So I Opened the Envelope

I don't have to worry about the week ahead, so I thought I'd add to my anxiety by opening up the envelope from my insurance company.

I went from $87 to $115 a month and that's raising my deductible.  Yeah.  It could be worse.  My mom's math was off.  She's freaking Matt Damon from Good Will Hunting and figured roughly around $100.  I thought it was going to be about $110.  I'm the one that flunked College Algebra twice.  Ok, the second time it was a D but I still had to take a test.  That's another story.  Sucks I got it right.

I think if I can get through the next few months, I'll be ok.  I have one doctor appointment and I don't want to pull out a credit card, but I'll have to do it.  I don't want to call and cancel.  Again.  Once I get to the new year, I guess I'll get some extra money for lifestyle and mine is medical lately so that extra bit will help.  I read all that it entails and it sounds like you could do it for exercise equipment, gym memberships, spa days.  My excuse is more scintillating.  Double and triple sigh.

On the plus side, I don't feel too worried like I normally do when I take off a week.  I got the feeling that the one who peeks all the time might be getting questioned more about their actions.  I am not sure. I sense a change is coming and it may involve me shifting to a new place but I've done it before and maybe it'll be a more positive change.  And one that will be healthier for me overall.

I do have a free Starbucks coming my way this week and that will be my spa day tomorrow.  I'll get my walking in, get my hair cut.  It will really be a stay cation.  I am hoping that this cut by the Fed might give me a tiny break, like a few dollars less for a credit card payment will help me immensely.

This sucks.  I should maybe do my staycation in April when I have some money.  It'll be ok. I just wish I didn't have surprises like rent increases, insurance increases.  That damn WE Energies bill is killing me.  How are we using three times more electricity and gas than downstairs?  It doesn't sound right.

I got a whole bunch of streaming shows, tons of Kindle books and walking is free.  I just have to remind myself no walking into Lake Michigan.  I may want to scream into it.  

It will really be ok.  I'm glad that I opened the envelope.  It's like Ok!  This is the deal, let's make this work, people.

It's what I do.  It's what I do.  

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