A Small Mark Before Staycation 2024

I made it for annual staycation time.  Thank goodness.  At least I didn't crawl to the finish line. I think I'm ok with a lot that I'm working on.  I hope I am.  Here's hoping there's no forest fires started while I'm off.

No tears were shed today and that's a good thing.  

I'm afraid I got a tiny mark thanks to the lurking owl.  It was noted on my record and I didn't say a word.  I just wanted to let it go and I will for this week.  It might pop up in my head while I walk but I'll blast some Beyonce to get the lurker off my head space property.  

It was something small and insignificant but yet there could arise a situation where maybe it wouldn't be.  I explained it to my sister who is in management and deals with all types and thought it was really silly.  I'm dealing with a professional cutthroat.  A new low.  I'm impressed and annoyed at the same time.

I suspect there may be something going on with this type of person.  I don't know.  Just so happy not to be away for the next 10 days.  I know I'm not traveling but stepping away from that daily life thing is freeing right now.

I pushed my hair cut back to Wednesday and I'll be so happy to see again.  I'll have two eyebrows and be able to see.  Life feels kind of ok now.  

I'm not sure what I'm doing to do this week.  I was going to end the letter writing and post cards but there was one for the helpline assistance for Georgia and Michigan that I thought I can't say no.  I took on too much, but I feel good when I do this.  I feel good when I do a text bank.  I feel good when I can figure out a text bank.  I don't feel good about a lot of things so this does help me.

Corinne is doing her first vote by mail. I told her I haven't voted in person for 20 years.  We did early voting when Barack Obama was running in 2008.  We stood in line for two hours in downtown Milwaukee and waited.  I was excited.  Thrilled.  The people seemed so happy too.  You felt like you were making a difference.

My goal for this time off is to feel better about myself.  I'm not looking at 100% but maybe 2%.  I don't get up and move as much as I like and that is my number one goal.  Get out of the house and listen to my audible books.  Move, get the steps in, work up a sweat.  Just need a jump start. 

When I saw myself on the screen, tearful last week, I felt like such a mess.  I feel like I need a little mojo going.  A start.

That's my number goal of staycation time.  Even if I got a small mark.  So stupid.


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