Year Ending

It wasn't all bad this year.  I got to see family and I got to see Corinne who is well, family, in my opinion.  

The semi hitting me, my mom falling in the basement, the check being stolen out of the mailbox was not good.  Neither was Orange Foolius getting re-elected.  

I'm not hoping for a magnificent year.  An uncomplicated year, maybe.  I know we will have to be on the hunt for a new place and that may take some time.  I don't know if there is enough time with the monster downstairs.

Since he's been going to work on a semi regular basis, it was kind of nice, but lately he seems to be a problem.  Point in case the Christmas Eve serenade and the door slamming.  Last night, I caught him on the Ring camera by the circuit breaker box. I turned on the hall light and opened the door which prompted him to go upstairs.  What was he doing?  I don't know and it's not the first time I've caught him on camera looking at it.

When I called WE Energies this past summer, I found out we pay 2/3rds more than his apartment.  Is it possible that he's managed to put his electricity on ours?  I don't know but if he could, he would.  I hate how he does stuff like this.  He manages to make it worse for us financially.

I can't go to the landlord because he'll just look at me like a hysterical female and consider, well, you know, she's been sick so she's probably not well in the head either.  

Yeah.  This stuff makes me feel invisible.

I would actually like to be seen by someone for a very good reason.  

I'm so tired emotionally.  

At least I only have 2 days this week and can maybe relax a little bit with the time off?  I'll have to leave the house to relax for that part.  Sigh.  I hate that guy downstairs.  

Have a good day good humans.  Hopefully the year ends better for everyone.  Here's hoping I don't get a repeat of what happened on New Year's Eve.

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