The Invisible Woman Chronicles

 Yep.  I'll be back at the post office on Saturday.  New races in 2027, mostly mayor or local elections.  I know things won't start again until after the new year, but never hurts to have a few postcard sheets set aside and ready for when it starts again. Local elections matter!  I realize my postcards or letter writing may not make a big difference.  It helps me stay sane.  It's my creative arts therapy.  My penmanship has improved since doing this. See you on Saturday.  I got work to do.

 Here I am, crying again after the election results.  This time it's a really good morning and it's happy tears.  I didn't think we would get back to this place.   I had a moment of panic as well as my mom when the early vote was coming in for WI governor's race.  My mom seemed resigned but I told her he won.  Crowley won!  I think watching Steve Kornacki got on her nerves.  It got on my last nerve.  Might as well have watched CNN for crying out loud.  It made me mad when he would do by county and I'm like I want to know statewide!  They really weren't focusing on the governor's races so much.  Just maybe a blip and a little bit of attention to Keisha Lance Bottoms winning the governor's race in Georgia.  That was and is still fantastic.  I'm so happy to hear that and it was such a great way to start off the night with Jon Ossoff winning re-election.  Thank goodness. The other wins - Adam Hamilton in Kansas,...

 I don't feel old or sad.  I feel tired.  Ok, maybe that does sound like an old person. Molly Ringwald's character has nothing on me when it comes to birthdays.  At least she got the hot guy at the end of the movie.  All I get is Kohl's Cash.  I do love Kohl's cash. I had to pick up an order yesterday that I used my Kohl's cash with and found myself wandering in the sneaker aisle trying on a different pair of Adidas.  I have moved onto hoarding Adidas sneakers. I am a shoe freak damn it.  Just moved to a different area and period of shoe freakiness, I guess.  I have some Cariuma sneakers and I wanted to see what they had on their website a couple of weeks ago.  I would basically have to use the K Mart layaway special to buy them or the new version - Klarna.  I was curious and surprised to see their website was down.  They've been sold or basically don't do business anymore.  That sucked.  I really like my Cariumas....

 What would I like for my birthday?  Someone actually listening to me.  Someone actually paying attention and remembering what I'm saying.  Depending on age, I can show grace on the forgetting part since I'm a frequent forgetter.  You know what I'm saying.  You don't feel like you're yelling into the void all the time. I probably go back to what Sosie did for me one Christmas.  Or holiday.  People can shove up with the imaginary war on Christmas thing, but I digress.  I joked about shoplifting from Whole Foods when I had so many appointments that year.  She sent me a gift card for Whole Foods and told me to stop shoplifting. I did it once when I was five.  I apologized to my mom.  Anyway, she paid attention to something I might like.  No fat lady Hawaiian shirts that year, thank goodness. I got frustrated when I looked at my medical online.  I had to just do the usual fill out the forms when you have an appointment an...

 I had a Facebook memory come up of me asking people about doctors.  Mine had left in late 2012 and I was wondering if anyone had suggestions.  My former best friend Deanna recommended someone in Bay View and I went to that person for five years. I unfriended Deanna after I found out she voted for well, you know, that guy and was justifying why.   I was trying to think when we became close in school.  It was maybe sophomore year in high school?  We were both our own misfits and we spent a lot of time together at each other's houses.  She was the one who accidentally got me and a mutual friend talking again.  She was friends with my junior high ex-friend Derrick.  Derrick was a dork and we lived in the same neighborhood.  He said horrible things to my face about what an ugly nose I had and it looked like I had a banana for a nose.  It just got to the point where I stopped talking to him because of the hurtful things he said....

 What do I wish for my birthday? I don't want to feel like I'm anyone's obligation.  I want to actually feel like someone wants me around because they like me.   Stupid birthdays. I think they remind me of what I'm missing.  If I went on Facebook and wrote a post about how I just wished I had someone that I could have coffee with (even though I don't drink coffee, I do drink a beverage, damn it), people would be hurt like Corinne. If she was still in the area, I would happily meet up with her and I know she would be open to that.  I'm just thankful she messages me a few times a week.  When I see days where she's posting online and doesn't respond to my message, I feel a little hurt.  In her case, I get it.  She was me for the longest time so I think she's used to her own bubble. Nothing will top me asking Cassie where I can find a good mover and not hearing from her for a few days.  Yet, I saw all the Snap Chat alerts she was online....

I don't feel prepared and it doesn't feel like I'll have another week off effective next week.  I was used to just doing 3 days the first week in November to help me with my election trauma. I found out I could take a day off for my birthday as well as one for voting.  Why not?  I didn't think it would be a popular time.  Then the diva announced she would be out as well but it didn't seem like anyone knew because well she doesn't know how to fill out things properly.  Don't ask me because I make her feel stupid.  Sigh.  My mom has said repeatedly I listened to you.  You were nice to her and she's an ass.  Yeah. I know.   I thought someone was yelling a fat comment at me when I was standing at the light waiting for it to turn green when I walked back from lunch.  I looked up as the truck passed and he yelled "Go brewers!"  I forgot I was wearing a Brewers zip up hoodie I got about 10 years ago.  I waved.  I though...