Five Days or maybe six?

I know technically people move on the 1st.  I guess it's a possible five days of them still living here and the sixth will be GET OUT.  My mom had other choice words but it's Sunday so maybe I should refrain from saying that word.

Amazing that I thought something was wrong with Precious as she sits on my laptop as I type this.  Yeah, I'll move her.  She played me with her dramatic on Wednesday by laying on the floor, depressed.  If there was an academy award for cat acting, she'd be in the running.  I just got stabbed in the arm with her claw for taking her off my work area.  My arm looks like I get beat up by her sometimes.  I wish she would let me trim those nails. I have so many snagged sweaters from her getting stuck to me.  She's happy so eh, I got a snagged sweater collection.  How many people can say that?

I got a call from the pharmacy that my only prescription has no more refills.  Well, good.  I'm not a fan of that pill either.  I'm in that time frame of things running out. I still have at least one more bottle, but I may have to call it in a week before my appointment. I'd prefer not to take it at all but I may pass out in Whole Foods if I miss a dosage.  Definitely having a conversation about switching.  I kind of would like a break from them for awhile to see how I am but considering the state of the world? I know that won't end well.  Thank you voters for keeping me on anti-depressants.  You all suck.  

No, I didn't think life would be unicorns and lollipops with Kamala.  I didn't think hatred would be an acceptable norm like it is now.  The January 6th people would still be in jail.  Life would still be hard.  It just wouldn't have felt so scary like it does now.  

My mom decided not to go back to the food pantry because of that guy that harassed her.  She said if she got her Snap benefits cut, she'll go back.  I said we'll do ok.  Let's just go one day at a time. I should know soon about my raise and I'll get my bonus deposited.  I have been stocking up on stuff since I got my federal tax refund.   Just trying to make the money last the year and if we do find something, then maybe we'll have money.   My credit score can only get better as time goes on. I made some extra payments for my debt.  I am setting a bigger payment for my car and will keep trying to whittle away on that loan.  Just one day at a time.

I think maybe today I'll listen to JB Pritzker's state of the union address he did for his Illinois constituents.  From what I heard, it was a fantastic speech.  I need to find a little hope in these times.  I need to find the light keepers.

I hope the good humans have a good day.  

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