Thoughts and Observations

Maybe people think that my communication major is garbage and they may not be wrong.  I did learn a lot about behavior and communication skills.  

I can pick up on body language at times.  Frick is a perfect example.  I knew when she was up to something with me when she would walk past my desk and not make eye contact.  She would get a certain tone in her voice when she wasn't being honest with me or suspected I was going to call her out on her lying.  

I'm not always right.  I know when I hear the words "We need to talk" that makes my heart drop.  It can mean a lot of things but if someone has a serious look on their face, that means I'm going for a drive to Humboldt Park and dumped for a whore that works at Target.  Oops.  Too much?  You get my point.  

I can sense something is in the air and if I'm wrong, I'm wrong.  There was a meeting with our sub group about helping out the areas I'm in.  Why all of a sudden?  Anytime I got told to ask others, it was met with silence.  Maybe there is a push for me to get more assistance.  Maybe there's a push for me somewhere else.  This is what happens when you've been dealing with the lurker for almost 4 years.  I'm just wary right now.

Did I mention I don't like it when people play games and aren't direct with me?  I couldn't understand why I was being muted during a call because I figured I would get asked a question at some point.  Then I was made aware that there was a background noise that people could hear.  Oh damn.  It was my ceiling fan that sounds like a spaceship is coming.  Well someone pointed it out a year ago and I apologized.  I got up and turned it off.  I apologized and explained I lost my air conditioning over the weekend so I had all the fans blowing.  I never got a response.  I thought I was some IT issues.  Kind of wished that I got asked initially before this game of mute and unmute took place.  Games. I don't like games.  

At least I do have the central air back.  For the life of me, I don't know why I felt the need to walk as far as I did to see that Monterrey Market will be opening in my neighborhood tomorrow.  It was a good walk but oh my god, did I sweat.  I hope there's no rain at lunch so I can walk.  It just feels good to have central air back.

We'll see what mysteries unfold for me today.  Maybe it's my imagination.  I've observed a lot with the lurker and when they are involved, my radar goes up.  I live for the day for when the lurker is out of my daily life.  I've had periods of time where I didn't have to worry and lately, I've worried.  

I hope the good humans have a good day.