A Little Grace, A Little Help

I just got home from getting my hair cut.  Rare thing for me to be out after 6.  It was a nice night for a drive home. I took Wisconsin Avenue.  I'm afraid Greenfield didn't look like such a hot way to go home at this hour.  I was hoping I had more time to stop at the new grocery store for another watermelon but welp.  That's ok.

It was ok that I had the afternoon off.  I cover two areas where most cover one.  I struggle with one in particular.  Mostly because the other area takes up a lot of my time.  I get some help but it's with the easy stuff.  It's not with the scheduling so much which I suspect gets forced upon others.  During our weekly conversation, I just felt sad when I listened to the others talk about easier areas that they love to cover while I feel like I sit on an island by myself. I wish I could take the easy way.  I'm not really sitting on an island.  That would be too nice.  I'm sitting in the desert basically.  With maybe the occasional casino. Sigh.  I. GIVE. UP.

Meanwhile, I have been trying my hardest to focus on this more difficult area and I have someone higher up who has been hounding me with details and well kind of being difficult.  This person did my job at one point and wants to be an advocate or a mentor to us.  I appreciate the help and the understanding. I wish there was more understanding.  I also wish that this person would realize that I've done this role for over 20 plus years and I think I can manage a thing or two.  Please show me some grace.  I have had a few corrections put in for me from this person and I had to explain too why I did what I did because of time differences and I will follow up.  I thought, you better do it before you sign off.  So I did and I thought I had it squared away with date and time.  No.  This date or that date would be better. I promised I would see if that would work tomorrow.  This is why we need that time away because it's just too much.  It's too much is expected and it's never enough some days.  A little grace is not possible.

The diva started today during our conversation with directions and dictating what to do since she'll be making a grand appearance somewhere on Thursday.   I can't imagine what the reaction would be if I talked like that.  Probably crickets or a call to the complaint hotline.

So tonight, it was nice to have a student wash my hair and massage my tired scalp.  Nobody has to know my appointment got moved.  I'm entitled to take an afternoon off from the madness.  I didn't have to pay for parking.  I got home a little late, but I feel ok.  I had to laugh at my cartoon villain grey showing when my hair was wet.

I need a little grace from people.  I need a little help from people. I don't really get that.  I feel like I'm asking for a gold tiara when I have that expectation of people.

I don't ask for much.  I pretty much get flipped off when I do.  

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