Tuesday Happenings

 I made it through yesterday and was quite productive. I found out that the reason my one prescription cost more was because I prescribed tablets instead of capsules.

Um, what the absolute F is that about?  I figured I'd contact my doctor's office and ask if I can get capsules instead when I'm out of this first batch.

When I picked them up on Friday, the pharmacist went over it with me and the conversation kind of irritated me.  It's not my first time taking something like this and I felt like he was talking in a normal than soft voice to soothe my frazzled nerves and let me know that this one takes time.

Yeah, I take an anti depressant so I'm a fragile flower.  I appreciate kindness but I don't appreciate the tone that I'm defective.  That's what it is.  You can't be a high functioning person if you take one of these prescriptions.  Shut up with that mindset.  It's so insulting and kind of hurtful.

I started taking them off and on since my early 30s.  I was about to get fired from my job if some guy had his way.  He was making up stories about me to my manager and I was gobsmacked when I got a review that said if things didn't improve, I'd be written up.  

I didn't sleep. I was panicked.  I was crying. I was just terrified because I never had this happen before so I actually had to go see my doctor at the time and I got prescribed something.  

I got up every day and faced that lying piece of garbage who lied about me.  I found another job and got out of there and let it be known to the higher ups what this person was doing.  He was let go six months later.  I found out he was doing stuff to someone else at his previous job.

So yeah, that's how that started.  Did I ever sad or blue before then?  Yes, I did.  This was the first time it just became paralyzing and consumed me.  Honestly if some people stopped being assholes to other people, maybe some of us could get off of these prescriptions.  

Quit judging people if they take something like that.  You don't know their story. I didn't even take anything when I went through cancer treatment the first five years. I had anxiety meds but I felt good and felt like I could do anything.  Then 2020 happened and well, we all know how much fun that was.

Don't judge damn it.  It's so hurtful when people do that to me.

I found out that weight loss doctors are covered under my insurance. When Corinne asked I thought oh damn, I better make sure.  Yes.  It is, thank goodness.  I fixed the Medicare card situation for my mom and got her a new card printed out until she gets hers in the mail in the next few weeks.

Well it appears the diva was dipping her fingers in what I was doing while I was out.  I was kind of annoyed initially and I thought oh, who cares.  She's so rude to others and doesn't pay attention so let others find out the joy that she is.  This week she's on another vacation.  For someone who makes out like they're so poor and struggling, I kind of think she's doing better than some of us.  At least me!

My legs and feet weren't feeling too bad as far as the swelling goes until this morning.  I got some compression socks from Amazon so maybe it'll help that I have them on today. I thought oh great.  Do I have to wear some old man black socks to help my cankles?  I was surprised at what I could find that didn't make me look old man-ish or old lady-ish even if I am.

My mom got a blood pressure kit from Amazon since her blood pressure was kind of high.  Since the mid terms, it's gone down.  Mine was dancing in the hypertension area last week so I figured maybe it's good if I monitor mine.  Initially it was high when she had me check it, but when I did it later it went down.  I know I dance in the low 130s which isn't horrible but it used to be around the 120 mark so I was surprised when it closer to 140.

I don't think it's too much to ask that I'm healthier, is it?  I don't have much of anything else.  Let me be healthy please.  

I hope the good humans have a good day.