Worthy of Love

What a strange day it was in the news, watching Pam Bondi with her burn book.  It just made me think of high school.  Well, maybe life itself.  If you point out something a person did wrong, they come back with an insult that doesn't make any sense.  

James Van Der Beek died from cancer.  I thought he was doing ok.  I watched Dawson's Creek when it came on.  It was a teen show but I liked it even in my 30s.  The fact that he was 48 is a hard thing to take.  I found out at the age of 46 and I wondered if I was going to be here at 56.  Well made it to 57 so I guess I'm ok.  I thought at the time, I'm supposed to worry about this when I'm older.  I wasn't young but I was in that age group where it just seemed not the right time. I know.  Younger people have gotten cancer and died.  I am one of the lucky ones.  I felt bad seeing that he was selling his stuff from Dawson's creek.  I know the feeling selling your stuff to help with bills.  It sucks.

I found a video he did on his 48th birthday.  It's so lovely.  I kind of feel my eyes getting misty thinking about it.  It was about how we're worthy of love.  He talked about other things but the point of it was we are worthy of love.

I am too. Worthy of love.  It's all I need. 

Have a good day good humans.  You're worthy of love.  Please don't forget it because I know how it is to feel that way that I'm not.


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