My Car

 I never had an interest in having a fancy car.  I wanted one of my own and when I did, I went with dependable cars like a Mazda.  I can't think of what would be comparable to the Corolla but once I went with the Toyota Corolla, I was perfectly happy with that. I had heard long ago that cops seemed to ticket more red cars for some reason. 

I'll admit I had a lead foot at times when I was younger but it seemed like once I got my own car, I was more mindful and where I worked made me more aware.  Yeah, I had a couple of speeding tickets and I take no pride in that. I made mistakes and I still make mistakes.  When we were cutting through the Walmart parking lot, my mom told me I ran through a stop sign. I didn't realize one was there. I was watching someone cross and I was making sure I slowed down.  I was trying at least. I felt stupid.  I still wonder did I do something that caused what happened yesterday?

It was a big deal when I got this car. I had my last car for 17 years.  It was mine after 5 years and I'd get hit with repairs. I had to replace the transmission 12 years ago but it was a Toyota.  They were dependable and it did get me through a lot.  It was like worth $500 when I turned it in in 2000. I said that's $495 more than I thought it would be worth. 

I was afraid to get a new one because I thought they'll look at my credit score and say you suck.  Go ride a bike. I have shame about my debt and I told the person who helped me.  I mentioned it got worse dealing with medical and he told me that he was growing his hair out for the Locks of Love thing. He said I got you on this and got me a deal I could work with.  He was a sweet kid.  I was sad to hear he was gone after a couple of years. I would have liked to have talked to him when I bought this car.  I love Toyotas.  They got me a good deal on my loan.

It meant a lot to get this car after all that I had gone through, especially in the five years leading up to it.  It's kind of crushing to see the passenger door.   I think it's drivable. I can open the passenger door. I can get the mirror fixed.  Everything else?  Can I do it?  If I file a claim, am I going to have juggle a higher premium on top of everything else.  Getting this car meant a lot to me at the time.  Granted, covid hit shortly before I got it so I couldn't show off but I did a little.  I had sat through and listened to so many conversations with our group lunches with the Keeping up with the Joneses and all that everything had.  When someone found out that I had a car for 17 years, they said Wow, nobody ever does that.  I got snickered at for it in some respect.  It hurt my pride.  My car was more dependable and then I got taken advantage of when I went somewhere else for repairs.  I'll stick with Andrews. I've been with them for 21 years.  I'll admit to straying but I've been 96% loyal to them.  When something works, they have my loyalty and after what happened in 2019, I'll never go to anyone else other than them.

It's such a nice car.  Yeah, it's got a little signs of life in it with a chocolate stain on passenger side.  I like my sweets, don't judge me.  I got a little cleaning to do.  It's a pretty dark blue and so nice.  Nothing like I ever had.  If I saw the monster in my mirror it would be hard to stop.  I'll admit that.  

I actually packed up a pair of shoes I had gotten from Cariuma. I had gotten $40 off but even with that, I looked at them last night and seemed stupid I had them. I have plenty of sneakers.  And, considering I'm on meter patrol, I'm afraid of stepping in dog poop with them.  Can't have nice shoes with the monster.  I like having a little extra money considering the circumstances.  

It was interesting to hear what my neighbor across the alley had to say about the monster.  The monster used to be friendly and now he runs when he sees my neighbor.  Our neighbor talked about stepping in dog poop because people don't seem to clean up after their dogs. I saw a trail of it outside the tattoo place and it seemed to reek.  Disgusting and yet the city is going to fine my neighbor if he doesn't get a gutter up by Monday.  We will definitely see my landlord this weekend because apparently he got the same letter about the garage.

I actually had Precious sitting on the pillow beside me meowing at 3:00 am.  She wanted food. I worry she might have thyroid problems. I had a cat like that.  She was fine. I had to give her a pill which I don't think she took very well.  Precious seems to be ok.  I fed her.  She lets me know when her litter needs cleaning.  Our neighbor told us that his upstairs tenant has a cat and he suspects the cat is spraying.  Yeah, boy cats.  I love all cats but this is why we get our girls.  I don't know if they can still spray after they have been neutered, but I know they can spray and that's bad.  I was reminded why we still with our girls.  I'm very grateful I have a fussy little girl who won't shut up even if it's the middle of the night to clean her litter box and clean it now.

I don't know what the day will bring me. I hope less tears.  I seem to be fine physically and I should remind myself that.  I'm ok.  Emotionally?  It depends on the hour.

Drive safe good humans and stay away from semis.