Failing Feelings

 Feelings of failure. 

Sounds crazy.  Not my fault this is happening, but I am feeling like I'm the failure.

Worried about my appointment in the morning. It's not the big deal.  I'm afraid of letting my emotions get the better of me.

Feelings.  Why did I have to get so many of them?  

Sigh.  

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Feeling a bit used

About a month ago, the diva had an incident with the lurker.  They were asked to document other incidents and the diva had sent me a copy.  I scanned it.  It was small print but I thought wow.  She really documented in a whole chart. I printed it up to take a closer look tonight and I was bothered by what I read.  I only skimmed it on my phone but looking at it on page in front of me in bigger print was a whole different story.  Crazy story telling and my name is in there.  I thought don't speak for me, diva!  Keep my name out of your mouth!  Sigh.  I feel used for some strange reason.  Used me for learning the basic and now I've been kicked to the curb.  This is familiar territory.   Usually when people say I can't stand drama, they love it.  They're the ones starting it.   This is why I have walls up and I don't want to have walls up.  I kind of thought maybe this is someone that I can be friendl...
Read more

Here goes the waiting game

So I waited this morning and got my phone call.  Can't do anything until April 8th.  I'll be driving out to their other hospital for another screening and ultrasound.  So the fun begins with the wait game.  I got the consoling voice on the phone when I said I knew it was them.  Sigh. I told my mom I thought things would be better after I went through it the first time.  People left and well good riddance.  I've been worried about our landlord possibly selling the duplex and after reading about how hard his life is?  I want to scream. I finally have a little money in my checking and now it's going for medical.  Great quality of life.  I hope they take payments.  Everyone keeps taking from me. You know, there wasn't love lost when my ex left me and got married.  It's the How come he gets to find his true love and I don't?  How come he lies and does bad things and finds his true love?  I did so much for this person who w...
Read more

Grey Wednesday - Or is it Tuesday?

It's great to have a four day week but can be so confusing. I told myself an event wasn't happening until Thursday.  No, no, it was for today.  Glad I caught it.  It's always been a too fast week for me. I don't imagine I'll see Charlie or Jeremy until later this week.  Charlie works an hour away in Madison and from our place it adds another 30 minutes.  I told my mom it's really safe to say we won't see Charlie sitting on the porch with two dogs vaping while his dogs bark.  They're not home enough for pets.  Glad they're ok with our Precious. I did another round of pick ups for mom at Kohl's last night. I didn't mind.  Nice to get out of the house. I just wanted to make sure I got everything straight.  She got a great deal on everything so it's fine by me to go get them.  I made a stop at Wal-Mart to get a few things before I headed home. As I pushed my cart out, I realized I left my damn bag at the check out.  Luckily they had it....
Read more