Hanging on the East Side This Afternoon

It was a better day today.  Not completely but I'll take my wins.

I finally got my hair colored.  First time in 6 months.  If I manage my money better, hopefully I can go every 3 months.  Or four.  Don't know if I can do the 6 again.  Mixed feelings on the grey, but it was coming in more like streaks and spurts like I did it on purpose.  Now it's a dark brown with a touch of copper.  It feels good and I needed it.

I was glad to get away from my daily life.  I'm just frustrated.  I really don't want to talk to anyone in my daily life this week.  When I admit I'm in a bad mood?  That's pretty big.  I ignore it and say it's ok.  No, lately things aren't ok.  I'm managing but frustrated.  Moment of my eyes leaking when I discovered something else so stupid but it passed.  I thought I have enough time and I need to work on taking that time   Just when I think I get momentum, I come across something that's just mean.  Nice to step away from it.

The bad mood part comes from being dumped on and when mistakes happen, I say to myself, Well, maybe if others took accountability or made an effort I wouldn't feel so f-ing overwhelmed but that isn't going to happen so suck it up.  I didn't feel like sucking it at that moment.  I just don't feel like saying Everything is fine.  No.  Not really.  

I did see that my landlord was on the Ring camera in the basement.  I wasn't sure why but I suspected maybe it was the leak.  He called me and said he was in the basement.  He had a plumber coming and just wanted me to know.  He said that the monster hasn't said a word to him so he didn't know.

Yeah. I kind of wondered about that.  The monster took off while the landlord was here with the plumber and while I was gone.  Interesting.  If we don't get rid of him, it wasn't because the landlord fell in love with him, I guess.  I don't feel so bad.  I guess next week may not be a celebration, but interesting to see what happens next.  

I got down earlier than I expected from my hair appointment so I drove over to the Panera bread on the east side for my late lunch or early dinner?  I just wanted to enjoy having the time away and I listened to my Viola Davis book on Audible.  I was surprised to see a drop box by the library on the east side for voting. I thought they did away with them?  Don't tell Elon Musk!  

Hopefully my grumpy mood won't make an appearance during the day.  I am just growing weary of those who walk all over people and you're supposed to tell them they're fabulous.  NO.  YOU PEOPLE SUCK!  Just a general overall feeling.

Hmm, I wonder if I will see a police van next Friday?  I'll have to buy some popcorn.  

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