More Air

I hope Charlie texts this morning with some idea when we can expect the heating and air guy back.  This morning it's ok but yesterday it just sucked.  I had another fan put in my room while I went to sleep.  My mom thought maybe we should use fans more.  Maybe we've become too spoiled with central air.  Maybe I like breathing better.  I like to breathe and not sweat bullets.  It was just stuffy in my room yesterday. I pulled the curtains close to maybe help with the air circulation.  I don't need to blast central air but I really like it and I'm not that spoiled with central air.  If I asked for a pair of matching shoes, then maybe.  

I am going to get out of the house and probably find a store where I can stand in the frozen foods section for a good 20 minutes and cool off.  This isn't as bad as when it went out about 7 or 8 years ago.  That was miserable.  It was heaven when I walked into a store one morning before work.  I never wanted to leave their beautiful air conditioning.  

I'm going to try not to think about anyone lurking on anything I'm working on.  I know I'm not a good fit for the group.  I know I definitely wouldn't fit in with Irma's group and so help me god if I got put back with Frick and Frack.  I do feel like if there's a change, I might be the one that gets looked at.  I just think the lurker is going to find a way to pay me back for that correction I documented.  It's called taking accountability and if I get punished for it, that says a lot about others.  Just me.  I know how that goes.  Do the right thing.  Take a kick in the shins for it.

I'd like to get a Starbucks this morning.  I think it's safe to say I earned it. I had a better week with the scale and I got to make it two weeks so that's really my only indulgence as far as sugar goes.  I had a slice of cake that my mom brought home from the food pantry and that was maybe it for any sugar.  I need like 8 or 10 good weeks so I'll be mindful but this week was a success.  I've been getting out every night after work and going for my walk to Walgreens.  I do up the hill and then down the hill on my way back.  Good walking route.

I hope the good humans have a good day. I hope we get our central air back.  If that makes me spoiled, I'm spoiled.  I like cool air! 

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