Making an Impression

 I got my dental kit today to make my impressions for my mouth guard.  I think I pulled out the wrong tray for one of them.  I'll find out and I can do it over with the spare putty.  I was freaked out about the time but once I did it, I thought maybe this will work.

It's a little scary for me to make any purchase lately that's kind of significant. I set it up through Klarna.  I watched the instructional videos and a You Tube video to help me understand it better.  I did it on my own whether they think I have to take an impression over or not. I did it.  I can do it again if I have to do it.

I hate that I'm a teeth grinder.  I was mocked after a slumber party after I kept the other girls up.  Never got an invite and never wanted to get invited.  No thanks.  I always worried I was going to wind up being pranked because I seemed to be a good target for kids.  

I considered maybe going back to the dentist. I have that emergency credit card that I have used for groceries or miscellaneous.  I got my credit increased but the last thing I need is a big purchase on it.  Medical bills are the things that are killing me right now.

I got mom off to the lab to do her thing.  I checked for results and nothing yet but it's a weekend and I don't think we'll see anything until Monday.  I suspect it's just a gut bacteria issue from pneumonia. I don't know.

I started crying when we got home.  I was just frustrated by everything.  I've felt anxiety about my sleep as well too and I think I'm sleeping ok but how do you know?  I don't have the money for doctors to start digging.  I can't even afford to take my poor cat to the vet.  She's not mad, but I do want her to stay healthy.  I'm mad about the DMV and wished we would have done it on Monday but after my appointment I was totally ok with not dealing with anyone else.

I turned the news on for a bit and I turned it off.  It comes back to people voting for this nightmare.  It's hard to understand or want to be around anyone who thinks this is all ok.

I lost my air pods a few weeks ago with everything going on.  Not a big deal. I got some ear phones, the ones with a cord for old people like me to use.  I didn't care for the cheaper ones I got from Amazon because of the ear piece popping out.  I suspected I was going to lose them at some point so I think 4 years is a good record for hanging onto something so little.  It's just a thing.  I'd like to replace them and maybe I can when I get more added to my lifestyle and health account in early July.  I think I have about $120 left and I'll get another $375 added.  I think where the hell did the rest of the money go?  New yoga mat, damn audible and kindle books I guess.  A nice nail appointment.  I'll be better about spreading it out more the next six months.

I kind of missed going for my walk on the east side.  I was hoping to stop at the library I pass and find out if they have any beginner craft or knitting classes on a Saturday morning or maybe even an evening.  With summer around the corner, I wouldn't mind if it was at night.  Might even drive on the freeway to show how phobic I am of the freeway.  

Looks like Charlie is mowing the lawn.  Looks like Jeremy is on vacation or on a trip.  I got nervous when I saw the U Haul truck. I thought please don't tell me you two broke up.  I'm just getting used to this new normal after the nightmare of the monster.  

Ah, yes, the monster, he got himself an attorney. I suspect his mom did.  They were pleading not guilty but they had their discovery answered along with a plea offer.  I suspect that the customers just want their money back.  I suspect he's arrogant enough to take this to trial.

Bullies.  I feel overwhelmed by them lately.  

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