Not Looking Forward to Today

I'm still annoyed about getting scolded yesterday.  When you don't get a lot of direction and you kind of have to fake it until you make it, it's upsetting when someone finally directs you after they think you made a mistake.  I really didn't, but I was kind of left to my own devices in this situation even after I asked questions.  I think I have enough going on as it is and it doesn't help when someone hits me with an email like that treating me like a 5 year old.  How was I supposed to know and I never really gave a direct answer to the person so I wasn't spilling the tea.  Give me a break.

I have to go to the bank on Thursday afternoon with my mom to get the money from her old account into the new account.  It's not a lot but we need what's left to be in the right spot.  I don't mind doing it and glad I didn't take back that afternoon after I moved my eye doctor appointment.  Just hoping I don't have to move it to January.  There's one creditor who hasn't accepted the proposal from the creditor agency yet. I took care of what I needed to take care of and they did tell the person that they can resubmit it in 35 days. I would prefer that they accepted it now so I don't have to come up with the difference again like I did this month.  It's frustrating.  

I think I literally woke up pissed off this morning. I had a horrible headache and I didn't sleep well.  I sleep with a ton of pillows after I got hit from behind and well getting slapped with a semi probably didn't help me either.  I have TMJ on top of it so even my sleep is stressful.  I'm just tired of having pain.  I felt good last night when I found a video on my iPhone to work out to and didn't make me want to pass out. I'm just in a really bad bad mood this morning. I woke up and had hoped it was at least Wednesday.  No such luck.  Never wish the days away, just sometimes wish it was a different day of the week.

I didn't really spend any time on the internet, go figure.  That would breed a bad mood.  The hoopla over my comment about blocking people died down.  I explained to someone who asked if I was being rude as well that I'm not when I get called the "c" word.  It's not a difference of opinion.  It's a matter of calling people names. I'm not taking it.  Go to Twitter or Parler or wherever all the creeps hang out.

I actually got a good laugh about people ripping on Joe Scarborough and Mika going to visit, well, that guy.  I hope the ratings drop for their show along with a lot of other shows.  From what I see, people just can't bare to watch them cover the orange stain the next 4 years.  There are plenty of other news sources.

Last night, I got frustrated listening to all of the horrible things that my cousin said to my mom about what could happen say if Trump can't finish out his presidency and JD Vance took over.  I feel bad for my cousin but that just doesn't help my mom's mood either.  I wish she wouldn't do that. I read trash comments about Joe and Mika to cheer my mom up.  My mom goes on the internet and will see things herself.  She doesn't need someone else telling her all of this stuff.  That really gets on my nerves sometimes.  

I got a cat next to me who wants to be brushed.  I guess I can do that.

Have a better day than me good humans.  It's ok to be in a bad mood.  Just remember though?  Don't take it out on others.  I have been on the receiving end of many people's bad days.  It's not fun, but good humans are more mindful than the jerks.

Keep the faith.  

  

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