Nothing Saturday

No cruising on the freeway for me this morning and taking a leisurely walk to view Lake Michigan.  A trip to Aldis with my mom and then a walk on my own with my Audible book.  Budget girl summer for me.  

I'm just feeling kind of off this morning.  I overslept and I was ok with it.  I could always use extra sleep time because I seem to lack it during the week.

I wound up watching an episode of Celebrity Family Feud from Christmas because the news just upset me. I know?  Why do I watch so much of it?  I like to punish myself maybe?  I did watch Lawrence O'Donnell.  He always kind of puts things in perspective in a nice way.  Some of the others, like Joy Reid, I don't need to hear the scaring is sharing stories.  I'm good over here.  Really.  I can scare myself.  

I watched a video of Officer Harry Dunn speak up for Joe.  I love that guy.  I don't like the fact that AIPAC dumped a bunch of money to his opponent for Congress. I hope that Harry runs again.  He's a good human.  It cheered me up watching the video.

Fair weathered people irritate me.  I like loyalty.  We have bad days and that debate was a bad day for Joe.  He'll come back.  Trump can talk about assaulting women and he gets Republican support.  Joe has a cold and everyone wants to dump him.  I don't like that.

Feeling upset about the driver.  I showed my mom and sister pictures of the type of truck that hit me.  It had like grates on it and some of the grates were dragging on the ground after he hit me.  I feel like I'm going to pay for what he did with higher premiums now and that just isn't sitting well with me.  

I kind of suspect that the lurker somehow played a hand in me getting a stern message this week.  The lurker is the type to message others and point out what someone did.  I have no doubt that the one who makes me nervous said something about a mistake I made.  I think someone helped point it out to him though.  This was the type of stuff that I deal with for 2 years.  The lurker will be gone next week and that's a good thing.  It kind of upset me that the lurker worked on getting me out of my assignment and into a new one and she gets rewarded for getting it.  

I know life isn't fair.  I've had a lifetime of it.  Does it mean I have to like that fact?  No.  I don't.  I know people will get their karma at some point.  They'll have to respond for their accountability. I may not get to see it, but it will happen at some point in time, I believe.

May the good humans get rewarded with a good day.  

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