One Last Thought

It's not ok that a semi driver hit me and took off.  I pay for his incompetence.  If he was a decent human being, he would have pulled over and asked if I was ok and we could have exchanged insurance information. I have sat here and blamed myself at times for even coming close to the semi, that maybe I did something and maybe I shouldn't have been out driving around like I was.

I go nowhere. Big whoop, I took a drive over to Lake Michigan and went for a walk?  Yeah, I'm being extravagant on a Friday morning.  Oh, no, I went and got myself a Starbucks too.  If I wasn't so reckless maybe I wouldn't have gotten hit.  Oh, I'm being sarcastic. I didn't deserve that.  I get small breaks and moments of happiness.  I don't ask for a lot and I didn't ask to get hit.

I didn't ask to get a jerk claims adjuster.  It would have been nice if he would have explained how the process works.  I kind of know from where I work but I don't know how their insurance company works.  I would have liked that communication.  I would have liked someone who had a little patience.  I realize you know, be thankful that you still have insurance after that.  I didn't hit anyone! No, no, no.  I am glad but that wasn't my fault and I gave him the license plate number and I gave him the police report number.

I didn't deserve any of this. I don't get breaks.  I get little sprinkles of good news from time to time, but I didn't deserve any of this.

I guess it's safe to say I don't have the Sunday scaries.  Is this a pissed off scary?  I'm not sure.  Had to say it.  Feeling better. 



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