCPenney's to send her an email to add to my designer sweat pants.  I told her we can go to Walmart tomorrow and maybe we'll get the email from Penneys.  I think the monster has been without his girlfriend today and for reason, I just didn't want to leave after I saw him mow the lawn this afternoon.  It's like hell froze over and I didn't want to face the wrath of him.

Corinne saw that the woman who stole our check out of the mailbox got the charges dropped against her for the restraining order she had. I said sooner or later the law will catch up with her and she belongs in Taycheedah with the monster downstairs.  

I wrapped a few of Charlotte's presents and I turned on some Charlie Brown specials on Apple TV.  I don't know why, but I cried when I wrapped the presents.  It wasn't watching Charlie Brown. I don't think it was wrapping presents.  I just felt lonely for a moment.  It passed and it wasn't some intense drawn out sob fest.  Just had a moment where I felt sad.

Emotions.  Why do I have them?  

I'm glad I have them.  Just wish I didn't have so many of them.  

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