Monday with a Touch of Annoyance

It wasn't as bad as I anticipated.  I had a couple of moments that didn't sit well with me. 

Ever have an incident where you humiliated yourself and someone discovered that humiliation?  It was kind of like that.  It was brought up in a discussion.  No names attached but it was probably something that needed to be said.  I know how it got discovered.  It was discovered by someone who was in my business.  Was I in the wrong?  Yeah.  I acknowledged it. Didn't realize what I was doing and apologized.  There were questions and comments where others needed clarification.  I just want to move on.  I don't want to be reminded of the situation.  I know I will when it comes to deciding things that may affect me financially, like a little mark that could affect me that way.  I am feeling crushed.  I feel like Betsy spawned someone new to take me out.  Well played.

On the flip side, I noticed there was a silence from someone who's not so quiet and will let you know how wrong we all are.  Yep.  The person who has made my life problematic too many times.  I don't know what's going on.  Just leave me be.  Let me have peace. I earned it.  I deserve that.  

I ended my day finding out someone from the past will be back but not near me, thank goodness.  She was someone who worked for herself for awhile.  I actually kind of liked her at times but she was one of those women who would make you feel bad for being childless.  She was constantly talking about babies and even people with kids said it irritated them.  When she had brought her kids in, one of them took a shine to me and I mentioned kids seem to like me.  She made a joke in front of people with "Because you're a pedophile?"  I. Walked.  Away.

You just don't forget a joke like that.  She did come by and try to make out like I was the sensitive one.  That's just something you don't forget.  It's one thing to make someone feel bad because they don't have kids, it's another thing to even imply that you're a deviant.  I just felt disgust when I saw her picture today. 

I'm used to people being rude with me but to cut like me that was awful.  I also have to remember that she flirted with the men in the office and asked them not to look at her boobs when she was pregnant.  I have to remind myself of her character. 

This childless cat lady seems to be in a mood.  Reminder that my home office is a big improvement over the meanness I put up with in the office.

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