Wishing

This is where I wish I could talk to someone at the moment.  Well Corinne has her hands full with two dogs, Mr. Corinne and her sister.  It was just that thing that I found on Facebook. Can't talk to my mom because it would make her mad.  I know it didn't make me happy.  Now that I think about it, I probably couldn't talk because I wouldn't want her to hear.  I hate social media. Makes me feel like I'm a Gladys Kravitz and I don't like that.  I hate that I came across this and it bothers me, but some things I shouldn't say.  It was hurtful.

I found out that the FBI director has to go through Senate confirmation hearings.  That's such a wild choice to me.  I know what I'll be watching tomorrow?  Bravo shows!  I had CNN Max for a few minutes this morning but we watched Murphy Brown on Prime Video.  It was the reboot version they had in 2019.  Kind of gross that the person in charge back then will be making a comeback.  Bleh.  I feel kind of uneasy about what lies ahead. 

I had wanted to be Murphy Brown at some point during my college years, minus the snarky attitude and well problems with alcohol.  I thought I'd be Nora Ephron and Tom Hanks would want all of my movie scripts or any book I wrote to be turned into a blockbuster movie.  Now I excel at making people laugh at my entertaining emails.  So I found a different route.  It's not always a bad road, but I have been thrown under plenty of buses.  

Stay warm, good humans.  Find your humans.  We all need to stick together.




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