Is that the Sun I see?

Let the sun be reflective of a better mood.  I don't like wallowing or going down gloomy road.  I can't help how my mind works but I don't like it when I can't shake off sad feelings.  Blame it on the rain?  Or maybe it's the fact that my brain is wired differently?  I don't know.

Last night, my mom commented on how Precious goes through more litter. I googled the litter brand and looked for comments that maybe it's not the best.  Here comes where the gloomies come in.  I realized that maybe Precious is getting older.  It really is possible that she might have diabetes.  My mom says no, but because we didn't like the vet and the cost, doesn't mean he was wrong.  He's still a cat killer.  No way will she go back to him but I am aware that time isn't on our side with her.  She seems fine and this morning, she stood on my dresser and meowed for me to wake up.  I didn't think I'd have a year after she got her diagnosis but what do you know?  It's a year and a half later and she's fine.  She lets me know when she needs her litter changed or if she needs something.  She's still bossy.  That's the bad part about our fur loves, our dogs and cats.  We don't get enough time.  I'm making the most of my time and so grateful I'm home with her everyday.  This cat is my little shadow.  I love her so much.  She's a gift.

Enough from the childless cat lady.  Today is hair cut day!  Yay!  I warned my mom it may take me longer because I have a beginner student.  You have a choice of three levels and I chose beginner.  I think it was who was available.  I am ok with that.  I'll get a 2.6 mile walk out of it when I find my free parking spot.  I'd say see me for more money savings habits but apparently I don't have any other than this.

We are going to pick up a few groceries this afternoon and I don't mind since everyone will be working.  It has been nice to be out this week with everyone back in school, back to their daily routines and not clogging up the aisles. I really did like the pick ups we used to do but so many times, they got it wrong and that was maddening.  

I had a nightmare that scared me last night.  Someone was in my apartment and I lived in Bay View.  They set my place on fire and I was watching from afar.  Maybe it's a sign that it's ok I don't live there anymore.  I had nobody and I went running when I saw the place was on fire.  I woke up and felt scared.  Wow that doesn't sound so sunny, does it?  How do I erase that memory?  I was relieved to wake up and then hear my mom having a conversation with the cat.  It's a scary world out there.

Let today be a little brighter.  Any of the stuff I just mentioned seems so bad and a downer.  Except the hair cut part.  Unless I wind up looking like Cousin It's relative with a bad hair cut.  That could be bad.  

Think positively is a nice thought but sometimes it's just not an easy flip the switch.  It appears that the monster has a job and hopefully will leave for the day.  The sun is out.  I don't have to interact with the lurker or feel their ick presence watching what I do.  I get two day early pay.

It's always a good day when the money is involved.

Have a good day good humans and if you have a bad thought, it's ok.  The positive thoughts will find their way.