Hibernating Saturday

I do just want to stay in bed today and not do anything except watch Netflix.  There's a show my sister recommended Nobody Wants This and I watched it last night.  It's pretty good and the kind of show I can just watch and forget.

I will get out and I won't hibernate today.  I am just feeling unmotivated.  I am going to Metro Market with my mom.  Sorry, MJ, I'm going to a different one.  There's one near the Wal-Mart where we get our prescriptions. I am disliking the Pick n Save in my neighborhood more and more so I suggested a switch up.  And yes, I can Shopkick at that store.  

I am doing my walk this afternoon.  I have gone out each morning and gotten out there.  I didn't feel like it today but I thought if I switched things up, I might feel more motivated.  Word of the day.  Motivation.

I got an email regarding my insurance changing.  I think that makes me unmotivated.  We went over our options and I thought I had until next summer to change before they end.  I think Progressive sounded like the best choice.  The woman at the body shop recommended Progressive.  She told me that her mother in-law was with Secura and she didn't drive for a long time because she didn't need to and when she did get a car, another car hit her at the grocery store.  Not her fault.  She got her rates doubled.  I know the feeling.  I'll call them next week.  

I am ok to being back online.  I am not ok with someone interfering.  I know that person can't help themselves.  I just want to yell Quit making me feel bad all the time!  I can't.  Can't say what you feel or you'll be at Dollar Tree ringing up expired candy bars and toilet paper.  You think you lose the schoolyard bullies when you get out of school but somehow they pop up in other parts of your life.  That's making me feel unmotivated.  Trying to push those thoughts away with a sledgehammer.

Yesterday, I didn't have a great day when it came to repeating myself with my mom.  Her hearing isn't the greatest and I think that makes me feel bad. I know she is getting older.  She can still kick the monster's ass downstairs but her aging somedays doesn't always sit well with me. I know it's a fact of life, but somedays I'm not ready for it.  

I was hoping to have changed the Ring battery yesterday in the basement.  We have not had a day off where the monster or his girlfriend wasn't home. I guess I shouldn't care, but I am hoping that I can do it next week.  I still have battery life but I don't want to wait too long.  I have to get a step stool and have my mom hold a flash light on me so I can see.  I need a person 5'10 or taller to do this.  It's so easy but because it's in a corner and higher up, I'm a little height and sight challenged.  If anything, I can maybe do it when his girlfriend is home.  She at least runs errands where I think he just sleeps upside down all day long when he's off.  They have been better and at least there's been no fly infestation. 

Maybe I should go turn on the news and really cheer myself up!  Ugh, it'll be a better day.  Switching my day up will maybe do me some good.  I will get my 20K steps in.  I did a lot better than I have most weeks and other than getting a small bag of cashews from Target, I haven't been snacking like I normally am.  

Maybe I need a snack today.  A small one.  

I'll be fine.  I'm not just saying that.  I know that's a standard thing we say as women.  I'm fine through clenched teeth.

I can listen to more salacious stories in Jennifer Grey's book and get my walk in.  Maybe seeing more dogs this afternoon will help.  

And yes, don't tell Precious I eye other fur babies.  

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