Downtown is the new plan

 I won't do my usual route.  I am kind of apprehensive about driving not because of the accident but because of what happened on Thursday.

I had taken the freeway part of the way and I have my route to the car place that I would take.  I was going down street hoping to head north shortly and I saw a car that seemed to be in my blind spot and kind of creeping on me.  It was like they wouldn't let me through.  There was something off.  I keep heading west and I saw the guy heading in the direction I was meant to go and he waved at me.  It was creepy.  I don't know if it had something to do with the car or just a weird person.  I was a little unnerved about the person that approached me in the parking lot at Wal-Mart.  

Whatever rental car I get, I don't want to use the car unless it's necessary.  I'm just apprehensive about a lot of things related to driving.  

I thought I would drive to the downtown area and find the building that we would have moved in if the pandemic hadn't hit.  I was so excited that we were moving.  No, I'm ok that things changed and the building is up for sale.  I would stop by and walk around the neighborhood to see where I could walk, where I could eat.  Where I could hide from people when they upset me.

People were not happy about this change.  The way it was handled was so bad.  It came across as kind of racist in my opinion.  We had discussions about it and some people suggested maybe we should bring in positive things about this change.  When I did find a positive article and hung it up on a bulletin board, someone took the article, showed it to one of the managers and there was a discussion in their particular meeting about putting stuff up like this.  I wasn't in the meeting but the person who took the article off the board?  They knew I had put it up there and she invited me to join even though I wasn't part of the group.  Once I found out about what happened, I took the article down and threw it in the shredder.  I was talked to later about how I should learn to know my audience better.  We were told to find positive things about this change.  Talk about mixed messages.  I was afraid to have my Milwaukee calendar up at my desk.  It was just like people were calling me trash as well.

I was lonesome for Milwaukee.  I felt so out of touch with the others because I didn't live in the same area.  It was just a lot different working with people in downtown Milwaukee versus where I was.  I know I'm in a suburb, but it's still just different.  When I came and got my stuff for the last time, we went into a Kohls to return a vacuum cleaner.  We were looked at like aliens because we had masks on.  My mom said we might as well take them off since everyone is effing staring at us.  She did not say effing.  She did say an F word and it was loud.  I kind of don't blame her. I felt the same frustration. 

I wasn't sad about the building being sold.  I thought well that seals me going to a building every day.  It would have been nice if we did return to the office, but I'm ok with the change of staying at home instead of being horrible old Milwaukee.

Here's hoping nobody offers me their card again in any parking lots.  Or tries to follow me and stares at my car.

Indoors is way more appealing lately.