Secret Superpowers

 Well I adore Gus Walz, Tim Walz's son.  I kind of drifted in and out early in the speech as I fought the sleep monsters, but I did see Gus Walz's reaction to his dad and his love.  I love that his parents see that his challenges are superpowers.  I thought Ted Lasso was a TV character but I think we are seeing Ted Lasso with a family and I'm here for it.  We need more of it.  I re-watched it this morning and caught what I missed.  Yeah.  That made me cry.  Had to watch Bill Clinton again.  He is the explainer of things, except Hannibal Lecter.  

I love how the Walz's framed their son's disability as something that is positive.  I have mentioned my nephew and his challenges and there was a lot we didn't understand when he was a little boy.  He got his diagnosis.  He had a hard time with how bad kids treated him.  I remember taking him and my niece to a couple of playgrounds to burn off their energy.  We wound up leaving both playgrounds because of kids bullying my nephew.  My niece ran up to me at the second playground and told me what was happening and I turned to see boys chasing my nephew and throwing sand at him.  I was pissed.  The boys ran when they saw me and I might have hissed.  My nephew didn't quite understand what had happened but he was a little tearful and we left.  We probably went and bought candy because that's how I cope.  I heard more stories from my sister when they lived here and how people treated him and the names they called him.  

I don't see him the way that the small minded people do. I think he's a thoughtful and kind person.  He's wonderful with their cat and dog.  He's very kind when Precious will come around.  He's a good uncle to Charlotte.  He is a library page and he takes his job very seriously.  He is very smart and loves his books.  He is a good human and I love being around him when he visits.  I am very happy he wants to stay with me and my mom.  He worried about the TV being too loud while I worked and I reminded him that Charlotte clucked like a chicken while I worked the day before, so I'm good if he wanted to watch game shows.

It wouldn't shock me if I got a diagnosis that I might be on the spectrum or have some learning disability.  I was going to be placed in the learning disability room because my kindergarten teacher thought there was something wrong with me and that I had some neurological issue.  I might have and still might, I don't know.  A neurologist was disgusted I got sent. I did kindergarten again at a different school and I did fine. That same teacher also flunked everyone except one person in my class so it's debatable if something was wrong with me.

I have had my challenges with processing information and learning.  I know I am awkward with socializing.  I am used to being alone even if I am lonely at times.  I was a B+ student in high school and B- in college.  I didn't try my first year in college but when I wanted to find my footing, I worked like nobody else and fought for those grades because there was an expectation of failure from some.

The boyfriend from college didn't think I belonged in college.  He didn't think I was smart.  He made fun of me in that department and I took it.  It sucked when I think about it.  He even told my mom that i didn't belong.  When he dumped the first time, his new girlfriend's ex told me that I was made fun of for being dumb.  I was when it came to choices in men, or stupid boys but we can all be guilty of our choices in love.

I have been kind of simple, mocked, caught people rolling their eyes at me when I get excited about something like the DNC convention.  I see it and I'm aware of it.  I had Cloris say that maybe I can go to the same place that one of the Kennedys went to after she had a lobotomy.

I may be a lot of things but I'm not mean.  If I tease someone, you are in on the joke.  You are not the joke.  I am aware of people's feelings.  I am aware of someone who is not very nice or sincere.  I'll be the polite, but we're not hanging at Starbucks.

I have my own superpowers.