Seeing Signs of Progress

 I guess it's really 3 more days, but hoping they do move this Friday.  I am ok if it's on Saturday.  At least I'm seeing signs.  Yesterday, the monster put out a really nice stand by the garbage.  My mom wanted to know what it looked like so I took a picture.  It's sitting in the trunk of my car.  Yeah.  I'm bad.  She wouldn't shut up about it so when I went out to get the 24 pack of water that was sitting in my car, it was light enough to throw in the trunk.  He used our washer and dryer so we're just paying it back.  I can't fit anything else in there.  Sorry, mom.  The garbage people pick up tomorrow so if he put anything else out after that, then maybe.  If he's going.

I walked to the post office after work and found out that it was close.  This may explain why we are not getting our mail.  It wouldn't shock me if this location closed.  Honestly, it sucks.  I'll have to take my lonely little eBay package to West Milwaukee after work.  I'm bringing mom in case someone is out in the garage sorting his stuff.

When I came back, I was going to cut through the alley and I saw that the garage door was open.  I knew he was there so I walked around the front and hurried inside so he wouldn't see me.  That made me happy.  This is maybe a sign that he is moving this weekend.  This morning he was in the basement taking some things out of his storage locker.  Could we actually get some peace after this weekend?  I sure hope so.

I got asked yesterday how I was doing.  I was worried maybe there was a complaint because it seemed like I was just hitting strikes every where I turned. I had a moment when someone who's been really kind to me corrected me on a mistake. I felt depressed.  I let down the one person who's been my biggest ally.  I thanked them and apologized.  I felt tired after that.  It's been too much and I'm worried about time being denied because of the lurker's sudden disappearing act.  I received understanding and a kudos for trying to manage and a curiosity about an incident that happened with the lurker's friend.  Will anything come out of this?  I don't know.  

I did some retail therapy and bought Joy Reid's books.  The price was in my budget and if I'm going to splurge, reading is better than a bunch of shoes.  I got Medger and Myrlie on Audible and she had a couple of others for a low price for my Kindle.  Thanks, Megyn Kelly for pissing me off and wanting to do something for a woman of color who didn't deserve the shaft.  Buzz of Megyn, you blonde haired troll.  

I did get something with my bonus money that I feel silly about.  I used to shop at a store called L'Occitane for awhile. I hadn't in maybe 5 or 6 years. I used to get their hand cream until I had problems with breaking out and I know fragrance in hand lotions is not a good idea.  I ordered this vanilla almond body lotion.  Their line is so nice and not overwhelming in scent.  I have no problem just getting my Dove or Nivea stuff from Target or Wal-Mart, I just wanted to do something nice and feel good.  I found out their products didn't have parabens so that's how I wound up at their store initially.

I just wanted to get something that made me feel better.  Yesterday, I felt like such a slob coming back from walk and I was all sweaty and gaining weight has sucked. I don't want to be a John Fetterman this summer. I know I'll lose weight.  My confidence rating was never in a high range, but I'd just like to bring it up a point.  Just a point, please.  I need that.  I know I'll get there.  Long road, unfortunately.

Good sign that the monster has been in the basement.  That sentence doesn't sound right.

I hope the good humans have a good day.  I think next week will be a good week.