The Time I read a report

I had a weird bump under my arm that formed when I cut my under arm shaving one day.  It didn't seem to heal and I thought maybe I had an infected hair follicle trapped.  It kind of burned and it was where I had lymph nodes taken out.  

As a kid, I broke out a lot in my underarms and it was disgusting. Sometimes it was cysts and I wondered if it was that.  Years later, I had to deal with an ugly boil on my upper thigh that took a long time to heal and then an infected cyst on my upper chest near my neck.  What is that called?  Decolletage?  Took me a few rounds of antibiotics to heal that nightmare up.  So yeah, that's where my thinking went.  Weird skin thing.

It got suggested that I have another doctor do a test to take a closer look.  Ok.  Made sense.  I definitely didn't want anyone pulling out any blades and cutting me if we didn't know. I had enough of that the year before, thank you very much.

So after I did the test, nothing really showed up.  When I came in for my appointment with the next doctor, he came in angry.  He asked me why I went to this doctor. I said I thought it was a skin related thing.  He said it was nothing and that I just have to deal with it. I said why does it hurt?  I was asking questions and being made to feel so difficult.  He kept getting angry and said he'll find me someone to punch a hole in it.  We'll be in touch.  I said ok and was really glad when he left.

I waited a whole hour to get yelled at.  What an asshole.  He used to keep me waiting during treatment and I was so hungry on those days. I wanted to leave so badly but I thought he was ok.  I didn't like this side.

When I got home, I looked online at the report and saw what he put about me.  It just didn't make sense.  Those weren't the things that I asked about.  When I got a survey I filled it out honestly but how upset I was by this report.  I looked online after I did the survey and noticed he added an addendum about calling his office and declining to come in for another test.  That never happened.  I was shocked someone would do that.  

I did try to talk to someone about his behavior the next time I saw a doctor and I saw fear in this person's eyes when I showed them the report.  I made a mistake.  Now I looked like the problem.

I went back to the person I saw initially and thought maybe he would understand.  Somehow I shut down when he talked and pulled out that report and showed it to me. I knew he had good intentions and I knew I probably looked like I was pissed off at him. I wasn't.  I felt like I wasn't listened to and made a fool out of myself and just walked out.  I didn't want to be a problem for another medical person.

I did find out what happened from a radiologist about a couple of years later when I had to have my MRI done again a second time because of a screw up.  She said she would take a look at it and when she called she broke it down and talked to me kindly about the fluid build up when I cut myself back then. I said I thought maybe it was something infected and worried about other issues like bacteria.  I don't know why anyone thought I thought it was cancer.

I'll never fill out a negative report on anyone.  I just won't fill it out.  I saw with the vet I took Precious to that they threatened to sue people who left negative reviews.  That helps people like me decide who's best.  I found one of my doctors that way when people said he was really nice and friendly.  They weren't wrong.  

Yeah.  I won't talk.  This is where I'll talk about it.