The More I see, the more I see red

I didn't think I'd wind up this angry this week but surprise surprise and it's not even at anyone in my daily life.

My mom seems to be having some side effects from the pills she got from the hospital so we were able to make a virtual visit on the spot.  That was really cool and I was really glad to see her doctor.  We drove to get lab work so they could take a look and the lab dude said we had to make an appointment after 5.  We couldn't walk in.  My mom said we have to go because there's a big crowd and walked out.  There was nobody there.  I asked the guy so if I came during the day, we wouldn't need an appointment?  He said yes. I thought I'll just take an extended lunch.  No problem there.  Good doctor.  Stupid lab guy.  Whatever.

I was trying to look online to make a lab appointment just in case but there was nothing there. I said we'll take our chances and go in before lunch time.  I get plenty of time and I can sign in early.  I have a lot more flexibility than I used to so it was fine with me.

I did look at the notes from my appointment.  I really try not to look at the notes after what happened years ago. I did it for awhile because the whole cancer diagnosis was so confusing. I wanted to understand. I didn't want to get mad and I started getting mad when I saw some things put down there that were never discussed.

I'm going to say something positive. I understand mistakes.  I understand being crunched for time.  It was making me mad over little things and I thought just don't look at it anymore. 

Considering how cavalier my doctor was, I had a funny feeling I was going to get pissed off and yep.  I was right! 

I never said I snored.  I said I don't know if I do. I was in a haze one morning and thought I was but it sounded more like my sinuses needing to be cleared.  He put down that I do snore.  Cool.  Put down I'm at a healthy weight while we're at it.

I have fallen asleep on our love sleep many a night watching TV and my mom has said she has never heard me snore.  Our kitchen is outside my bedroom.  She has never heard me snore.  We have had guests here who never made a wise crack about me snoring.  Maybe I do, but apparently I'm not waking up the neighborhood!  Oh my god! 

I never said I was tired during the day.  I said maybe once in awhile.  That's not the same as a recurring theme.  I get tired of emails.  I get tired of lurkers and divas.  I never meant it like I was ready to go to sleep under my desk.  

I never asked for a referral either. I was dumbfounded by what he said and he seemed to get annoyed with me when I mentioned the cost, the equipment.  I will be shredding that piece of paper tonight.  They can lose my number.

I didn't take a look at anything regarding anxiety.  You know I'm going to drive on the freeway just to prove his annoying ass wrong. I never asked for a referral for that either.  He pushed it and I said well maybe I could. 

I hedged a lot because I felt put on the spot and I went along with what he was saying.

Sigh.  With maybe all of my doctoring dwindling down, I see this one for what he is.  Not the best fit for me.

I noticed my appointment for my woman doctor for well, that other stuff.  I thought great, appointment was on there for October.  Then I saw where.  Mequon.  Damn it.  No, I'm not mad.  I'm not sure if she's doing all of her appointments there now.  I was more concerned that an appointment wasn't showing up.  I'm a little on the fence about keeping the appointment and maybe switching but I think I'll see her one last time.

I would just like one doctor to take care of all that I need.  I know I can get blood work at the Bay View clinic.  I'm fine with going to the women's hospital on the east side.  It'll be nice just to have one doctor on the east side.

What a messy week it's been.  I hope mom's lab work comes out ok tomorrow because I've had enough of medical for the both of us this week.