Out of Sorts

Yeah, one person has me out of sorts today.  I'm taking on more emotional energy than I need to do in this situation.  Ever been around someone that throws you off balance?  Yeah.  This person does it.

I won't even go by their nickname because I think anyone that has read past posts would see who this person is.  Well they hide behind a screen anyway so let's give them the shield they want around them.

Somehow I feel the situation will go back on me and I hate that.  It's because this ghost that hides and does things will manipulate the situation.  The ghost did send me something back and I replied with a receipt asking why did this happen?  What do I do?  I didn't make accusations.  I asked for clarity. I asked for someone to help me understand or give me direction. I hope what I said didn't come across as petty or angry.  I'm not petty, but I am angry.  

I'm angry that I can't go about my day in peace.  If I leave you alone, why are you doing things to ruin my day?  Why?  What have I done?  Help me understand this situation.  This happened one too many times.

I crave peace.  I think of what happened with me and Betsy. I take that stress on and I wonder was this something that pushed cancer cells to burst?  I worry with me now that is this something that will push on my heart or any other part of me to cause illness? I know I sound crazy but the person in question is toxic and their chemicals keep spilling out all over in my direction.  Sigh.  It makes me miss Frick and Frack.  That bad?  Yes it is.  I dread seeing if there's any messages to me about it from anyone.  I hope I didn't hostile. I wanted answers. I didn't make accusations.

I'm so sick of that faucet and my poor Precious having a wet head.  I really can't say anything to the guys because I worry this will be a $300 rent increase.  I hate this.  New windows we don't need but a new faucet?  Crickets.  I can hear her sneezing.  She has allergies on top of it too.  

Charlie had raked up the leaves in the front of the house on Easter and put them in one of the garbage cans.  Well the garbage men didn't like it so they left a note on one of the cans. I slid it under the door when I saw it.  They're still there.  I feel like maybe I should do something?  I'm not sure.  We're going to get another note and I'll leave it sticking so maybe Jeremy will catch it.

I was having problems with the garage door sticking and I was kind of apprehensive about saying anything but I thought well Jeremy uses it so maybe he'll have Charlie take care of it.  When I finally couldn't get it open one day, I texted Charlie thinking he was the hand guy to do it.  He said he'd have a guy take a look at it.  I came outside later to go for a walk and saw Jeremy by the door.  He fixed it.  He grumbled that he told Charlie to fix it and said he would but he didn't.  I thanked Jeremy for fixing it and got a little insight on how Charlie may handle things.  He's a good kid but sometimes he needs a reminder or 10 to fix things.  I got to admit, sitting alone on Easter, I heard that vacuum cleaner going so much I could have sworn he used it on the ceiling.  It was sort of comforting to have Felix Unger downstairs with his cleaning tool even if he's a forgetful one.  I hope the leaf situation gets remedied soon.  I thought about taking them down to recycling myself but I thought would someone get mad?  Oh well. I cleaned up our neighbor's liquor bottles so Jeremy could get his car out for work.  I try.

It's probably a good thing that I see my doctor on Monday.  I do need something to feel better.  I thought I was ok being off the stuff I was.  I couldn't take the urge to find a restroom facility when I was out.  Helped me in some ways and well definitely helped me move fast when I was in a Target. Damn side effects.

I hope the good humans have a good day.  I really don't want to start my day.