New Day New Start

Well I feel ok.  I don't feel like bursting into tears this morning so that's good.  Friday was Corinne's birthday and she was happy with her little trinkets. I sent her a Jasmine Crockett refrigerator magnet and a Zelensky pin.  Can never go wrong with her and Zelensky. I know she loves Jasmine Crockett.  I figured she needed a little hope reminder.  We all do.  I didn't tell her my anxiety about the living situation.  I don't want her to worry.  Or drive her away. I don't think it would but I have been down this road too many other people that I'm just down with keeping it bottled up.  I'm thankful for her friendship and she does do an excellent job at making me laugh on days I don't feel like it.  

Laughter is the best key with me and making me feel better.  I love to laugh, especially when I don't expect it from someone like in Corinne's case. I always knew she was funny when we worked together but now it's like damn.  Did she really say that?  Last night, I found Ellen Degeneres' old show on Amazon Prime on their live channels and watched some of the episodes.  Kind of funny seeing Ellen dating guys for starters.  She was good back then and it's a shame that things happened the way they did with her talk show.  I found Season 1 on eBay for my mom to help her with sleeping.  She keeps TV on to help her sleep and she plays all of the John Mulaney specials from Netflix or Ellen's shows.  I figured this would help and she was over the moon to get it and she found Season 2 for a good deal.  Now that people hate Ellen I guess it's cheaper to find her old shows on eBay. I don't hate Ellen.  I wish she would do more stand up specials.

I did tell Corinne about the landlord's plans and the clothing line. I thought she'd get a kick out of the fact that the business follows JD Vance. I made a salacious joke about couches that I won't repeat.  I said the young woman he brought by seemed very genuine and sincere.  She works with broken people and he's made us broke so she does seem like a good match.

I talked about it last night with my mom that if she were to buy it and kept our rent reasonable we would stay.  We thought maybe somewhere in the neighborhood we could find something.  I wish I would find something in my old neighborhood but I know those days are gone.  Bay View became too cool for school.  It's cool to play poor and working class. Whatever. I've had that mastered for years.  I can teach that class, people. We did see a reasonably priced duplex a few blocks away from us.  We would be ok with anything if they let us keep our senior cat.  She does not play in the bath tub with her kitty litter or vomit black sludge.  If she did, she'd be on tour with Ozzy Osbourne.

I am going to get out and get fresh air.  I know that'll help me.  I haven't had much of a chance to get out and walk because I've either been waiting on plumbers or we drove around yesterday.  I didn't feel like it after the long week which is bad.  I feel like a loser going to my doctors soon.  Here I am.  Still fat.  Sorry you got to deal with me.  Sigh. I know.  Don't think like that.  It kills me when I hear, I don't go to the doctor because they're going to tell me I'm fat.  No, they don't.  They just want you to do better.  Some are kinder with their messaging than others.  It's the ones that are kinder that make you feel like you let them down.  I'm not avoiding.  Just feel bad I haven't done better than I hoped.

New week.  I get a paycheck with a nice increase so that's a woo hoo for me.  I look at my bank statement and it looks better than it has.  I hate for anything big to happen this year that makes it shrink and makes it harder week to week.  

I'm going to find a good book to listen to this morning and do my walking.  That'll be a good start.  I'm going to drive by a place in the neighborhood and check it out.

I hope the good humans have a good day.