The Invisible Woman Chronicles

I just want to get stuff done today.  That's all and that seems so complicated this week.  I got two days off and I want to make some progress so I'm not falling farther behind the 8 ball. I am taking offense at being told to have someone's back.  I have had people's back.  I am better at sticking up for others than myself.  Usually I got a knife waiting for me when it comes to having my back.  That just set me the wrong way.  I have spoke up for this person.  In a way, this conflict is between them and the lurker.   In these situations, it has come back to hurt me.  I wind up with a comment on a review about something I said in the past.  I don't want that to happen again. I just want to sit with Precious and do my work. I though the student who cut my hair yesterday was a beginner and kind of surprised when I found out she was an intermediate.  She didn't know how to cut my bangs so she asked her instructor?  It's o...

I found myself crying like an angry toddler who didn't get their ballon when I left the post office.  Not depressed.  Stressed and overwhelmed. Glad to be away from the ridiculous madness that was slowing me down lately.  I don't want to deal with it tomorrow either.  I got to play defense and get some things done with me being out two days. If I actually told anyone about my appointment on Monday, I would hear the song and dance about why do you need to take the whole day off for that?  For something medical?  First up, nobody's business.  Second, I have the time, going over 200 hours again and third, nobody's business. Part of it is superstition.  I just prefer to have that day to myself, considering what happened.  Working won't help because I'll lose it if I hear any childish nonsense.  I'd rather just go home, watch TV or do any errands I need to get done.  Corinne's birthday is coming up so I'll get her small package out in th...

I have a hair cut appointment this afternoon.  I'm relieved.  I haven't been able to get much done and I have off Monday and Tuesday.  And yet, I need to be away from the stupidity I'm dealing with in my daily life.  Little girl games that I don't want to be dragged into. First up, I have anyone's back who's being bullied or made fun of. The incident that happened last week was disgusting and I have had it happen to me.  Our new individual has said to me You better say something and not make me look stupid.  I don't like comments like that. I have already said my peace.  I have already my feelings known to others.  Please don't tell me what to do in that respect.  I have been badgered with messages about the situation and I am not getting things done.  I have been supportive. I have shared my thoughts.  I have other problems than school girl bullshit.  This is what I don't miss about the office.  School girl bullshit....

I was going to walk over for my appointment. I had a light dinner last night which was maybe bad on my part because now I feel a little too nauseous with this fasting.  I'll bring a banana with me and stop at the store on the way home for a couple of things.  I thought I'd feel invigorated to go for a walk.  Not at the moment. I am still worried about being talked to and getting gas lit that the lurker isn't so bad.  I never know what to expect.  Years and years of being told "you're too sensitive" has just silenced me.  I spent 5 years having Irma dangle my cancer diagnosis over my head and I worried that I would get push back if I said something.  I finally had enough and said "If I want to talk about something, I'll talk about it.  Otherwise, leave me alone and quit harassing me about personal information."  I know.  There were people who could have gotten into serious trouble if I had spoken up louder.  I think it made the manag...

It was just one of those days.  At least I had the peace of no monster down below.  That's a good thing. I haven't seen the landlord since last week and I'm sure we'll see him.  I'm really ok if he takes his time doing the work that he needs to do.  I'm ok with us being the only tenants for the moment.  I hope it's a better change. It seems if the lurker is away, their protege will play and it's affecting our new person.  I am worried.  I had to speak my mind even if I might be dismissed or told my imagination is working in overdrive.  I worry that this person will go away and that won't be good.  I have felt a little hopeful about my daily situation and I thought I have an ally.  I don't feel hopeful because I'm used to good things going away.  Wow.  Negative thought.  Diffuse with rainbows and sprinkles.  I don't want this person to leave.  I don't know if there's anything I can say that will make a difference....

No, no rant from me.  I woke up and saw an alert from an eBay buyer.  I tried relisting a lot of the makeup I bought awhile back to see if I could make some extra change.  I mean change, not money.  I may have made less than $15?  I'm not sure.  The purpose was to get rid of what I had and I put a lot of it at a low price like a $1.  I knew I was taking a loss for the most part but I accept it and I just wanted to see if I could get rid of anything. I sold a mascara by e.l.f. for a $1.  Actually 99 cents.  What's nice about make up is that I have a ton of smaller envelopes and it's easy to package up. I know I shouldn't do this but I have put it in this mailbox near where I walk.  I don't think too many thieves want mascara.  Normally I take it to the post office but I knew I wasn't going to make that weekend and I mailed it. I got a nasty message that I didn't ship it out soon enough.  The message said that I paid you on Febru...

I'm kind of ok with the landlord taking his time to fix up downstairs and do the things he needs to get done. I realized this morning I forgot to take a box out of the basement and put it in my trunk.  Since nobody is downstairs I went down to the basement to get the box and put it in my car.  I got the litter out.  It seems so simple but I would have to tend with barking dogs and worrying if you're making someone mad.  Maybe I can do that with the new person or persons that come in?  It's just kind of nice to be able to do something so simple when I think of it.  Of course I am mindful of other people and don't want to make noise if they're sleeping.  I know not everyone is on the same schedule.   I figured out how to find my upcoming doctor appointments.  I had to sign into a different site and I didn't realize I already had a user ID and password which I had to reset . No shocker that I forgot the password.  I don't want to look ...