That Familiar Feeling

I think my mood went south when my mom asked if we could stop at Dollar Tree on the way home from Cermaks yesterday.  I wasn't mad that she asked. I thought ok, no problem.  

It was the parking lot that did it.  I get it.  December and January sucked weather wise.  First weekend in awhile, I think?  that it was super nice to be outdoors and I just felt like I had to play dodge ball with the cars. I dropped her off in front of the store and tried to find a parking spot that wasn't in a different county.

That wasn't all.  My mom was looking at rentals out of curiosity last night when we watched TV.  That is a reality that I may have to deal with at the end of this year.  I am hoping that the guys don't go higher than $100 because the rent situation is insane and I'm worried. I feel like I'm going to be wandering on the street like the woman I saw yesterday yelling at people Can you help me?  I felt bad I ignored her but I thought, lady I need to be joining you.  Sigh.

I was going to pay the bill that I just got online last night and I thought maybe I should hold off until I get my bonus money at the end of the month, which is only 12 days from now.  I still got to keep making payments on that damn ultrasound.  This month should take me to $380.  I don't know if I should pay it all off when I get the bonus money because I know I have other expenses coming up like my eye exam and new contacts. Feels like a luxury doesn't it?  

My head was just spinning about expenses last night. I think I'll be ok with medical "knock on wood" and even if I'm not, some of the tests I might have to have will be covered with insurance.

I don't think North Shore Pathologists billed my insurance and I have to deal with the collection agency after they sent me an itemized statement.  What a mess.  I haven't had time to call during the week because it's been so ungodly busy and I really haven't had a chance.  I got to make time this week because I don't want it killing my credit score.

I got my state taxes prepared and maybe my eyes are tired but I think I might have mailed the wrong stub when I did federal.  I thought I don't want to know. I put the papers away. I couldn't look at them anymore.  I'm mailing my state stuff today.

Wow.  Real easy for my mind to go crash like that, hey?  

These are the things I think about on a Saturday night.  Sigh.

I will go for my walk this morning.  Nice to be able to walk the hill yesterday without worrying about slipping on ice.  I did come across a little ice on one block, but it was pretty easy to walk.  Made me in a better mood yesterday morning.

Then I had to start thinking like that.  Dam it.  Thinking bad!  

Oh well.  It'll be ok.  Have a good day good humans.  

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