Overload

I was without the internet all morning yesterday.  Can't say it was the worst thing in the world but when you already were out 2 days, you know things are going to pile up.

They did.  I think another person is mad at me for being behind.  Add more to the list.  Sigh.

I ended my day when I realized that the lurker was involved in another incident on something I worked on. I thought maybe this file had closed out but I had gotten asked a question in an email and when I looked, I saw that I had something open but it got abandoned and there were kind of mean notes put in there.  The lurker was working on rescheduling something. I forward it to the individual.

I don't think I can take much more of the deception.  It may mean a move for me in the future but how long does it take before something breaks you?  I'm tired of the excuses being made for this individual.

I'm overloaded.   

If you have someone in your life like this and you can walk away, walk maybe run from this person.  Your mental health is more important than other factors.  Sometimes the people in your life will get it.  It's ok to care about your own well being.  It's not selfish.  I get why some relationships or friendships aren't so easy to walk away because of other people involved.

Mental health means more.  It's no way to live your life.  

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