Snowstorms and Tennessee

I didn't have Tennessee on my bingo card for an election to watch today but I am curious to hear how Aftyn Behn does.  I hope she wins.  I hope the momentum keeps going to end this cruel regime.  I'm exhausted and we're only 11 months into it.

I was off yesterday and thought it would be nice to take my mom to Southridge to see the Christmas decorations.  Yeah.  There were decorations and they sucked.  Oh well.  We got out of the house for a little bit.

I didn't get much of a chance to walk yesterday after the snowstorm.  It was nice being able to get out and not to have to use a shovel.  Charlie was even salting on Wednesday when we only had flurries.  I would like to hope that I'm retired from shoveling but to be honest, I don't know.  I don't know if I can afford to be here another year.  

Sigh.  The cost of living is really sucking up my energy and my money.  My mom wanted me to buy a sweater from Macys for a Christmas present.  No, I don't need to do that.  I had just helped her pay her eye doctor bill from September.  I don't need anything. I would like to be able to live somewhere long term.

I have been unpacking some things that I had hidden but I'm trying to do it in a way that it would be easy to pack up if we had to move to a four family.  The guys are nice, but I know they may raise the rent higher at the end of 2026.  This place wasn't taken care of for years so I get it.  I just don't know if we can afford it.

So help me if I get another damn call from North Shore Pathologists about that bill.  I did not see that doctor on August 25.  I'll put out all of my claims and send them screen shots to say where the F do you see that date of service??  I'll refrain from cursing but I'll be damned if I get another call from them.  Take it up with the doctor's office and have them fix it!  Not my problem! 

Ugh.  I'm in an awesome mood for a Tuesday, aren't I?  I'm just dreading my emails from five days away.  I have things to look forward to today.  I am hoping I get my new debit card today.  I can't use it for much until tomorrow but I'll be glad to have it.  I'll get paid tomorrow so that's a good thing.  I am looking forward to the news. I know the election may not go our way but I'm so curious to see how close it is.  Wow on Mark Kelly's conference yesterday.  He was fantastic.  

I hope the good humans have a good day.  

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