The Grass isn't Always Greener

I had wished that I had my old healthcare insurance because my deductible wasn't as high.  It was Unied Healthcare.  They just dropped Ascension.  That would have been bad.  No way am I in the mood to find all new doctors.  I realized I may be finished with one doctor - hopefully, no offense but I'm good if I don't ever get cancer again but I feel safe and comfortable with the medical providers I have.  That would have sucked if I had to find all new ones.

I am worried about my premiums going up.  All I seem to see on the news is lawmakers and oh, maybe a President doing memes or AI videos of other lawmakers in sombreros and funny mustaches.  Childish.  Just keep playing with people's lives.  So stupid.

Glad it's Friday.  Hopefully I can get through more of what I missed from last week done and well on Monday.  Next week there's a conference that you can watch online or be in person if you're near one of the locations. I am no longer near one.  I'm well out of the realm and I was asked about it.  I suspected that the diva had something to do with that since she was so determined to find out why I wasn't going.  I made mention of my mom having vision issues as well and said it would make me nervous to be that far away with the commute.

For years, my mom had to deal with a lot on her own because I was at work and didn't want to bother me.  Sometimes she would call.  Still.  I've kind of had it with having to please others while my mom is left on her own.  When we moved here, Frick got the time off she needed and I got the shaft for time so my mom came to our new apartment and got stuff set up.  She took the bus while I worked during the day and then we would come over to bring boxes at night.  I had a day where the cable guys showed up earlier than expected.  They said they wouldn't set up the phone.  I got a call at work and my mom was just angry.  Not at me but at Time Warner.  They had set everything up the year before but this time, they had separated things out.

I left work early and came home to talk to them. I set up an appointment for the following Monday to have someone to work with the phones.  I left a message with my manager that I would be late.  My mom had apologized that Friday afternoon for calling me.  I said we didn't get the time that I should have gotten because Frick had to be on vacation even though she is all the time.  Frick has family members that can help with her mom.  Mine live out of state so it's just me.  It doesn't matter if it's Frick or the Diva.  I don't have the people that I need in my live that can help me so I will put my foot down about some things.  I had mentioned when I got asked if there was something local, I would have happily gone to it. I know I'd never see Frick or Frack so yeah. I would be good.  Might see Lois but I can deal with that.

There was a morning where my mom called me and she said that she had trouble getting up.  She would get up and feel dizzy.  I had to drive home that day and take her to her doctor than we had to go to the hospital.  She was dehydrated.  She was diagnosed with diabetes months later.

Grace isn't something that's been shown to me too much in my life.  I don't demand it but when I need a little help, I get the outrage from people like Frick or the Diva that I'm spoiled.  Sigh.  Hardly.  I wish we did have just one person who could watch out for us and we could do the same.

My mom feels guilty when she goes to the food pantry and thinks well, we're not doing that bad.  I said remember all the times we helped others and they didn't do anything when we were at our lowest?  I'm not talking about me getting sick.  That was bad.  It was the same with my dad.  People say they're there for you and then they magically disappear.

I am going to try to have a good day.

I hope the good humans have a good day.