Not Sure What the Day will bring

 Please no flies, monsters, lurkers, bullies, anything that has made my week difficult. I earned this Saturday.  Tears and fly swatters all.

I am going to go out this morning and maybe drive over to Bay View.  Not the cool section but maybe somewhere I can walk and see a random For Rent sign.  Even if we can't afford it or do it at the moment, I need a sign of hope right now.  A sign from the universe that it'll be ok.

This goofy cat conned my mom into feeding her before I got up. I was awake and could hear my mom talking to Precious.  Did I feed her when I got up?  A little bit.  Yeah, she conned me too.  She's skinny.  I worry about her losing more weight.  She's been holding her own the last year.  She sits by me at the computer when I type.  My little shadow.

I was hoping that the monster would go away for the three day weekend but lucky us, it doesn't appear that anyone wants him around.

We are taking a break from driving around this weekend and I am good with that. I know I'm technically on a hunt but I'll be multi tasking and getting a walk in while I do it.  I am almost done with Wes Moore book The Other Wes Moore on Audible. 

It appears I have some weird cyst going on.  I don't even want to say where but it's on my face and it grosses me out.  I hate that.  It'll go away.  I don't plan on doing my own surgery because that'll end badly.  Just my luck to run into someone this weekend.  It's not visible really.  Mostly to me but oh, they are so annoying.  I knew something was going on. I get this something feels sore on my face and surprise!  I'll hit myself in the face with a book before I see anyone about it.  Too embarrassed.  My step-dad used to get them. It was something about the environment he worked in that made his skin oily.  He made drive shafts for trucks for a living.  He had to see a doctor for a different reason one time and let's just say the doctor took care of all of them and made my dad look like he got beat up by a cat when he came home.

I think I just grossed myself out.   I just want this freak thing on my face to go bye bye.

I have been reading Kara Swisher's Burn Book on my phone before I go to sleep.  I don't read a lot on my iPhone and well someone took my Kindle and that's ok.  I worry about my vision too.  My eye doctor said it was good that I switch it up between reading and listening to books. I never dreamed I would enjoy books so much by listening to them.  It's like a special treat for me to listen to my book on a weekend even if I'm just driving somewhere.  Makes me feel like I'm going on a vacation.

Things that bring me joy?  Books.  There's nothing sweeter than sitting down and reading a good book.  Or listening to a good book.  

Have a good day good humans.  Enjoy the long weekend. 

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