No Patience for the Inpatient

I know I've said it before. Many times. I don't do well with impatient people.  It makes me nervous.  It doesn't help my confidence.  It makes me crazy.  I have gotten angry with people who get impatient with me.

I was trying to figure out how to get this Tens thing put together.  I thought I had to buy an adapter. I was wrong.  I found a video on my phone that showed me how it got charged.  Damn it. I had it in the box.  Ugh.  I thought ok.  I can do this. I have it charging.  I will take the stupid cord I got off of Amazon thinking I needed that.  Patience.  I'll get it done.

My mom had commented on my high school boyfriend being so impatient the other day.  He was in trade school or college and I was a senior.  It was our first date and I guess according to my mom, he was impatient about waiting for me. I am not a person that keeps people waiting as far as getting myself together.  I think of the few relationships I've had and it's been with impatient men.  

In college, the math nerd I was with grew impatient with me about my learning skills. I struggled with math and when he would show me, he was rude and condescending towards me.  It usually turned into a tear fest.  Ironically it was my dad who was the King of Impatience that tried to help me study for a test one night.  I felt like I had a better grasp but unfortunately I fell short on the test and faced my boyfriend's wrath at the time about how dumb I was.  

I was talking to the thinker about the diva being impatient and put out with both of us when we tried to train her.  I explained to her that I spent about 90% of my day working with her initially and I thought well, this is someone that's not familiar with our systems, our software.  She needs the time.  She was happy to work on her own and very happy not to listen to me.  I shared there was more than one occasion where I got a message that said I'm waiting.  It's really a blessing I'm at home because the look on my face when I'd see those messages would tell a lot.  I did tell her once to please use be more patient.  I'm looking for the information.  I got an apology but she did it again.  She should have been Lois assistant.

Sometimes I need a moment to figure something out and to think about what I'm doing wrong, like in the case of the Tens thingie I'm working on.  Hopefully I'm not here a week later trying to figure it out.

I probably do have some learning issues where I need time to sort things through and I think I manage ok when it comes to learning.  With relationships?  I don't know how I wound up with some impatient jerks.  It doesn't make you want to relax when someone is so put out by you.

I get impatient too for a lot.  My mom had commented after I trained the diva, you deserve a big raise because you've been nothing but nice and patient with that woman even if she got angry or frustrated.  I knew what it was like when people were impatient with me when it came to training.  Chloris was the worst with me.  Initially he was ok but he would have raging fits when I'd ask a question.  Lunatic.

You don't learn properly when someone is impatient with you.  You get nervous.  You make mistakes.  You get anxiety and you tighten up because you're afraid of not being good enough.

Not good enough.  Recurring theme.