Bad Sleep Night

 I was up at 3 and maybe fell asleep for like 30 minutes before I got up at 5:20.  What a bad night.

Not sure what was making me anxious.  Maybe the month of April and a bit of sciatica.  I got to find something that helps with that.  Stupid damp weather.

I got to take my mom to the DMV.  Even though it's not for me, it still makes me anxious because I got to figure out what we're doing.  I got to admit.  I'm having a harder time realizing she's giving up her license.  She hasn't driven in over 15 years and she's good with it.  She didn't learn until her early 30s because you could take the bus every where.  She never really liked it and she got anxious about it at times with traffic.  I totally get it.  

I got a message back from the dental people that my lower impression looked good. I need to re-take the upper impression.  Damn it.  I got 1 right so that was good and hopefully after I submitted the new pictures the upper will be ok. This has to work.  It just has to work.

So Jimmy Kimmel is in the hot seat again.  I'm glad he didn't apologize.  We hear such horrible and heinous stuff everyday.  I'm losing Stephen Colbert's show. I need to find a new late night friend.

Well I have a short day and I got to make the best of it.  Maybe that's why I'm anxious.

I hope the good humans have a good day.  

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