Don't Find Me in the Rain. Or Sleet. Or Snow.

What a craptastic day.  The morning didn't start off that way and I was hoping maybe this would all be just a big fake out.  Nah.  At least it's rain and sleet and whatever.  We don't have 15 inches of snow.

I'm not sure what we'll have.  I wasn't going to go out this morning but I did.  It seemed to be a warmer day than I expected.  I think my mom changed her mind about the audio book so I took it back to the Wauwatosa library.

I did my usual runs, including Target and I decided to park by Cermak. I was on the hunt for strawberries and the ones Cermak had looked kind of gross and green.  So I got the stuff I needed for Precious at Target and when I came out, I saw a guy approaching people.  I'm guessing for money.  Why?  What is it with people like that?  I don't mean homeless either.  This guy looked like he was hustling, he reminded me of the Monster.  I was able to sneak my way back to my car and get out before he found me.  The freeloader fund is empty people.  Go elsewhere.

I did find my way with Google maps back to the Wauwatosa library.  Wauwatosa looks so nice.  I knew it was there, I just never ventured through some of the neighborhoods I drove through. I was doing my usual, you know if I made better choices, then I could have maybe had this or that.  I know.  That's a bad thing. I thought of Barry and his family.  They seemed like such a nice family and I felt old realizing his little girls are probably in college and older.  Wauwatosa looked like a nice place to raise a family.  Barry and his wife were a nice couple.  It irritated me when Irma would flirt with him and he looked like he wanted to take the bait.  It's like remember the nice lady who had your children, you big dork?  He's not a bad guy.  He was a good attorney to work with and I learned a lot from him. I wish he would have looked at what he had and realized how lucky he was at times when he would have his mid life crisis moments.

It seemed like things were turning darker when I headed down Highway 100.  I thought maybe I would do some ShopKicking because I'm a dork and stopped at Walmart.  It really looked dark when I left.  I made one last stop at Metro Market in Greenfield.  I found some decent strawberries and when I left, the pouring rain was a definite sign that it was time to go home. I could have gone to the east side for a walk but I would have gotten caught in the rain on the freeway or headed home downtown.  

I was going to watch the Oscars or have it on tonight.  I guess I just needed to sign into Hulu. I can't access it through the Hulu part on the Disney app.  Technology just irks me some days.  I turned on the local station for my mom to watch it while she talks to my cousin.  I can watch it tomorrow.  I'll watch a Bravo show.  I'm actually finding that helping me when it comes to dealing with the daily news because it's a lot.

I don't have the Sunday scaries.  I'm just tired.  Kind of nervous about the week ahead, but I think I'll be glad to be away from some of my daily stuff.  

I think I might be finding a new dentist after this week.  That is freaking scary.  

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