Searching on Superior

 I found a new route for walking.  I wasn't sure what I was going to do this morning.  I did want to get more postcard stamps and I didn't want to drive to Shorewood.  I couldn't find them at West Milwaukee and I knew my neighborhood would flip me off.  I took a drive to Bay View this morning and went to their post office.  This would make me boring as F if I told a co worker what I did this morning. They wouldn't be wrong.

I knew my mom had her doctor appointment but I wanted to get some type of walk in this morning.  I parked my car near the offices where the Democratic Party of Milwaukee is located in Bay View and walked.  I walked along Superior and then crossed the street to get another view of the city and the lake.  It was really beautiful.  I think with gas prices being bad, I may change my routine up a bit.  I don't put on as many miles to Bay View as I do for the east side. It really doesn't matter to much with me because I don't drive during the week for the most part, but when I'm off, I can put some miles on with bumming around on my days off.  

I did see a nail salon that looked interesting. It got great reviews.  Easy to book and the prices aren't too bad. I have been debating when I would get back to the salon I went to in Shorewood this summer.  I looked at their pricing and their new guidelines.  They charge like 3.5% on a credit card for processing fee.  Well I'm not paying with a credit card but I don't know about my debit card.  I noticed their reviews have gone done hill.  I got a feeling people misbehaved too bad during covid.  That's a shame.  I really liked the owners.  I noticed there was something about charging a fee if you're late.  I did have one instance where I showed up late because of traffic.  I get it.  If everyone is doing it, it's not ok.  The signs seem to be pointing that I should look elsewhere.  I liked the vibe of the place I walked past this morning.  It's not in the big hub bub of Bay View and the whole KK vibe.  It's got a cool nail place by the lake.  I would like to once during the summer and once during my time off in late September now that my life and wellness card will cover that.  It was a good morning.

I was kind of missing my former neighborhood but not my neighborhood.  My mom's doctor is on that side of town.  My dentist was one block from where I used to live.  I have one doctor that looks like I might have to go to Mequon for and my mom has one in Cudahy but still east.  I have one doctor on the east side as well as an eye doctor and the hospital I go to for my screenings.  I just have one doctor down the street and that's maybe a once or twice type of thing.  I think of my mom more than anything for doctor stuff.  It bothered me that the one doctor she saw for pneumonia cut her off of her diabetes pills and her sugar went up.  If I could do it over, I wouldn't.  I wish I would have pushed for Wheaton Franciscan at the time.    

My mom fared well at her doctor's appointment. She was snoozing before but I knew she was awake when she muted Trump.  Her doctor said she's recovered and doing well.  Glad she is.  I'm still not ok emotionally.  

I keep thinking of the I need to do something to make friends and I don't know how.  I know people. I know people who would consider me their friend.  I don't know if they would show up for me.  I don't mean it in a bad way.  I just feel left behind.  Not their fault.   It's just life.  I find that on Threads where there's people like me where they drive themselves home from medical procedures because they don't have anyone to call.

I feel so stupid when it comes to my friendship with Cassie.  I wasn't important.  She just thought of herself as my driver because I was alone.  I feel such humiliation when I think of her. 

I know Corinne would show up.  Corinne has been in my spot.  I wish she lived in the area.  She's happier now where she is and I'm happy for her.  

I know.  It sounds like I'm looking for someone to drive me around or mom if we get sick.  No.  I just wished I had a friend that lived near by who I could text if I was having a bad day or meet up on a Sunday morning and have a Starbucks or some other drink to talk.  

How do you find a friend in this world?  

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