The Great Stevia Hunter

My mom ordered Stevia from Wal-Mart I believe? And it came around 6 last night and was convinced that the monster probably stole it.  No, he'd probably throw it in a snowbank but I get it.  And I got it out of our mailbox.  I knew if I didn't go down there this morning she'd worry so I got today's spiffy sweats on and went downstairs.  It was small enough that it fit in our mailbox.  I'm the great Stevia hunter.  I just got her some.  Good grief.

I have my tiny tiger sitting next to me on the footstool.  She's been such a snuggly little tiger with this cold snap.  She goes through spells where she'll come up on my bed and fall asleep.  There are times when I go to make up my bed and I can't because I got Precious-locks fast asleep in it.  Lately, she hasn't so damn it, I've had to make up my bed.  I'm not quick on that since Covid hit five years ago.  I thought the other night she just wanted her treats filled up and I put her on her table.  She trotted back over to the couch where I sat and looked at me like she wanted to come back which I was thrilled.  I normally know either she needs more food or her litter box changed.  Hanging out with me?  Well I'm more than ok with that.  She's such a tender heart.  Anyone who has apprehensions about cats would take a shine to her with her shyness and how beautiful her coloring is.

No, I don't look forward to my day. I hope it's productive. I am feeling kind of abused?  I don't think that the right word.  Maybe dumped on is better.  Not my first time at that rodeo.  It's been years of it and right now is no different.  When I was in the office, I had signed up to take a Microsoft Word class online to help build up my skills so I was prepared on a Thursday afternoon to listen and learn.  Well, we got a last minute audit spreadsheet that needed to be done before Friday at noon.  Great.  I thought maybe today is not my day.  Lorna was out and Frick had actually said why don't we take one part and meet in the middle?  Great.  The next morning, I noticed that Frick had done the files for the attorneys she supported but not mine. I asked her about it.  Someone offered to work on Lorna's files since she was out so Frick just worked on her stuff.  Never told me.  I wanted to cry.  I missed out on a class not just because of the audit but because Frick was so selfish and rude at times like this.  It was ok to dump on me.  I am going through the same feelings right now.

I have off next Friday, I see my dentist the following Friday morning so I'll be able to take a morning off even though that can turn out to be not so great.  I see you like the sweets, Connie.  Well, you've been seeing me for over 20 years, and you haven't figured it out yet?  A cavity is easier to handle than other dental work.  I have at least part of a day off or a couple days off here and there the next month.  I am hoping that I can manage my day better today.  It was good to have yesterday afternoon off even if my emails will keep growing more than the dog poop in the backyard.

It was kind of a nice surprise to see the walk shoveled and my landlord had thrown out salt.  He even shoveled a spot where we check for the mail.  I would have thrown out some salt today because it was a skating pond by the side of the house.  Maybe we'll actually get some mail today.  

I hope the good humans have a good day and don't feel dumped on.  

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