The Invisible Woman Chronicles

It wasn't as bad as I anticipated.  I had a couple of moments that didn't sit well with me.  Ever have an incident where you humiliated yourself and someone discovered that humiliation?  It was kind of like that.  It was brought up in a discussion.  No names attached but it was probably something that needed to be said.  I know how it got discovered.  It was discovered by someone who was in my business.  Was I in the wrong?  Yeah.  I acknowledged it. Didn't realize what I was doing and apologized.  There were questions and comments where others needed clarification.  I just want to move on.  I don't want to be reminded of the situation.  I know I will when it comes to deciding things that may affect me financially, like a little mark that could affect me that way.  I am feeling crushed.  I feel like Betsy spawned someone new to take me out.  Well played. On the flip side, I noticed there was a silence f...

Nope.  Don't want to sign in.  I'll be ok once I go through emails but there's always the fear of what's waiting for me.  Or who's been peeking. I have been volunteering with this North Carolina Voter Project.  You get a batch of names that you send messages to and all you have to do is hit send and they all send automatically.  The work comes when people have questions.  Most people want to be opted out but more have been asking for help with registering to vote.  Yesterday, someone went off in a message about how thoughtless I was sending a message while they are dealing with hurricane damage.  We ran out of addresses by Wednesday so the message went through before they got hit, but still.  I get it.  She was upset.  I just opted out.  I don't blame her.  I am getting bombarded with text messages as well.  I'm not dealing with hurricane damage. I can just ignore. Precious is in her assistant spot, sleeping by the wi...

 I have to take that back about Jennifer Grey.  She was not a slut.  That was bad of me to say on my part.  She was definitely a wild 17 year old doing coke and shacked up with a 45 year old hair dresser.  She was definitely a wild teen getting it on at 15 with a 23 year old.  In my mind, I see the sweet girl from Dirty Dancing.   Matthew Broderick on the other hand, was an absolute slut.  Yep.  That's right.  Lovable Ferris Bueller was a whore.  So disappointing and yet not that surprised.  He was two timing Jennifer Grey with Helen Hunt and Penelope Ann Miller.  His mom had a mean mouth and called Jennifer's dad a fag.  Mean!  Joel Grey came up in a time where that wasn't acceptable.  Matthew's mom was a shrew.   The things you listen to.  I thought I spent too much time listening to political history. I guess listening to Hollywood gossip is probably a nicer change of pace.  I'm a...

Speaking of the doofus dermatologist I went to years ago, the girl who waxed my eyebrows told me that some of her clients went to this person.  I had gotten a few facials from her and she was constantly commenting on what was wrong with my skin.  I made the appointment and he said that I had rosacea, melasma and a whole slew of problems.  When I told her what had happened, she thought it was funny.  I didn't find it funny.  She would bring it up when I had appointments which made me more mad.  I stopped going to her after I got diagnosed with cancer.  She was pushing services I couldn't afford and pushed me to go see someone who made me feel stupid. I got easily swayed by people thinking they were being so helpful.  Of course I know that I thought these people would like me better.  It would happen just walking into a store and I would get conned into buying about 5 outfits on my credit card.  You would think that someone who sold shoes ...

This is just going to make me sound so dorky.  I discovered a Metro Market in Glendale the other day that would allow me to Shopkick and gain a lot of points.  I noticed it when I was trying to look through my list when I was at the post office near Bayshore mall. I thought where is this place?  Well, I found out this morning. I thought I'm going east, why not start out there instead of my own neighborhood? It was actually quite a nice store and I was able to get more kicks scanning products on my app.  Nice and quiet.  It wasn't that far from the loony dermatologist who laughed about my hockey stick lines.  I had to pick up a few items this morning, so I just did a little detour north.  The things I do to save a few extra dollars.  It's not lost on me that I'm using gas to save money but considering that car stays parked in the garage most of the week, it all works out.  I found my way back to my walking place and did my walk up the hill. I ...

I got at least 15K steps or more and last Saturday I got 24K steps.  I gained.  Two pounds.  My clothes actually feel a bit better but I'm like what?  I haven't had the house filled with snacks or ice cream.  I'd jones for a candy bar, but I wasn't inhaling bags of it.   I get it.  I'm on an anti-depressant that may slow me down and I know, age.  There's more I can do.  I got a start and that's a good thing. What am I going to do?  Keep working on it because I did feel 2% better this week and I want it to be 200% better.   That just really sucks.  I'm not going back.  Keep moving forward.  

Well today is the wrap of staycation 2024.  Grateful for the time off.  I'll have more time in early November and the occasional day off here and there.  Of course I got a little bit of the Sunday morning scaries about things I may have forgotten but eh, I do my best.  Ready to go forward and keep moving. Sleeping beauty next to me will be grateful to have me home and typing away while she snoozes.  It seems like when there is a meeting, she'll flit around me and sometimes people probably wonder why is there a cat on our Teams call?  Occasionally I pull her up and show her on the screen to see if anyone notices and I'll see someone getting that squinty look because of my background, they're not sure if they're seeing things.  Kind of funny. I watched the opening of SNL.  Jim Gaffigan as Tim Walz is perfect.  I'll watch the rest later.  My sister and I would stay up late as kids and watch the early ones.  We had a TV, watching anythi...

I have my routine or have on the weekends for the most part.  Go hit a few stores, then go take a drive over to Lake Michigan and go for a walk.  Then go home and maybe I'd take my mom for our big grocery store trip.  Repeat and repeat.  I repeat myself a lot.  I am aware of that.  I am aware of that. We did go to a couple of stores in the morning.  She liked the idea of having the place to herself for the afternoon.  Really?  Got a secret boyfriend I don't know about?  She is normally the late sleeper and sometimes wake up time will be when I get home at 11:00 in the morning.  I know she keeps odd hours sometimes but she's usually upset that she slept so late.   I drove to my spot and walked the hill while listening to my Audible pick, Jennifer Grey's book.  She was kind of a slut when she was a teen.  Holy smokes was she ever and into the coke.  It's a delicious listen, I'll say that and I always knew Matt...

I do just want to stay in bed today and not do anything except watch Netflix.  There's a show my sister recommended Nobody Wants This and I watched it last night.  It's pretty good and the kind of show I can just watch and forget. I will get out and I won't hibernate today.  I am just feeling unmotivated.  I am going to Metro Market with my mom.  Sorry, MJ, I'm going to a different one.  There's one near the Wal-Mart where we get our prescriptions. I am disliking the Pick n Save in my neighborhood more and more so I suggested a switch up.  And yes, I can Shopkick at that store.   I am doing my walk this afternoon.  I have gone out each morning and gotten out there.  I didn't feel like it today but I thought if I switched things up, I might feel more motivated.  Word of the day.  Motivation. I got an email regarding my insurance changing.  I think that makes me unmotivated.  We went over our options and I thought ...

Yesterday, I noticed a dad and his daughter stopped at a stop sign on my walk.  She was crying and he was consoling her.  I'm not sure how old she was, but the dad had his hand on her back in comfort. I thought it was kind.  I also thought I should mind my business and keep walking.   I would have never gone biking with my dad and if I did, I would be crying because he'd probably tip over on the bike from having 8 beers beforehand.  He was very good at yelling at people that I worked with if they weren't answering my page calls at Target.  Being warm and fuzzy was not his strong suit.  My other dad, I guess he was the real dad, he was just absent.  I think that's what made me stare at the daughter and dad. I thought it was nice. I don't know why we ingrain it into everyone's brains that men have to be tough macho dudes.  My dad hit me twice as a kid.  It sucked.  I didn't deserve it.  It wasn't a big deal at the time, but ...

I made it to the pet store today. I hadn't been there for maybe two months. I thought I'd try to conquer my fear of getting on the freeway where I got hit.  I got Precious a few cans of the healthier stuff I prefer to give her and a bag of treats because I'm a pushover.  I like seeing the random dog that people bring in and wants to socialize. I had a truck go past me and I just yelled NOOOOO in my car as it drove by. I was listening to Jennifer Grey's book when the big truck drove by and I thought no, not today.  Please.  No no no.  I figured if I yelled NOOOOO then the truck driver would magically hear me.  They must have because I didn't get hit.  I am still pushing my way through driving on the freeway.  Somedays I don't have it in me.   I did not feel good this afternoon.  Still feel crummy.  I got a headache I can't seem to shake.  It could be the weather.  I don't know.  I get a lot of sinus headaches and ...

It's Friday. I should not be anxious but I am.  Big difference between the Friday on a work week and Friday on a staycation week.  It means Monday isn't too far around the corner.  BOO! Part of me is anxious to get back to it.  I do feel ok about emails.  I did my best.  The lurker?  No.  I anticipate something.  I'll deal with it. The week before, I had to take something to calm my nerves more than one day and I didn't like that feeling.  This week, I didn't have to and I liked that.  I can't say I've felt extreme joy every minute of time away but I didn't have that panicked, sweating and shaking kind of feeling I had at times.  I'll take that as a big win this week.  It doesn't matter if you go on a trip or stay at home, everyone needs that time mentally, emotionally and physically.  Life can be a lot and if you don't take those breaks, you'll crash.  I was crashing the week before.  I'll have time off aft...

Well Staycation 2024 is almost to an end and yeah, I don't want it to end.  It probably doesn't sound exciting to anyone.  Did I get some things done?  Yes.  Did I get everything done I wanted to get done?  No. I got to sleep later which is a good thing.  When I would wake up and couldn't sleep, I could at least tell myself I won't have to fight to stop yawning during a meeting or feel sluggish while I got through my tasks. I hit my 20K steps almost every day, I guess I feel short on Tuesday, but not by much.  Screw you, rain.  I just find myself kind of stuck to my chair during the week and don't get enough steps, enough exercise, enough anything.  I walked 5 miles round trip to get an eyebrow wax and a hair cut and saved money on parking.  I was resourceful.   I didn't binge eat this week.  Yeah, I got a cupcake today at Whole Foods, a small one, but I'm on staycation so it's ok.  I don't have any sweets in the hous...

I guess you could say that I have a Christmas tree up.  I prefer holiday.  I'm all about annoying those who want to say Christmas and get uppity about it.  It's a happiness tree.   It's just a small tree my mom got from Dollar General maybe a couple of years ago and it sits on a desk near the table that I work at in our dining room.  It's got lights on it and garland. It's not real decorated with ornaments but it's ok.  I just kind of like it.  I have my spooky cat from CVS.  I call him my emotional support cat Stephen Colbert or I did when I had him at my desk at the office.  I obviously have a real one but I like having Stephen around too. It makes me happy.   I think people lose the point when it comes to the holidays and yes, I said holidays.  The first attorney I worked with went off on this diatribe about people not saying Merry Christmas.  I didn't understand it. I say both.  I didn't think about it. ...

I saw her again.  MJ from my shoe selling days. I was at a different Metro Market and I saw her skirt past me fast like she saw me and couldn't get away fast enough.  Why? I did find her on Facebook and found out she has "gasp" a nice life.  She lives in another suburb north and has young children.  She actually looks like she's doing fine in my opinion.  Does she think I'm going to terrorize her for working at a grocery store?  No!  There's no shame in that.  Hard work is good work.  I don't know her story now but she doesn't need to hide or look embarrassed.  I don't get her. She was almost out of high school and very haughty when we worked together.  We would have good conversations about movies or clothes we liked at the mall, but there was always this competition she had and not just with me, but with everyone.  That was 1996.  I'm over it.  I'm not going to say hello or say anything.  And I'm the one that s...

I whine a lot about nobody helping me.  Boo hoo, poor me.  It's not that.  I don't have a tally of what I've done for people and vice versa.  It's not like that.  I believe if I was in that situation, I'd be thankful for the help that I've gotten.  "looking around" We had something at work where you could make donations at work for someone to get healthy meals sent them while they had to be out on leave.  One woman had a stroke and she got them.  Frick lost her father in-law and dad and she got them.  I always donated and maybe gave like 10 or 20 bucks because I thought if I ever was in that situation, I'd appreciate a kind gesture like that.  Well that didn't happen.  I thought don't be a bitter Betty, be a better person.  I still donated after my situation for others and I got to the point where I couldn't do it.  It wasn't that I didn't care.  I was hurt. I had thought about my friend Trevor that I texted over a ye...

Oh, it feels good to get a hair cut.  Stupid people who were mad about Covid restrictions.  Get a flowbee.  My mom has used one for years.  I am ok with going to a professional or a student.   It felt so nice to get my scalp massaged.  I had a voicemail this morning that my student had called in and they giving me an advanced student for $15.  I was ok with that.  I remembered to donate to her education fund.  I think I had this person before but I thought I don't remember you.  Then when she told me how many times she's changed her hair color, I thought well that might explain my crummy memory.  I did remember at the end.  Nice woman. I got my walk in.  Saved on parking.  Depending on how I schedule and the weather, I may keep this up.  That was really a life saving moneywise.  I had stopped at Metro Market in downtown for ShopKicking purposes.  The liquor department at my grocery store is locked ...

Let the sun be reflective of a better mood.  I don't like wallowing or going down gloomy road.  I can't help how my mind works but I don't like it when I can't shake off sad feelings.  Blame it on the rain?  Or maybe it's the fact that my brain is wired differently?  I don't know. Last night, my mom commented on how Precious goes through more litter. I googled the litter brand and looked for comments that maybe it's not the best.  Here comes where the gloomies come in.  I realized that maybe Precious is getting older.  It really is possible that she might have diabetes.  My mom says no, but because we didn't like the vet and the cost, doesn't mean he was wrong.  He's still a cat killer.  No way will she go back to him but I am aware that time isn't on our side with her.  She seems fine and this morning, she stood on my dresser and meowed for me to wake up.  I didn't think I'd have a year after she got her diagnosis but wha...

My memory isn't the greatest sometimes and I think I know why I don't have a clear memory of this one. It was something that was the start of something good but just didn't. . . happen. I was set to go out with someone that I liked a lot.  We had a date planned and they cancelled.  They had gotten back together with their girlfriend.  It wasn't the first time someone chose someone else, it just really sucked that I had the potential of something good really happening and had the rug pulled out from under me.  I have taken chances when it came to love, I wonder why wasn't someone willing to take a chance with me?   In the seventh grade, I thought this boy had a crush on me and we had these ridiculous autograph books we had our friends sign.  I thought maybe he would give me an indication if I asked him to sign my book, maybe put his phone number in it?  He wrote, Sorry, I like her and drew an arrow to someone else who signed the book.  It was ...

I don't mind paying a few dollars to park when I have a hair appointment at the school. I  did last time because I think the prices went up for the parking area I normally choose and I was upset that the dippy girl who didn't give an F cost me an extra $20.  I couldn't stand the thought of going to the school that's actually near my home because that place is just a mess.   I parked at a shopping center over a mile away and walked to my appointment this morning.  It was actually to wax my eyebrows.  It wasn't raining and I thought this would be a good walk.  It was.  I'll be doing it tomorrow when I get my hair cut. There's a grocery store or little shopping center not too far from where we would have had our Milwaukee office if the pandemic hadn't hit. I had looked around the area and found the shopping center 5 years ago.  I wasn't cheating by parking it and then walking away. I got my free Starbucks and I did buy a few items at their Pick ...

With time off, I didn't cancel my 5 o'clock alarm.  I thought I did, but I was reminded not once but three times I had off when I woke up and realized I'm on staycation time.  For some reason it went off at 5:30 am.  I have a mysterious relationship with technology but I was very happy at 5:30 when I realized I could have more time for sleep.  I don't care.  It's nice when you realize that hey, I don't have to get up at this time and go back to sleep.  I could do that all day, but I realize there's a point where I should get out of bed. I got a cat to remind me to do that.   Looks like Mother Nature is going to screw with me today.  It's ok, I'm still hitting my 20K steps and I will today. I'll be getting my hair cut tomorrow and I couldn't be happier. I should have done it in August really.  Pushing my hair constantly is getting annoying and I'm that type to go get a scrunchi or get a clip to tie it back.  I felt dumb putting a bar...

Today, I tried to get through an aisle at the store and asked the person if she could move.  Silence.  I turned around and went to a different aisle. It's common that I get ignored when I speak.  I think sometimes I should have named the blog Not Listening or paying attention.   I was invisible at 25 so being 55 and invisible is an everyday occurrence.  I accept it.  No, don't like it. It was Matthew Perry's book that made me change my writing as though I were talking to another person.  I actually found myself saying, You're a jerk out loud while I walked and listened to how he broke another woman's heart or started using again. I kind of liked how his writing was and I guess I adapted my writing as though someone was actually listening to me even though nobody listens.  This is for the person who stumbles across this five years from now and says Woah, this lady has got problems. Thinking that someone is listening to me makes me hope that so...

I walked the hill today.  I'm on well on my way to get 20,000 steps.  It felt good to go for that walk.   Being a remote worker for the last 4 plus years, I forgot about morning traffic.  I'm thinking Oh, if I can get out the door by 7:30, I'll be . . . stuck in traffic.  It's ok.  It wasn't so bad. I didn't mind the reroute that I had to take when I got off the freeway to get to my destination.  I got time on my side this week and it was nice to see the trees changing colors as I drove down Humboldt this morning. I started listening to Hunter Biden's Beautiful Things and well, I felt a little teary eyed listening to the prologue where he talked about the MAGA supporters surrounding his house in 2019 while he was writing this book and his wife was 5 months pregnant.  He has been hunted like an animal by these people and all because of one man.  I got a better understanding of the relationship he had with his older brother Beau.  The...

Now that I slept off my angry rant, I feel ok.  Well no trip to Kohls for me. I have shoes. My green Adidas shoes have been the best for my angry left foot and whatever skin irritation I got going on.  I can wait a few months to take a look around until I get past this storm. I am hoping the Fed cutting interest rates will help me with some of my own payments.  It would make a difference even if it was $6 dollars or $15 dollars for a monthly payment.  I am ashamed of my situation there and frustrated that I'm very close to having something almost paid off and I can't make any progress because my attention has to go elsewhere.  I don't hope for miracles, just some breathing room. This whole lifestyle thing that they're doing with depositing money at the beginning of the year doesn't sound like much to the average person but feels like a lifeline to help me before I get my tax refund and yearly bonus before the end of February. It would be nice if I could do more ...

It's not ok that a semi driver hit me and took off.  I pay for his incompetence.  If he was a decent human being, he would have pulled over and asked if I was ok and we could have exchanged insurance information. I have sat here and blamed myself at times for even coming close to the semi, that maybe I did something and maybe I shouldn't have been out driving around like I was. I go nowhere. Big whoop, I took a drive over to Lake Michigan and went for a walk?  Yeah, I'm being extravagant on a Friday morning.  Oh, no, I went and got myself a Starbucks too.  If I wasn't so reckless maybe I wouldn't have gotten hit.  Oh, I'm being sarcastic. I didn't deserve that.  I get small breaks and moments of happiness.  I don't ask for a lot and I didn't ask to get hit. I didn't ask to get a jerk claims adjuster.  It would have been nice if he would have explained how the process works.  I kind of know from where I work but I don't know how their ins...

I don't have to worry about the week ahead, so I thought I'd add to my anxiety by opening up the envelope from my insurance company. I went from $87 to $115 a month and that's raising my deductible.  Yeah.  It could be worse.  My mom's math was off.  She's freaking Matt Damon from Good Will Hunting and figured roughly around $100.  I thought it was going to be about $110.  I'm the one that flunked College Algebra twice.  Ok, the second time it was a D but I still had to take a test.  That's another story.  Sucks I got it right. I think if I can get through the next few months, I'll be ok.  I have one doctor appointment and I don't want to pull out a credit card, but I'll have to do it.  I don't want to call and cancel.  Again.  Once I get to the new year, I guess I'll get some extra money for lifestyle and mine is medical lately so that extra bit will help.  I read all that it entails and it sounds like you could do i...

Well so much for beating the rain today. It beat me today. No way was I going to go outside in this mess.  I did go outside to the store and that was bad enough.  I kept refreshing my weather screen to see if it would end soon.  No and no.  Damn.  I got out to do some ShopKicking and get some steps in any way I can get it.  The rain came down hard and as long as I didn't hear any thunder clapping, I didn't care.  I'll conquer that hill tomorrow. I see that I should maybe replace my current Adidas sneakers this week when I'm off.  I could feel some wetness creep through my shoes and normally shoes like that have a life span of 6 months.  I'm going on about two years and that's normally how long I keep shoes like that!  It's a dark green and works well if you don't know if you might accidentally step in dog poop.  Insert the eye rolling emoji for that last comment.  I looked online and of course the ones that appealed to me looke...

Well, I got myself out the door this morning maybe shortly after 7.  Made sure the cat was fed and adored her like I normally do because it's all about her.  Washed up and got changed because wearing pajamas on a walk might not be a good look.  So I pulled out my Fetterman hoodie in case it was cold.  Go ahead.  I am judging me for that one.  I left it in the car and holy hell I definitely wouldn't have needed it now. I finished listening to Cassidy Hutchinson's book on my walk. I was tempted to go back and walk the hill again but I thought I got my 10,000 steps before 9:30 am, let's pace ourselves.  I got more than 10,000 between the couple of places I went to so it was a good good day for moving along.  It's my one thing I want to accomplish. I didn't binge eat, had a good sandwich for my dinner, just feel better. I don't feel ok about the lack of money part at the moment.  I got the notice for my car insurance increase that will take effec...

I made it for annual staycation time.  Thank goodness.  At least I didn't crawl to the finish line. I think I'm ok with a lot that I'm working on.  I hope I am.  Here's hoping there's no forest fires started while I'm off. No tears were shed today and that's a good thing.   I'm afraid I got a tiny mark thanks to the lurking owl.  It was noted on my record and I didn't say a word.  I just wanted to let it go and I will for this week.  It might pop up in my head while I walk but I'll blast some Beyonce to get the lurker off my head space property.   It was something small and insignificant but yet there could arise a situation where maybe it wouldn't be.  I explained it to my sister who is in management and deals with all types and thought it was really silly.  I'm dealing with a professional cutthroat.  A new low.  I'm impressed and annoyed at the same time. I suspect there may be something going on with this type...

Staycation time is almost here.  I don't know if I'll get through the last hurdle ok before the day ends.  I am hoping that is the case. I don't want to hear a certain name today. I don't want to talk about a certain name today.  I want no problems, please.  If it's related to what I'm working on, ok, I'll deal.  I'm not for someone who has been creating problems for way too long.  Pass. I was watching the coverage of that creepy North Carolina governor and how he got caught being on porn sites.  Party of family morals.  I think it's safe to say no women will be voting for him.  Just when you think a politician can get worse.  All of them have baggage, yes, even Kamala and the Coach, but some of the baggage you want to throw in the garbage. I guess I shouldn't be embarrassed by this admission.  It wasn't me who did this.  The whole North Carolina governor thing made me think of something I discovered a long time ago during the ...

Productive day and I'm ok with that.   Hoping tomorrow is not that type of day that involves a tissue.  Sigh.  I don't want to hear certain words.  Certain names.  Maybe in a couple of weeks but not at the moment. I would like to forget. It's bringing back shades of Betsy.  What an awful person.  When the plans were in motion for us to move to Milwaukee about 5 years ago, someone said that Betsy would think all of the men of color were going to try to assault her.  Not the words he chose but he was right.  He was also one of Betsy's victims. It's like can people like that can get fined for trying to ruin someone?  Like pay you back for all of the emotional damage that they inflicted on you.  I resented that she managed to take my name and beat the daylights out of it with lies, insinuations, manipulations and playing the victim.  How do I become a villain?  I know I got the cartoon grey streak going on right now, but ...

I must have been in a fog when I woke up at my normal time. I normally give Ms Precious her small bit of cream cheese and I'll crawl back into bed and maybe close my eyes for a few minutes before I start the day. Today, that turned out to be an hour.  Oops.  This is why I probably get up earlier than I should.  It would have been ok even if I set it for 6 instead of 5.  It's not like I got to drive on the freeway, just to the dining room area.  Extra sleep is never a bad thing.   I was annoyed between JD Vance and his ignorant comments about immigrants and Sarah Huckabee Sanders with her comments about Kamala Harris not having kids.  I'm so sick of that because you don't have kids, you don't count like everyone else.  I have gotten that crap for 30 plus years.  You're not as important.  You don't have your own family.  It's my choice if I didn't want kids and I don't need a reminder that at one point I would have liked kids....

 I have Alex Wagner on and I'm disgusted by what's going on in Springfield Ohio with the hate groups showing up and people are scared.  She was talking to the woman who is the president of the NAACP for Springfield, Ohio.  JD, it's Haiti, not Haitia, you creepy eyeliner wearing freak.  There are certain events that have upset me with this regime of hate that's disguised as Republicans.  Muslim ban, Charlottesville, and now this.   I saw the nice ladies trying to register people at the grocery store. I smiled when I got approached and I said as a childless cat lady, I'm registered.  One of the young kids busted out laughing and the woman told me to have a wonderful day. I thanked her for what she was doing and the others.  I said I know it's tough but this gives me hope.   My day was ok.  The meetings were fine and I even knew what they were all talking about.  Sometimes corporate speak can just be.  Well, a lot? ...