The No Good Very Bad Day of the Zevo Queen

 Well this day sucked.  I seem to have mastered the art of killing flies.  I bought another bottle of Zevo.  It's not as bad as it was yesterday but we get the stragglers.  My landlord asked if we needed an exterminator.  We don't.  I think once the weather cools down they'll go bye bye bye. I wish someone else would.  

What a shock.  He knows how to close a door properly and he sure is quiet.  I sprayed the Zevo spray on the side of the house underneath their kitchen window. I hope they choke on the scent.  It's giving me a bit of a headache even thought it's not loaded with chemicals.  I'm sure it's got something.  Disgusting pigs.  Go home to your parents.  I'm not your babysitter.  I think I'm messy but not like this. 

I realize too I should have pulled that garbage can down during the week. I didn't realize they were going to put their garbage in it.  I thought they were cleaning out junk.  PIGS.  JUST PIGS.  I'm surprised that the dogs aren't barking up a storm.  I suspect the landlord told him that he was going pay for the exterminator.  He should pay me the $15 for the Zevo and my energy bill.  PIG.  MONSTER PIG.

And oh, yes, the lurker.  I already know what will happen after I sent my email with the screen shot.  You're too sensitive.  It's not what they meant.  YES IT WAS.  They have harassed me without overtly harassed me if that makes sense.  I just burst into tears.  I was so hoping that with this new assignment, it would be better, but because I always seem to be behind, the lurker decided this would be the week they would take the steam roller and run over my feet.  I have had 3 years of it.  I am not being sensitive. I am being targeted.  Why?  Jealousy, I don't know.  I don't know why someone would be jealous of me.  I'm not a jerk to people?  How hard is it to be nice to others?  Even people who are rude to me, I just make a face and take solace in the fact that I don't have to see them at the grocery store.  This person has sent me screen shots of mistakes I made and sent me a note of what I did wrong.  They passed people off on me and told them I would call them back.  I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.  I know what will be said.  I said my peace.  I don't trust this person and I will never trust this person.  I already made my thoughts be known.  Whey they start acting like a human being, I still won't trust them.  The TRUST IS BROKEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ugh.  My mom even hugged me today.  My mom will. She says she doesn't think about it.  Between flies and the lurker, I was just sad and couldn't stop crying.

I needed that hug.  

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