Mid Afternoon Malaise

It was kind of hard to get myself going this morning. I got my steps in. Got more to go.  I think I have a little bit of malaise going on.   I still have time before I go back but the reality is starting to set in and I feel blue.  It could be worse. I could have to go to an office.

I had gotten a response about my complaint with Secura.  I guess they did reply to me last year.  They attached the email that they sent.  I'll confess when I screwed up but I would have remembered seeing that. I wonder if it went to spam which I never look at because it's well, spam.  I don't want viagra.  I'm good.  Delete.  It doesn't matter.  I'm done with them.  Their excuse was they didn't have enough information.  Yes, they did.  It wasn't even a matter of the process.  It was their adjuster that was so rude that needed to be called out.  What's done is done.  Bye bye.

I was listening to Hillary Clinton's book and I kind of suspect this was where the depression kicked in.  She was talking about Dr. Vivek Murthy who was President Obama's surgeon General and Biden's as well talk about loneliness.  She talked about how it can affect your health and I think that just got to me.  I'm used to hearing about Agent Orange and all the horrible stuff he does but hearing about the ailments loneliness can bring?  Well that made me cry on the way home.  I was convinced I was going to die when I got diagnosed with cancer because I thought maybe I wasn't meant for a long life.  

I think it's kind of affecting me now.  I keep wondering what did I do wrong?  Am I that horrible of a person?

I feel like I am.  I'll snap out of it but damn.  That's still hitting me hard.  

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